i know you're waiting for so long, waiting for a sign. a sign that someone cares about you. but life is hard the way we live, putting each other down. killing people in our minds.... we gotta hide it all, we gotta hide it in our lives... and every day you went to school scared to be the one, the one they shall terrorize. standing in this world all by yourself. it's you and only you. all alone you will survive. you've done it all by yourself.
i was only twelve years old when i started having dreams about playing in a band without hypocrisy. but as i'm older now i've come to realize that playing in a band is not utopia so here is my advice. you gotta try real hard to get rid of them. of all these old-fashioned ideas you been having about this music. you gotta try real hard to get out of this, out of this hypocrite scene 'cause there's nothing you van do about it. one day i was old enough to realize my dreams. i could not know that music isn't what it seems. but as i'm older now i've come to realise that playing in a band is not utopia so here is my advice.
i always thought that we were sane 'cause we were the ones that walked against the grain. but man i was wrong. 'cause you turned out to be the kind of guy we always used to fight. 'cause man you've changed.... i remember times when we were strong. but now you're not so strong. i never thought we could be wrong. but now you're all so wrong.... i always thought that we wouldn't change, that our struggle against this society of hate could never be stopped. but as you grew up you started to change. you started to do the things we used to hate. so who are you now? back the in 1995 when you had changed your life. i now just don't know you no more. you changed your life for sure. and now you go along with the grain so now you're a person we used to call insane. ever thought about that? you couldn't stop, you had to be free. so what you did is turn your back on me and i thought we were friends.
i guess i'm really not that smart 'cause if i was i would have seen it all form the start. you kept repeating "i'm in love." you just never said that it's not me you were thinking of. but now you're gone and i feel bad 'cause you didn't care about me. love is something we never had 'cause you never cared about me.... and there's al lesson that i've learned. play with fire and you'll get burned.... i guess i'm really not that bright 'cause if i was i would have seen you'd changes overnight. you came to me all nice and sweet. and i was dumb enough to throw myself at your feet. but now you're gone i feel betrayed 'cause you didn't care about me. thinking of all the games you played 'cause you never cared about me. and you'll get burned like i got burned. i guess i'm really not that smart 'cause if i was i would have seen it all from the start.... and now you're gone and i feel relieved 'cause you didn't care about me. i can't believe i ever grieved 'cause you never cared about me.
sitting all curled up inside, the only place where i can hide. where i can hide. i'll just put up a fake smile, that ought to fool them for a while. why should they know? they don't know who i am, still they think i'm crazy. i think of what i done 'til now, the perfect way to bring me down. to bring me down. i'm scared to fail so i don't try. i let my chances pass me by.... the bottom's fallen out and i think i'm crazy. i don't know what i'm about. i don't know and i'm crazy.... i should be my, but who will that be? i don't know what i'm about, i don't know and i'm crazy. and i'm crazy.
time is a difficult thing. you can get lost for years and then don't know where you've been. and when you are 81, you are wondering where the years that you have passed have gone.... is that really why there's time around us? is that really all there is around us? isn't there another option for us to create a dimension?... time will be over soon 'cause the life that i live will be over around noon. i don't keep myself in health. so when others grow 100, i will be dead at 10. time is a difficult thing. you can get lost for years and then don't know where you have been.
i can remember the struggles i knew. the person i could alway count on was you. i took it for granted, i guess you did too. you thought i was your friend, yuo thought it was true. but then came the time you needed my help. and i was too scared i only cared for myself... i can't help you. you gotta try to get on by yourself. i won't help you. is friendship the one thing we never had? i can't help it. i won't help you... i thought i knew now it seems i was wrong. when it came down to it i wasn't that strong. when you called my name i stood nailed to the floor. i thought i knew now i don't anymore. 'cause there came a time that you needed my help. and i was too scared, i only cared for myself.
looking in the mirror. can't you see what everybody sees? thought you'd see things clearer, but you brought yourself down to your knees. and i'm looking through you. through you. do you? don't you recognize all the signs? you wanted to get somewhere. so you used your friends to hitch a ride. Now you've reached that somewhere, but you feel so alone 'there' every night. don't you wanna get back to? back to? do you? don't you remember the way home? ...is it a true again? can you still refrain? is the pleasure worth all this pain? ...the mirror looks back at you and it sees what everybody sees. it know it's gonna get you, but you're too blind to let yourself be free. even the mirror looks through you. through you. do you? don't you recognize all the signs? you're staring at some strangers face. it's to late! can't you find your way out of this maze. it's to late! no one's as blind as he who will not see. guess that it's over, can't you see you and me. guess that it's over for me. can't you see where you're going? can't you see what you're doing?
why don't you take a look at yourself? stop acting like you don't need help. 'cause you have got your failures too. so look inside of you. a lot of people dont' know themselves. because they never have been through hell. so ask this question if you think you're wise. "am i not what i despise?" ....a lot of people just don't see that what they hate they'll come to be. and now you may feel better because you laugh about them. but they will laugh harder in the end... hypocrisy, irony and hate. a big part of what runs this state. though hate is the most powerful one. don't use it just to have fun. we've all got problems of our own. don't fuck around you'll be left alone. that's what integrity is all about. and hypocrisy's not allowed. why don't i take a look at myself? stop acting like i don't need help. 'cause i have got my failures too. but look inside of you.
