Whiskeytown

Well excuse me if I break my own heart
It's mine from the finish I guess
It was mine from the start
This situation just don't seem so goddamn smart
This situation is tearing me apart

So you'll have to excuse me
I break my own heart

Well excuse me if I break my own heart tonight
Some things are born too strong
Have to learn how to fight
This situation keeps me drinking every goddamn midnight
This situation don't seem so right

So excuse me if I break my own heart tonight
Well excuse me if I break my own heart tonight

After all it was mine
After all it was mine
After all it was mine
Can I have it back sometime?

So if the rain falls down on your Mississippi town
Let your eyes drift easy into mine
If the rain falls down on your Mississippi town
Let your eyes drift into mine
You're on the road but your diary entry reads blank(it reads blank)
Is this some sort of joke to you?
Is this some sort of joke to you?

Well excuse me if I break my own heart tonight
Well excuse me if I break my own heart tonight
After all it was mine
After all it was mine
After all it was mine
Can I have it back sometime?

I try not to drink,
'cause if I sit and think I'll go crazy
Desperate ain't lonely
Though I've been high
Pockets are empty
In the daytime I'm lonesome in the nightime I'm sad

The letter I wrote,
Took words from my throat I was saying
Lay on the roadside
I guess the mailman was drunk
The message was urgent
How lazy a state where you don't live no-one

So I try not to drink,
'cause if I sit and think I'll go crazy
Desperate ain't lonely
Though I've been high
Pockets are empty
In the daytime I'm lonesome in the nightime I'm sad

Well, I was thinking that I shoulda
But I didn't ever leave you but baby, I'm leavin' tonight
And theres a trucker drinking coffee in the station
Who can give me a ride

Well, I was thinking about a heading down to
Mobile, Alabama and that was just last Saturday night
Well, I can leave you if I wanna, little baby
And I'm gonna tonight

'Cause I got a bucket full of tears and a hard luck story
Theres a bad moon rising behind
And I swore it to your daddy that I loved you
But I changed my mind

Well, I'm a fast talking, hell raising, son of a bitch
And I'm a sinner and I know how to fight
And I can leave you if I wanna, little baby
And I'm gonna tonight

'Cause I got a bucket full of tears and a hard luck story
And there's a bad moon rising behind
And I swore it to your daddy that I loved you
But I changed my mind

Well, I'm a fast talking, hell raising, son of a bitch
And I'm a sinner and I know how to fight
'Cause I can leave you if I wanna, little baby
And I'm gonna tonight

Well, I was sitting, I was drinking on a barstool
Thinking how true love becomes a lie
And I never should have left you but I had to
And I betcha there's a man there with you tonight

And I swore it to your daddy
That I missed you, but I didn't
If I came back it wouldn't be right
'Cause I can leave you if I wanna, little baby
And I'm gonna tonight

Well I tried to find something
Something to hold on to
I thought it was you
'Cause I'm sick and tired
Of trying to make something

Something out of nothing
I guess that you were bluffing
Now I think I'm losing my mind
The pain in my heart

Was it worth the price
The pain in my heart
Was it worth the time that I wasted on you
You're giving me the Top Dollar blues

And I gave you it all, all
All that I could give you
You've taken what I've given
And thrown it all away

Like it's nothing
Never meant nothing
Now I'm left with nothing
What an awful price I've paid

The pain in my heart
Was it worth the price
The pain in my heart
Was it worth the time that I wasted on you

You're giving me the Top Dollar blues
I've bet all my money and that's how it goes
You ran a good race
But you lost just by a nose

It's true
Baby you're giving me the Top Dollar blues
The Top Dollar blues
I gave you it all, all

All that I could give you
And the Top Dollar blues
Top Dollar blues

Whatever happened to you?
You've changed.
And I'm still wrong (? ? ? ? ? )
I know you wanted to stay so long
And I'm still alone (? ? ? )
There were no secrets
There were no stories
There was no one around
There were no reasons
There was no questions
There is no point now
Whatever happened to you?
You've changed.
And I'm still (? ? ? ? ? )
I know you wanted to stay so long
(? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? )
So tell me your secret
Did you want to see me pull my guns (? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? )
So tell me your secret
There were no stories
Nobody won
I'll give you a reason
And I'll wage a war (? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? )
With a punch from your face (? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? )
I'll stand my guard
I'll give you a reason
You might see it
You might hate it
You might never know your name (? ? ? ? ? ? )

So tell me a secret
Tell me one more lie

Well I'm saving this dress for my wedding day
Momma wouldn't have it any other way
She says when she married
Her waist was twenty three

I guess I'll never wear it anyway
I don't believe I care to marry
Though I cannot explain exactly why
It somehow seems to me

Matrimony is misery
Simply a faster way to die
I'm saving all my money for my wedding day
You know my momma wouldn't have it any other way

