I Against I

You'll never know anything that I've done And you'll never know anything that I've seen Don't you
pretend that you care one bit How have you been, haven't seen you in a while Found your name in
the 'missing person' files Why are you here; there's nothing to prove You'll get nowhere Speak for
yourself, don't be a talk-a-like Try to be righteous, like Tina; not Ike Don't be a private dancer
for life And if you got a mind of your own, why don't you use it And if you got a mind of your
own, why don't you prove it Prove you have brains by blowing them out You'll get nowhere Don't
you realize all this will get you nowhere You scratch the surface at it's most To open up yourself
would make you taste the real thing It has some good times, and some bad But it's better than this
Don't need you here; goodbye for always Your flight outta here has not been delayed Go the hell
away and never come back I never liked what you did and said Suck up to me again; you'll be dead
You'll be JFK; I'll be Lee Harvey Go away Never come back

Well for a moment it was over then I don't think that it's over, now Now we can go on this way
Like nothing happened; nothing changed a bit But I wouldn't bet my life on it The feeling just
won't go away Leave me alone There's nothing wrong You wouldn't listen then Well fuck you I won't
tell you now If there is anything you feel Listen to what it tells you It won't hurt a bit to kneel
There was a time when I was easy 'cause Now I'm acting on my worst I know that I have you to
thank You never listened to a word I said And I just don't feel sorry now That it's you who has to
pay Fuck you I just won't tell you I spent a lifetime on you But now I'm back where I belong

I can't accept that you feel safer when you're not here with me I think that you're such a fucked
up bitch No one has told me about the tricks you pull when you're alone But I know you never were
alone And I never thought I'd say this to you now Oh I feel so broken down Cause you never were
around And there's no way that I'm gonna wait for you You're so hard to be around Cause you always
put me down And did you really think I would.....yeah Sometimes I wonder why I'm here, your
listening, finger in your ears Sometimes I'm glad you're not around Told me I was the only one,
but so was he, ain't that strange I know I'm way out of your league But I never thought I'd say
this to you now....... Expect me to do for you What you'd never do for me Can't stand myself for
caring I'm treated like the air you breathe Well change your mind! I cheat myself by letting you
cheat me

You've done me wrong and I would bleed If I watched you If I could watch you bleed as well Feel so
stupid for my state of mind Cause my mind knows I still love what I hate And I know that I'm
wasting my time here on you Yeah I know that I'm wasting my time hating you How I wish you hadn't
stabbed me But you did It'll come back at you Yeah you really hurt me so bad You'll be sorry Cause
I will make you feel my pain Still I know that I'm wasting my time hating you Yeah I know that I'm
wasting my time here on you I'll break you like you broke me That is all I've got to do I realize
I'm wasting time I can't help wanting you You've done me wrong and now I'm bleeding Man I'm
bleeding And it doesn't change a thing I can't think straight when I'm near you Cause I fear you
And I won't be scared no more Now I know that I'm wasting my time here on you All I know is I'm
hating my time hating you

Don't want to be searching anymore Tried so hard, forgot what I'm looking for Who'll rewind Who'll
remind me what the search was for Talk so fast I can't keep up Tried so hard, forgot who I was Who
am I Who are you and what the hell is true?! Only alphabet, only alphabet Everything that I don't
say will tell you who I show myself in all the things I don't do Opinions forced upon me brutally
Tomorrow's mistake is the truth today, you see Leave me be I need to be alone with my own thoughts
You may think you are number one, but So do I; that's a song been sung A million times Or even more
even more and more Know your lines; recite them in your head Repeat them on and on and once more
after that Know your lines, repeat them in your head Again again again , they're only alphabet
Don't want to be searching anymore Tried so hard forgot what I'm looking for Who'll rewind Who'll
remind me; can't search anymore I show myself in all the things that I don't do Everything that I
don't say will tell you who

