Mark Kozelek

you can roll me if i'm blind
you can roll me, roll me, roll me
i'm the easy rolling kind
but the thing we've faced down hill
there's something new to see
you can lose your grip and slip
but you don't got a hold on me

you don't got a hold on me
you don't got a hold on me
why don't you let me be, babe
why don't you let me be

you can take me to your bedroom
you can take me to your heart
you can take me up to the hill
but I won't fall apart
but don't count on me giving this
all back to you
just because i'm hooked on living
don't mean I'm hooked on you

you ain't got a hold on me, babe
you don't got a hold on me
why don't you let me be, babe
why don't you let me be
why don't you let me be
you don't got a hold on me

Flash your smile and face at me
Open your eyes wide at me
Lay down every day with me
Until the long gone days

Speak a native tongue to me
Say some funny things to me
Roll around and laugh with me
Until the long gone days

Take me around the city streets
Find us pretty things to eat
Find us something good to drink
But buy me one more day

One more day to know this place
To kiss your sweet koala face
To love you deep into the night
To feel you underneath me

Doesn't take much time to pass by me
Minutes into days, turn into months
Turn into years, they hurry by me
But still I love to see the sun go down
And the world go around

Dreams full of promises
Hopes for the future, I've had many
Dreams I can't remember now
Hopes that I've forgotten, faded memories
But still I love to see the sun go down
And the world go around

And I love to see the morning as it steals across the sky
I love to remember and I love to wonder why
And I hope that I'm around so I can be there when I die
When I'm gone

I hope that you will think of me
In moments when you're happy and you're smiling
That the thought will comfort you
On cold and cloudy days if you are crying
And that you'll love to see the sun go down
And the world go around
And around and around

and there was trouble brewing in my home town
it was the seventh day, i felt like satan's son
and i scared the ghost out of everyone

they said stop and i said go
they said yes and i said no
they said fast and i said slow

being bad ain't so bad
i've known more pretty women than most men had
so won't you all come along with me
and i'll show you how fun that bad can be

they said right and i said left
they said east and i said west
oh, they said up and i said down

i tell you a story, it ain't no lie
i was born to love 'til the day I die
so you can line 'em up, i'll knock 'em down
'till they all come tumbling, tumbling down

they said up and i said down
they said sleep but i roam
oh, they said lost and i said found

I grew so old in that house I lived in
They brought me here 'cause I can't take care
I lost my worth and my purpose here
I feel you cry, but I can't speak my mind
Will you hold me and never let me go?
'Cause I hated when you walk outside that door
'Cause I know I won't ever see your eyes
The eyes I gave you

When my eyes shut, they'll take me to the land
For fifty years I lived there with my man
And on my own, I lived for forty more
I watched you grow up from babies on the floor
To the beautiful women that you are
And I hated that you've gone away so far
'Cause I know I won't ever see those eyes
The eyes I gave you

The evenings fall, they'll drag me out the hall
Up to my bunk and drug me 'til I'm numb
But pass the haze, I see your pretty face
Remember me when I'm gone
You know I love you, though I can hardly say
And I hate it when you see me in this way
But in darkness, I'll always see those eyes
The eyes I gave you

Doesn't take much time to pass by me
Minutes into days, turn into months
Turn into years, they hurry by me
But still I love to see the sun go down
And the world go around

Dreams full of promises
Hopes for the future, I've had many
Dreams I can't remember now
Hopes that I've forgotten, faded memories
But still I love to see the sun go down
And the world go around

And I love to see the morning as it steals across the sky
I love to remember and I love to wonder why
And I hope that I'm around so I can be there when I die
When I'm gone

I hope that you will think of me
In moments when you're happy and you're smiling
That the thought will comfort you
On cold and cloudy days if you are crying
And that you'll love to see the sun go down
And the world go around
And around and around

I can't let you be
Cause your beauty won't allow me
Wrapped in white sheets
Like an angel from a bedtime story

Shut out what they say
Cause your friends are fucked up anyway
And when they come around
Somehow they feel up and you feel down

When we were kids
We hated things our parents did
We listened low to Casey Kasem's radio showp

That's when friends were nicep
To think of them just makes you feel nice
The smell of grass in spring
And october leaves cover everything

