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My scabs are almost picked
Slowly growing into this Feelings I just can't let go I am such a bore that you need that much more Go back that way and see what you get from me then Nothing at all My dead hands rise Why am I this way? Face my past I can't let go I see them in the jel Laughing at me it is hell Nothing can stop this torture Fake my way through life Call on me my wife Went back that way and I saw just what I was worth Nothing at all My dead hands rise Why am I this way? Face my past I can't let go I won't take no for an answer |
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| 2. |
| 3:46 |
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I felt so alone
You left feeling so empty and needing Can't see the glitter in you You called me all the time Hiding behind your lies materialistic Go away You don't know what it's like to be dead inside You called him a friend to help you get through it I see your true face now Well my tears are gone, I am happy now Thanks for making it clear Go away You don't know what it's like to be dead inside(Repeat 2times) I am dead to you You take my heart and used it as a tool I wish that this would just go away You can't find love you can't cry tears (Low Growl) You won't be crying alone Dead Inside (repeat 7 times) Who are you today, another face erased (Low Growl) Dead Inside(Deep Growl) You don't know what its like to be Dead Inside You don't know what its like to be Dead Inside Who are you Your dead inside Dead inside! Your Dead Inside |
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| 3. |
| 3:17 |
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Stay awake to decide
Are you coming back? Is this my sanity? I can't forgive Oh, is it the same to me? I can't take your place I'll never see you, never flee from me Severed Lost lies in the house I bring I can't fucking see I can never pull your self from me I can't focus Libertine my, said to be I will never save you Wait, today is not the same Severed |
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| 4. |
| 3:54 |
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I feel as if I have been dreaming
I am confused as to how I got here One minute I am heading down a path of destruction with no hopes but for death Then there was you You opened me to a different light The path you lead me down was priceless With one quick glance it was stripped from me I was so ashamed I never let you be you I have been puking with regret I found myself again And although we were apart I managed to move on Something was still missing I made me sick Far to familiar I needed you once again, maybe now I can change Maybe now I can secure my lumps |
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| 5. |
| 3:24 |
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Oh I'm that sick I see it that way
I'd rather be dead then have you stay You pretend that it's OK Right now it's my time to take Feeding off my hate today Feeding off the lives I waste Now it's time to change my ways Now it's time to erase my name Can't see my face You can't see my face now Pass out of existence Gone Disgusted by your presence now I wonder what it would be like if you were down Could you cope? Could you really cope? Could you hope? Or would you sit and wait for me? Seeking for my placement now Now it's time to change my ways Now it's time to erase my name Can't see my face You can't see my face now Pass out of existence When I close my eyes I see myself dead I know you want it this way don't you? When I close my eyes I see myself Dead, gone now |
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| 6. |
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| 7. |
| 3:12 |
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Late night comes are you home?
No you're not You're out with urge to satisfy yourself it's your vicious plot Looking back I realize that it's my fault I'm not around so your love comes to a halt You have no remorse in you It's the only thing you know You destroy me every time you little cunt I never wanted this Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies Every time I trust you I lose in the end I feel disgust in myself I love how you can call me and pretend you're innocent While I'm out here trying to better myself You're a pig when it comes to my emotions You drown me in your wake because you have no devotion You have no remorse in you It's the only thing you know You destroy me every time you little cunt I never wanted this Gave myself to you to get paid back with lies Every time I trust you I lose in the end |
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| 4:45 |
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Face I am nothing face
Complete by sarcastic tastes What a waste I think I'd rather die Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life Always situations I can never hide Crying tears of anger, hate Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive" A desperate cry for something else to justify I'm in a daze caused by pain A failing force that wants to change Painting the white to grey Numb body shivering Blood dripping from the skin Painting the white to grey Plastic always drastic A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through the attic I know somewhere out there someone cares Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think it's time repair These scars will never clear I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day maybe being sane I might have tried before, but I locked the door Now I need a reason to unlock it I'm in a daze caused by pain A failing force that wants to change Painting the white to gray Numb body shivering Blood dripping from the skin Painting the white to gray Cutting and popping I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping Lying and crying I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying I take dying I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did Cold In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried to die |