Accused of living in a dreamworld Told me that it's my way out But what the @#$* should I wake up
to? To your world? I'd rather not! Propagate a lot of theories Won't reflect the likes of me Lack
the will to be a weasel Not lured into your security Yeah, I live in a dream but who put me to
sleep You think you're awake, you're just counting the
.. Now move to the side cause your world's
in my way There's no chance that you'll wake me up I'll never...... Rising up by putting down All
is done just to fit in But do you know What to fit into? I can't stand the endless beating The
pressure and the double-talk I won't meet your sorry measures Talk all you want but I'll stand tall
I'll never live up to your standard Of giving in just to get by And you can save your hollow
phrases Just say goodbye I'm gone Exempt, from all your sorry measures I'm gone Not touched, by
your cold hands I'm gone Immune, to all the endless beating There's no way that you will drag me
in I'll never live on your flat earth No never

Stood on the edge I was watching down Refused to fall and hit the ground Seconds away: a zone free
from pain But I turned away, didn't know That it's me who draws the line I'm the tyrant in my mind
And I'm gonna try if that is all That I can do This is a two-way street I'm in the middle I'm
looking for a quick way out But apathy won't get me out of this It won't get me out of here You'll
never know You'll never know if you don't try it Stopped turning away I looked on my head Silence
was louder than a bomb The parts wouldn't fit They never would I held my breath, didn't know I'm
the tyrant in my mind Yeah, it's me who draws the line And I'm gonna try 'cause that is all that I
can do Tried hard enough this time So glad it worked 'Cause I was never down Fooled myself around
I drew the line Yeah it was me this time I left the two-way street Changed my directions Now I
found the way out Apathy would not do it for me Never did a thing for me And you'll never know
You'll never know if you don't try it Never know if you don't try it

There will be no pacification I won't tune in to your station I'm gonna take out all that is inside
Try to stop what I am doing In spite of warnings you're pursuing This has been your last call,
can't kill my voice You're out of here Didn't come on invitation There will be no pacification I'm
gonna fight the doubt that lives inside Try to stop what I am doing In spite of warnings you're
pursuing This has been your last call can't kill my voice I won't be dragged in there It won't be
my freewill Put up a fence around my brain I won't be the next to bow down to your fucking plans
This is all there is, this warning was the last It's all there is, the last stone that I'll cast
There will be no pacification So you can save your revelations My mind won't be switched off, can't
kill my plans Try to make me think like you do When I know that I've been lied to You're never
ever going to succeed You'll never kill it Not my freewill So listen closely This is your last call
One last

I know what you're like Cause I've seen your kind These words I have heard many times, many times
There's always someone Who thinks he knows you She knows what you're like just by looking at you Am
I not what you hope to be? Your standard is not reserved for me Are you not what I hope to be? My
standard's reserved only for...... I try to see through the blindness But sometimes I just can't
fight it, no!! I won't be mislead by the words you say!!! Could you be like me? Could I be like
you? Will I ever know if I don't talk to you? Can't see through my eyes So just look away I don't
have to hear what you think there's to say Now mark my words You've had your last So sick and tired
of the finger-pointing What do you know? Who gave you the right? What gave you the right? Yeah I
know what you're like Cause I've seen your kind Don't you cross my path if you're thinking like
that I could be like you You could be like me But you'll never know cause you won't talk to me I
won't be the scapegoat, no never, no way

Those words on the shelf Not giving me any help at all Disguised as my guide Won't lead me anywhere
Dictate what to feel They're trying to make it all look real As if I don't know What you're trying
to do Every page That I'm turning It's my face that will turn with it Couldn't stand me The bare
sight of me Cause I'm living the opposite First page 'til the last The art of brainwashing at it's
best Try to hypnotize They want me paralyzed The life that's portrayed The styles that they want
me to embrace They're out of this world Have to get them out of my face Page one Not a description
of me Page two It's someone else that I see Page three I will not read this and weep I'm choosing
my own direction I will write my own damn manifest Page four Hypnotized Page five Paralyzed Page
six - Idolized

I don't know why I came in the first place It seemed o.k. back then but now I just don't know
appearances deceive This town is a pretty town to leave Oh home sweet home, is what it never was
to me, Looking for the exit 'cause now I know appearances deceive, This town is a pretty town to
leave Everyday I wonder Can I leave? I wonder Why am I here? Everyday I'm planning My escape I'm
running Running away Away Headed for the first bus out of town

Irony people, irony.

Maybe today i will finally find
The handful of words that bring peace of mind
'Cause yesterday left me with nothing at all
I can't change a thing i'm feeling so small...

