Chimaira

Pull up your car you're home from the night on the town
Could not find anyone to go home with to show off your insecurity
So you put your "I love you face" back on
When you are this way you think you are God
But the people around you are destroyed
Coming home getting off by killing who you love
I hope you end up in a body bag

Walk up to your room to be with your lover
Although they don't share your desire
That night frustrated and intoxicated
You need to leech onto another

When you are this way you think you are God
While the people around you are destroyed
Coming home getting off by killing who you love
I hope you end up in a body bag
Pretend you are the king

One day this will all come back to you
One day your child will be a man

Go

What do you expect from me?
Will I ever be who you want me to be?
Will I ever live up to your standards?
Will you always look down on me?

Maybe I'm not who you are
Maybe I want to be myself
Live the life I've always dreamed about
This is not your path to choose

Yes, I taste it, yes, I breathe it
Yes, I hate it, yes, I feel strain
From our separation

But this is my life, this is my life
My cleansation, our separation
This is my life, this is my life
It's not yours anymore

Why did you insist on ruling?
Why did you try and control?
Why didn't you ever listen to me?
Ignored me, like a dog

Maybe I'm glad we're apart
Maybe I'm glad we don't speak
Anymore, I feel better now
Now that you are gone

Yes, I taste it, yes, I breathe it
Yes, I hate it, yes, I feel strain
From our separation

But this is my life, this is my life
My cleansation, our separation
This is my life, this is my life
It's not yours anymore

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
Yes, I taste it, yes, I breathe it
Yes, I hate it, yes, I feel strain
From our separation

But this is my life, this is my life
My cleansation, our separation
This is my life, this is my life
It's not yours anymore

This is my life, this is my life
This is my life
Now that you are gone

Face to face
No time to waste
This is the time for revenge
Your claim to fame
Of crushing dreams
Your control has no hold on me

I hate the way
You have no shame
You act like nothing's happened
It's time to rise
The final fight
This is the last time

I will not fail again
I will not let you win
Fuck your power trip

I'll throw away
The wasted days
The chance for revenge
My claim to fame
Ended in vain
This was the last time

I will not fail again
I will not let you win
Fuck your power trip

You are the one who's forsaken us all
Nothing has changed so together we fall
I am the one who's led us to believe
You can't change me

I will not fail again
I will not let you win
Fuck your power trip

Pollution of body and soul, the whole world is dying.
Pollution of moral sin, there is no denying.
Trapped in a swollen shell, barred away in a covert cell
Encased by wire and thorn
I stand and see, the hearts pour out of the hands which suffer.
The Vile image encircles me.

In essence the substance is killed

Tainted in this authority, wicked is its rule.
A cast of impure force
Dine, the feast of the assumption is well at hand.
Your physical appetite far surpasses any other.
The putrid hate encompasses a million bleeding eyes.
This is your way to kill the face of decay.
With wounded lips, no voice will carry.
And to the grave, corruption will take the blackened souls away.
Wrapped up in the beautiful cedar boxes.
The force had its way.
Pollution of body and soul, the whole world is dying.
Pollution of moral sin, there is no denying.

Lay a sullen grin upon this helpless knave
And lead the way that you wish
For these chained hands will always follow
The guilt and shame you guide me with

For I am here and will never leave
Sear the symphonies that lead you to elude my presence
Breaking yet another piece of me,
The pieces of shattered life are left scattered behind

I touched a lamb, this is the lamb I touched.

Could I ever be taken from your side,
A cold light would dim so low
Could I ever lift this forceful fear implanted.
An extinguished fever, I could breathe no more.

Uncover these hands to leave them stretch out,
For you to view the palms stained of crimson glistening,
Wide open, these hands aren't yours,
They are not the ones you owned before.

No longer am I the lifeless fool
So long a possession you thought was needed to be placed on me,
Ran out with blood you spilled over my corpse.

This is the enemy that you've created,
From a lifeless fool.
I am not the prey for which to feed,
All I want is to see starvation set.

Lamb you told me to obey, lamb.
Lamb thy enemy.

Face black another shadow of innocence tainted
Gave back all the lights and glitter
Wrong track again and again is stings
Wish you all could feel like this
12 is for the reason of regret
9 is for the pain that I'm caused
Will strife ever cease? Someday

Fuck this mind that is made to hate
Complete the task of humility
Restrained from who they want me to be
That's what they want me to be
That is not quite good enough for me
Fuck you and your thoughts on me
Fuck you and your thoughts of me
Fuck you how can I not be me
Fuck you I will never let you take me
I will never be that good little one
I can never see what is so good about life

I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing
My hands fell down now I know I failed
You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale
Maybe I should just end all this right here
Would you like that?
Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded
I am staying here to betray all of you
Never failing me again
Cut a little, it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?

I'm going to save me
My eyes turn the color jade
I look at everyone around me
I am so sick of this place
Anyone and anything makes me sick
I just want to end it all
I return to my room walls white with black shades
Oh how would red look?
The reasons are not for your ears
The feelings are not for your heart
I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming
Can I find a way out besides this?