She says when she married
She didn't have a dime
But I guess I'll spend that money some other way
Because I don't believe I care to marry

Although I cannot explain exactly why
It somehow seems to me
That matrimony is misery
Simply a faster way to die

Well I'm saving my best thing for my wedding day
Because my poppa wouldn't have it any other way
He says if I lose it early
I'll have thrown my life away

But I swear I'll use my cherry my own way
I don't believe I care to marry
Though I cannot explain exactly why
It somehow seems to me

Matrimony is misery
Simply a faster way to die

Put the houses in a row
On the streets we used to know
And all the things out in the yard
That can hang there to and fro

And if the money isn't right
Can I be yours tonight?
I've an easy heart

From the windows of your house
Reflects back on yourself
Then it gets you wondering'
If it means anything

And if the money isn't right
Can I be yours tonight?
I've had a pretty hard life
I've had a pretty hard life
For such an easy heart

You move away when you're young
They take away where you're from
And all the things out in the trees
Fall away in to the breeze

And if the money isn't right
Can I be yours tonight?
I've had a pretty hard life
I've had a pretty hard life
For such an easy heart

Don't wanna know why you like me I don't care
Don't wanna know why I walk by and you stare
Don't wanna know why just to wanna know why
Don't wanna know why just to wanna know why

When I... breathe in, breathe out.
Carry on, carry out.
Try to... drive through your life
Breathe in, breathe out.
Carry on, carry out.
Try to... never say goodbye

Don't wanna know how you're feeling I don't care
Don't wanna know when you'll meet me I'm not there
Don't wanna know why just to wanna know why
Don't wanna know why just to wanna know why

When I... breathe in, breathe out.
Carry on, carry out.
Try to... drive through your life
Breathe in, breathe out.
Carry on, carry out.
Try to... never say goodbye

I wish I knew
How to tell you
How to tell me why

The banks of the river run through my hometown
'BOARDED ON THE dirt roads, and I scraped my knees
Well they paved the roads eventually
With neon signs and car dealerships and diners
The soldiers fill the hotels on the weekends
I saw the pretty women as I walked through town
Well, I moved away soon as I turned sixteen
Figured I was old enough to go and work a job
Well I floated down main street, pools of car lights
WOE BECAME me, wishing I was still back home
The soldiers fill the hotels on the weekends
I saw the pretty women as I walked through town
Well, Jacksonville's a city with a hopeless streetlight
Seems like you're lucky if it ever change from red to green
I was born in an abundance of inherited sadness
And .50 cent picture frames bought at a five and dime
I ended up a soldier on the weekend
Looking for a vacancy I was NEVER to find
Somewhere the night sky hangs like a blanket
Shoot it with my cap gun just to make it
Seem like stars

I get so tired of missing you
I get so tired of wanting to
Compare the things that are easy to do
Like the reasons you lie to me
The reasons I lie to you

And I wish it was some kinda explosive device
That only you could diffuse
Reasons you lie to me
Reasons I lie to you

Wanna live in a beautiful house
Somewhere up in the hills
With some people making fun of us
You refer to us as your two kids
Then it wouldn't be somebody else
That you'd grow accustomed to
Reasons to lie to me
Is a reason to lie to you

I get so tired of missing you
I get so tired of wanting to
Compare the things that are easy to do
Like the reasons you lie to me
Reasons I lie to you

Seen a lot of things we didn't want to see
But I'm glad we did
I know a lot of times we fell out of line,
But we fell back in

I think we lost the keys to the kingdom,
Before we'd seen them
Don't be sad
Don't be sad

It took a lot time for us to find the words we'd mean
We spent a lot time before our dimes run out, nickel please
I think we lost the keys to the kingdom,
Before we'd seen them

Don't be sad
Don't be sad
Don't be sad
Don't be sad

'Cause we won't have to live this way forever
It's hard to compromise the things we have
Don't be sad
Don't be sad

Talk to one to have faith
Money can not erase
I think we lost the keys to the kingdom,
Before we'd seen them

Don't be sad
Don't be sad
Don't be sad
Talk to one to have faith
Money can not erase

Hangin' in the underground
Before a train back out of town
Away from you
All the lights that disappear
In the tunnels way down here
It's quite a view

Sometimes I wish I were deaf
Then I wouldn't hear the words you say
Under your breath
Under your breath

Locked away in your room
On the phone with someone who
She thinks out loud
Thought she found the right to leave
Think of the things you used to need
And I'd run out

Sometimes I wish I were deaf
But I hear the words you say
Under your breath
Under your breath

Anything that you put on me
All the things your head needs, you believe
Read my mind 'Cause I can't say anything
The sick heart potion
Two parts pain
One part true again

Sometimes I wish I were deaf
But I hear the words you say
Under your breath
Under your breath