(Chorus)
But as i'm waiting, i'm winning my chances are passing me by
And as i'm waiting, i'm losing the spirit to get up and try
Another day ends and i sit around by myself thinking "Life doesn't rhyme." Maybe tomorrow won't be here in time....

Maybe today they are finally said
The handful of words that will clean my head
'Cause yesterday left me with nothing at all
I don't know a thing i'm feeling so small...

(Repeat Chorus)

But i'm still waiting
Yeah i'm still waiting
Do you felt like waiting all this time?

But i'm still waiting
Yeah i'm still waiting
Do you felt like waiting all this time?

(Repeat Chorus)

Maybe tomorrow won't be here in time...(x3)
Maybe tomorrow!

I'm 21, my life has just begun.
But already i'm in pain.
I feel like i'm insane.
(I feel like i'm insane).
I don't know how i could express myself.
The words are hard to find.
I can not clear my mind.
(I can not clear my mind).

Each night I sit at home,
I can not find an explanation.
What is it about me that is making me stay alone?
(x2)

Everyday I think about how it could be.
With somebody to hold,
I wouldn't feel so cold.
(I wouldn't feel so cold).

Is there no one to share my feelings with?
'Cuz i've got a lot to share,
But no one seems to care.
(But no one seems to care).

Each night I sit at home,
I can not find an explanation.
What is it about me that is making me stay alone?
(x2)

There was a time when I felt alive.
Somehow the good time has passed me by.

Each night I sit at home,
I can not find an explanation.
What is it about me that is making me stay alone?
Each night I sit at home,
I can not find an explanation.
What is it about me that is making me stay?
What is it about me that is making me stay?
What is it about me that is making me stay alone?

i'd rather not see you 'cause i'd like to see you again. i'd rather not see you 'cause you'd see the geek i am. i wish that i knew you, i don't. i just wanna hold you, i won't. i'm just afraid you'll say no! before you go. when your eyes catch me i stumble and stare at the floor. i wanna talk to you, instead i walk right out the door. i wish i was braver, i'm not. i wish i could give all i've got. i'm just afraid you'll say no! before you go. i wish i could call you, but you would hang up. i wanna talk to you, but you'd say "shut up!" there must be some way to let you know i don't want you to go.

Where can I go for a warm place tonight?
Where can I go for a safe place to hide?
I hope that it's close to you,
'cuz your the only girl.
The one that makes me feel like i'm on top of the world.
And you'll never hear it anyway,
but i'd like to say to you.

Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You won't be with me tonight.
Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You'll never be by my side.

Where can you go for a warm place tonight?
Where can you go for a safe place to hide?
I hope that it's close to me,
but i'm not the only guy.
That sits here waiting for as you keep passing by.
And you'll never hear it anyway,
but i'd like to say to you.

Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You won't be with me tonight.
Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You'll never be by my side.

When your close to me,
I don't know what to say.
I feel so insecure.
You can't take it away.

Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You won't be with me tonight.
Can't you see that I like you?
Can't you see that I want you?
I can not touch you.
You'll never be by my side.

why don't you take a look at yourself? stop acting like you don't need help. 'cause you have got your failures too. so look inside of you. a lot of people dont' know themselves. because they never have been through hell. so ask this question if you think you're wise. "am i not what i despise?" ....a lot of people just don't see that what they hate they'll come to be. and now you may feel better because you laugh about them. but they will laugh harder in the end... hypocrisy, irony and hate. a big part of what runs this state. though hate is the most powerful one. don't use it just to have fun. we've all got problems of our own. don't fuck around you'll be left alone. that's what integrity is all about. and hypocrisy's not allowed. why don't i take a look at myself? stop acting like i don't need help. 'cause i have got my failures too. but look inside of you.

looking in the mirror. can't you see what everybody sees? thought you'd see things clearer, but you brought yourself down to your knees. and i'm looking through you. through you. do you? don't you recognize all the signs? you wanted to get somewhere. so you used your friends to hitch a ride. Now you've reached that somewhere, but you feel so alone 'there' every night. don't you wanna get back to? back to? do you? don't you remember the way home? ...is it a true again? can you still refrain? is the pleasure worth all this pain? ...the mirror looks back at you and it sees what everybody sees. it know it's gonna get you, but you're too blind to let yourself be free. even the mirror looks through you. through you. do you? don't you recognize all the signs? you're staring at some strangers face. it's to late! can't you find your way out of this maze. it's to late! no one's as blind as he who will not see. guess that it's over, can't you see you and me. guess that it's over for me. can't you see where you're going? can't you see what you're doing?