Where can I go for a warm place tonight? Where can I go for a safe place to hide? I hope that it's close to you, 'cuz your the only girl. The one that makes me feel like i'm on top of the world. And you'll never hear it anyway, but i'd like to say to you.
Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You won't be with me tonight. Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You'll never be by my side.
Where can you go for a warm place tonight? Where can you go for a safe place to hide? I hope that it's close to me, but i'm not the only guy. That sits here waiting for as you keep passing by. And you'll never hear it anyway, but i'd like to say to you.
Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You won't be with me tonight. Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You'll never be by my side.
When your close to me, I don't know what to say. I feel so insecure. You can't take it away.
Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You won't be with me tonight. Can't you see that I like you? Can't you see that I want you? I can not touch you. You'll never be by my side.
i'd rather not see you 'cause i'd like to see you again. i'd rather not see you 'cause you'd see the geek i am. i wish that i knew you, i don't. i just wanna hold you, i won't. i'm just afraid you'll say no! before you go. when your eyes catch me i stumble and stare at the floor. i wanna talk to you, instead i walk right out the door. i wish i was braver, i'm not. i wish i could give all i've got. i'm just afraid you'll say no! before you go. i wish i could call you, but you would hang up. i wanna talk to you, but you'd say "shut up!" there must be some way to let you know i don't want you to go.
I'm 21, my life has just begun. But already i'm in pain. I feel like i'm insane. (I feel like i'm insane). I don't know how i could express myself. The words are hard to find. I can not clear my mind. (I can not clear my mind).
Each night I sit at home, I can not find an explanation. What is it about me that is making me stay alone? (x2)
Everyday I think about how it could be. With somebody to hold, I wouldn't feel so cold. (I wouldn't feel so cold).
Is there no one to share my feelings with? 'Cuz i've got a lot to share, But no one seems to care. (But no one seems to care).
Each night I sit at home, I can not find an explanation. What is it about me that is making me stay alone? (x2)
There was a time when I felt alive. Somehow the good time has passed me by.
Each night I sit at home, I can not find an explanation. What is it about me that is making me stay alone? Each night I sit at home, I can not find an explanation. What is it about me that is making me stay? What is it about me that is making me stay? What is it about me that is making me stay alone?
Maybe today i will finally find The handful of words that bring peace of mind 'Cause yesterday left me with nothing at all I can't change a thing i'm feeling so small...
(Chorus) But as i'm waiting, i'm winning my chances are passing me by And as i'm waiting, i'm losing the spirit to get up and try Another day ends and i sit around by myself thinking "Life doesn't rhyme." Maybe tomorrow won't be here in time....
Maybe today they are finally said The handful of words that will clean my head 'Cause yesterday left me with nothing at all I don't know a thing i'm feeling so small...
(Repeat Chorus)
But i'm still waiting Yeah i'm still waiting Do you felt like waiting all this time?
But i'm still waiting Yeah i'm still waiting Do you felt like waiting all this time?
(Repeat Chorus)
Maybe tomorrow won't be here in time...(x3) Maybe tomorrow!
I don't know why I came in the first place It seemed o.k. back then but now I just don't know appearances deceive This town is a pretty town to leave Oh home sweet home, is what it never was to me, Looking for the exit 'cause now I know appearances deceive, This town is a pretty town to leave Everyday I wonder Can I leave? I wonder Why am I here? Everyday I'm planning My escape I'm running Running away Away Headed for the first bus out of town
Those words on the shelf Not giving me any help at all Disguised as my guide Won't lead me anywhere Dictate what to feel They're trying to make it all look real As if I don't know What you're trying to do Every page That I'm turning It's my face that will turn with it Couldn't stand me The bare sight of me Cause I'm living the opposite First page 'til the last The art of brainwashing at it's best Try to hypnotize They want me paralyzed The life that's portrayed The styles that they want me to embrace They're out of this world Have to get them out of my face Page one Not a description of me Page two It's someone else that I see Page three I will not read this and weep I'm choosing my own direction I will write my own damn manifest Page four Hypnotized Page five Paralyzed Page six - Idolized
I know what you're like Cause I've seen your kind These words I have heard many times, many times There's always someone Who thinks he knows you She knows what you're like just by looking at you Am I not what you hope to be? Your standard is not reserved for me Are you not what I hope to be? My standard's reserved only for...... I try to see through the blindness But sometimes I just can't fight it, no!! I won't be mislead by the words you say!!! Could you be like me? Could I be like you? Will I ever know if I don't talk to you? Can't see through my eyes So just look away I don't have to hear what you think there's to say Now mark my words You've had your last So sick and tired of the finger-pointing What do you know? Who gave you the right? What gave you the right? Yeah I know what you're like Cause I've seen your kind Don't you cross my path if you're thinking like that I could be like you You could be like me But you'll never know cause you won't talk to me I won't be the scapegoat, no never, no way