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| 4:02 |
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Fall into my hole
I keep seeking Is there anything left to consume now? I wish I were happy living in Living in your perfect world You were never understanding enough You were never supportive of me Now I run away from you Now I hide all this pain Can you taste my tears on you? Now where do I see myself? Stagnation from my own selfish thoughts Should I work to achieve my goals or should I work to leave you be or should I work to keep you home? You were never understanding enough You were never supportive of me Now I run away from you Now I hide all this pain Can you taste my tears on you? May guns rise to kill me Vice Grip |
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| 10. |
| 4:39 |
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Pull up your car you're home from the night on the town
Could not find anyone to go home with to show off your insecurity So you put your "I love you face" back on When you are this way you think you are God But the people around you are destroyed Coming home getting off by killing who you love I hope you end up in a body bag Walk up to your room to be with your lover Although they don't share your desire That night frustrated and intoxicated You need to leech onto another When you are this way you think you are God While the people around you are destroyed Coming home getting off by killing who you love I hope you end up in a body bag Pretend you are the king One day this will all come back to you One day your child will be a man |
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| 11. |
| 4:20 |
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Crawling back up from the floor now
I look above me and there you are I see your smiling face so pure, its gold Reaching your hand out to touch mine Perhaps all I needed was your smile A nice compliment or two Where were you a few weeks ago? When I was wanting to, wanting to die I felt so worthless but you saved me Watching me almost fall under You were with him I was with her Wanting each other more then life A kiss away from being perfect Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two I hate my thoughts now I'll leave her alone to live in bliss Your my savior my dream come true Why Trying to figure out a way I'll lick your wounds I'll heal your sores I can never face my past Not together I felt so sick inside Death will come very soon I tear as we drift away Picture me dead would you cry |
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| 12. |
| 3:47 |
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Images still in my head of you dead
I wish I could take them away instead I sit in my room alone and cry over my loss Will anything ever be the same? I wish I could imagine you happy A life of ecstasy that would be good enough to stop the pain that lingers In my heart I know I would be content It's your forced life, doesn't it feel the same to you? I sit and wonder While you ponder of pathetic items that bring you happiness Those things that put a smile to your face Are the things that kill me inside I know deep down you have a good heart But why am I never included in all of this? I take you in, rise you up, yet my soul stays untouched? Nothing ever changes in your mind Nothing ever changes Stick your hate to me I'll find a way to break free |
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| 13. |
| 3:51 |
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A slave to my thoughts daily
I finally lost my craving Need this to end real soon You come then you go away No way I can make it through this Can you feel my heart fade away? Do you remember what it was like when you told me no? Feeling I can't figure me out I'd try but I'm not allowed Where do I go from here now? My friends can't explain this to me When I see you I don't see me I feel I'll never gain Your affection is a must to me But reflections of past life won't let me be Right now all hope is lost Do you remember what it was like when you told me no? Feeling I can't figure me out I'd try but I'm not allowed Where do I go from here now? Save some for me There's still blood for nine |
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| 14. |
| 13:56 |
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Face black another shadow of innocence tainted
Gave back all the lights and glitter Wrong track again and again is stings Wish you all could feel like this 12 is for the reason of regret 9 is for the pain that I'm caused Will strife ever cease? Someday Fuck this mind that is made to hate Complete the task of humility Restrained from who they want me to be That's what they want me to be That is not quite good enough for me Fuck you and your thoughts on me Fuck you and your thoughts of me Fuck you how can I not be me Fuck you I will never let you take me I will never be that good little one I can never see what is so good about life I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing My hands fell down now I know I failed You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale Maybe I should just end all this right here Would you like that? Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded I am staying here to betray all of you Never failing me again Cut a little, it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze? I'm going to save me My eyes turn the color jade I look at everyone around me I am so sick of this place Anyone and anything makes me sick I just want to end it all I return to my room walls white with black shades Oh how would red look? The reasons are not for your ears The feelings are not for your heart I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming Can I find a way out besides this? I need it I want to be where you are I miss you |
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