i can remember the struggles i knew. the person i could alway count on was you. i took it for granted, i guess you did too. you thought i was your friend, yuo thought it was true. but then came the time you needed my help. and i was too scared i only cared for myself... i can't help you. you gotta try to get on by yourself. i won't help you. is friendship the one thing we never had? i can't help it. i won't help you... i thought i knew now it seems i was wrong. when it came down to it i wasn't that strong. when you called my name i stood nailed to the floor. i thought i knew now i don't anymore. 'cause there came a time that you needed my help. and i was too scared, i only cared for myself.

time is a difficult thing. you can get lost for years and then don't know where you've been. and when you are 81, you are wondering where the years that you have passed have gone.... is that really why there's time around us? is that really all there is around us? isn't there another option for us to create a dimension?... time will be over soon 'cause the life that i live will be over around noon. i don't keep myself in health. so when others grow 100, i will be dead at 10. time is a difficult thing. you can get lost for years and then don't know where you have been.

sitting all curled up inside, the only place where i can hide. where i can hide. i'll just put up a fake smile, that ought to fool them for a while. why should they know? they don't know who i am, still they think i'm crazy. i think of what i done 'til now, the perfect way to bring me down. to bring me down. i'm scared to fail so i don't try. i let my chances pass me by.... the bottom's fallen out and i think i'm crazy. i don't know what i'm about. i don't know and i'm crazy.... i should be my, but who will that be? i don't know what i'm about, i don't know and i'm crazy. and i'm crazy.

i guess i'm really not that smart 'cause if i was i would have seen it all form the start. you kept repeating "i'm in love." you just never said that it's not me you were thinking of. but now you're gone and i feel bad 'cause you didn't care about me. love is something we never had 'cause you never cared about me.... and there's al lesson that i've learned. play with fire and you'll get burned.... i guess i'm really not that bright 'cause if i was i would have seen you'd changes overnight. you came to me all nice and sweet. and i was dumb enough to throw myself at your feet. but now you're gone i feel betrayed 'cause you didn't care about me. thinking of all the games you played 'cause you never cared about me. and you'll get burned like i got burned. i guess i'm really not that smart 'cause if i was i would have seen it all from the start.... and now you're gone and i feel relieved 'cause you didn't care about me. i can't believe i ever grieved 'cause you never cared about me.

i always thought that we were sane 'cause we were the ones that walked against the grain. but man i was wrong. 'cause you turned out to be the kind of guy we always used to fight. 'cause man you've changed.... i remember times when we were strong. but now you're not so strong. i never thought we could be wrong. but now you're all so wrong.... i always thought that we wouldn't change, that our struggle against this society of hate could never be stopped. but as you grew up you started to change. you started to do the things we used to hate. so who are you now? back the in 1995 when you had changed your life. i now just don't know you no more. you changed your life for sure. and now you go along with the grain so now you're a person we used to call insane. ever thought about that? you couldn't stop, you had to be free. so what you did is turn your back on me and i thought we were friends.

i was only twelve years old when i started having dreams about playing in a band without hypocrisy. but as i'm older now i've come to realize that playing in a band is not utopia so here is my advice. you gotta try real hard to get rid of them. of all these old-fashioned ideas you been having about this music. you gotta try real hard to get out of this, out of this hypocrite scene 'cause there's nothing you van do about it. one day i was old enough to realize my dreams. i could not know that music isn't what it seems. but as i'm older now i've come to realise that playing in a band is not utopia so here is my advice.

i know you're waiting for so long, waiting for a sign. a sign that someone cares about you. but life is hard the way we live, putting each other down. killing people in our minds.... we gotta hide it all, we gotta hide it in our lives... and every day you went to school scared to be the one, the one they shall terrorize. standing in this world all by yourself. it's you and only you. all alone you will survive. you've done it all by yourself.