I need it
I want to be where you are
I miss you

A slave to my thoughts daily
I finally lost my craving
Need this to end real soon
You come then you go away
No way I can make it through this
Can you feel my heart fade away?
Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?
My friends can't explain this to me
When I see you I don't see me
I feel I'll never gain
Your affection is a must to me
But reflections of past life won't let me be
Right now all hope is lost
Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?
Save some for me
There's still blood for nine

Images still in my head of you dead
I wish I could take them away instead
I sit in my room alone and cry over my loss
Will anything ever be the same?
I wish I could imagine you happy

A life of ecstasy that would be good enough to stop the pain that lingers
In my heart I know I would be content
It's your forced life, doesn't it feel the same to you?
I sit and wonder

While you ponder of pathetic items that bring you happiness
Those things that put a smile to your face
Are the things that kill me inside
I know deep down you have a good heart
But why am I never included in all of this?
I take you in, rise you up, yet my soul stays untouched?

Nothing ever changes in your mind
Nothing ever changes
Stick your hate to me
I'll find a way to break free

Crawling back up from the floor now
I look above me and there you are
I see your smiling face so pure, its gold
Reaching your hand out to touch mine
Perhaps all I needed was your smile
A nice compliment or two

Where were you a few weeks ago?
When I was wanting to, wanting to die
I felt so worthless but you saved me
Watching me almost fall under
You were with him I was with her
Wanting each other more then life
A kiss away from being perfect

Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you
All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two
I hate my thoughts now
I'll leave her alone to live in bliss
Your my savior my dream come true
Why

Trying to figure out a way
I'll lick your wounds I'll heal your sores
I can never face my past
Not together I felt so sick inside
Death will come very soon
I tear as we drift away
Picture me dead would you cry

Stay awake to decide
Are you coming back?
Is this my sanity?
I can't forgive

Oh, is it the same to me?
I can't take your place
I'll never see you, never flee from me
Severed

Lost lies in the house I bring
I can't fucking see
I can never pull your self from me
I can't focus

Libertine my, said to be
I will never save you
Wait, today is not the same
Severed

Fall into my hole
I keep seeking
Is there anything left to consume now?
I wish I were happy living in
Living in your perfect world
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
Now where do I see myself?
Stagnation from my own selfish thoughts
Should I work to achieve my goals or should I work to leave you be or
should I work to keep you home?
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
May guns rise to kill me
Vice Grip

Face I am nothing face
Complete by sarcastic tastes
What a waste I think I'd rather die
Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life
Always situations I can never hide
Crying tears of anger, hate

Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do
Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive"
A desperate cry for something else to justify
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to grey
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey
Plastic always drastic

A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through the attic
I know somewhere out there someone cares
Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think it's time repair
These scars will never clear
I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day maybe being sane
I might have tried before, but I locked the door
Now I need a reason to unlock it
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to gray
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to gray
Cutting and popping

I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping
Lying and crying
I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying
I take dying
I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did
Cold
In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried to die

Late night comes are you home?
No you're not

You're out with urge to satisfy yourself it's your vicious plot
Looking back I realize that it's my fault
I'm not around so your love comes to a halt
You have no remorse in you
It's the only thing you know
You destroy me every time you little cunt
I never wanted this

Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies
Every time I trust you I lose in the end
I feel disgust in myself

I love how you can call me and pretend you're innocent
While I'm out here trying to better myself
You're a pig when it comes to my emotions

You drown me in your wake because you have no devotion
You have no remorse in you
It's the only thing you know

You destroy me every time you little cunt
I never wanted this

Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies
Every time I trust you I lose in the end

Oh I'm that sick I see it that way
I'd rather be dead then have you stay
You pretend that it's OK
Right now it's my time to take
Feeding off my hate today
Feeding off the lives I waste
Now it's time to change my ways
Now it's time to erase my name
Can't see my face
You can't see my face now
Pass out of existence
Gone

Disgusted by your presence now
I wonder what it would be like if you were down
Could you cope? Could you really cope?
Could you hope? Or would you sit and wait for me?
Seeking for my placement now
Now it's time to change my ways
Now it's time to erase my name
Can't see my face

You can't see my face now
Pass out of existence
When I close my eyes
I see myself dead
I know you want it this way don't you?
When I close my eyes
I see myself
Dead, gone now

I feel as if I have been dreaming
I am confused as to how I got here

One minute
I am heading down a path of destruction with no hopes but for death
Then there was you

You opened me to a different light
The path you lead me down was priceless
With one quick glance it was stripped from me
I was so ashamed I never let you be you
I have been puking with regret

I found myself again
And although we were apart
I managed to move on
Something was still missing
I made me sick
Far to familiar

I needed you once again, maybe now I can change
Maybe now I can secure my lumps

Stay awake to decide
Are you coming back?
Is this my sanity?
I can't forgive

Oh, is it the same to me?
I can't take your place
I'll never see you, never flee from me
Severed

Lost lies in the house I bring
I can't fucking see
I can never pull your self from me
I can't focus

Libertine my, said to be
I will never save you
Wait, today is not the same
Severed

I felt so alone
You left feeling so empty and needing
Can't see the glitter in you
You called me all the time
Hiding behind your lies materialistic

Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
You called him a friend to help you get through it
I see your true face now
Well my tears are gone, I am happy now
Thanks for making it clear

Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside(Repeat 2times)
I am dead to you
You take my heart and used it as a tool
I wish that this would just go away
You can't find love you can't cry tears
(Low Growl)

You won't be crying alone
Dead Inside (repeat 7 times)
Who are you today, another face erased
(Low Growl)

Dead Inside(Deep Growl)
You don't know what its like to be Dead Inside
You don't know what its like to be Dead Inside
Who are you

Your dead inside
Dead inside!
Your Dead Inside