Have you forgotten how to love yourself
Have you forgotten how to love yourself
I can't believe
All the good things that you do for me
Sat back in a chair
Like a princess from a faraway place

Nobody's nice
When you're older your heart turns to ice
And shut out what they say
They're too dumb to mean it anyway
When we were kids
We hated things our sisters did
Backyard summer pools
And Christmases were beautiful

And the sentiment
Of coloured mirrored ornaments
And the open drapes
Look out on frozen farmhouse landscapes

*Have you forgotten how to love yourself

i can't let you be
cause your beauty won't allow me
wrapped in white sheets
like an angel from a bedtime story
shut out what they say
cause your friends are fucked up anyway
and when they come around
somehow they feel up and you feel down

when we were kids
we hated things our parents did
we listened low
to casey kasem's radio show
that's when friends were nice
to think of them just makes you feel nice
the smell of grass in spring
and october leaves cover everything

have you forgotten how to love yourself?

i can't believe all the good things that you do for me
sat back in a chair
like a princess from a faraway place
nobody's nice
when you're older your heart turns to ice
and shut out what they say
they're too dumb to mean it anyway

when we were kids
we hated things our sisters did
backyard summer pools
and christmases were beautiful
and the sentiment
of coloured mirrored ornaments
and the open drapes
look out on frozen farmhouse landscapes

have you forgotten how to love yourself?

when everything we felt failed
and some music soft in distant sails
but it don't sound like it did before
then i know i'm left with nothing more
than my own soul
when pretty pictues face back
but your coats aren't hanging on the rack
and blue water turns to
a place that i can't get to
a place that i can't

in a room all i feel
is the cold that you left
through the air all i see
is your face full of blame
what's left to see
what's there to see

in the room all i feel
is the cold that you left
through the air all i see
is your face full of blame
what's left to see
what's there to see

what's left to see

halloween in new york
on the way home from london
eight weeks on tonight still
but all the other winter's i spent
she lived in a house
where mission street bends
she slept in a room
where i didn't feel welcome

leaves are turning brown
all over the ground
leaves make like paper
make like paper sounds

way back, back then
i considered you my best friend
but the last time i saw you
i knew i'd never see you again
you lived in a place
off the chamblee-dunwoody way
i took up his space
when they took your father away

leaves are turning round
all over the ground
leaves make like paper
make like paper sounds

going past golden gate
elementary everyday
kids down colorful hill
recess and fire drill
she likes the side without the heat
where the sun don't beat
she likes the cooler side
of washington street

hummingbirds, pigeons and doves
hover rooftops above
light shine down into the tides
over hillsides
see where the bridge and mountian meet
at the mouth of the sea
and where the sailboats live a day
and turn away
with the purple evening

losing our loving hold
in the skies flourescent glow
she takes her thoughts and cares
into the moonlit alley stairs
still in my hand i feel the sting
the sound of bells ring
and the memory of the face
never washes away
the current evening

how have you been caroline
living ok
home in PA
see how the color left from our faces
from when, when we were younger

just yesterday i was making the reach
went for a swim in lover's beach
and there i met friends and i neared the bay
until i felt sick
but you were my friend
don't you know how i needed you then
i felt nervous when you shook and cried
the circles under your eyes
made love til you reached the clouds
through the ceilings and walls that surround

one time you drove through heat and hard rain
three hundred miles in the roots of your pain
things get so far back in your mind
that we don't connect
but you were my friend
at the turn of my life's events
i felt weak in the hold of your soul
and your blood-red eyes even more
but the feelings that stay with you now
get lost over time somehow

i feel the rain fall
down my back
i'm going back
to my place of work
to get things done
to get them right
but i'll mess them up
and i always do
buried in words about you
this year, oh what a year
i layed around
just feeling down
and from our happy room
i watched the seasons as they flew
and then when christmas came
i layed my head to rest in chains
cause with my finished work
i turn my head back
still didn't work
and i put it to bed
you often swore to find me dead
too many times enough
to start again
to give it up
and then the morning came
til i felt day
til i'm awake
cause with my finished work
i turn my head back
still didn't work
i feel the rain fall
down my back
i'm going back

Long distance runaround
Long time waiting to feel the sound
I still remember the dream there
I still remember the time you said goodbye
Did we really tell lies
Letting in the sunshine
Did we really count to one hundred

Cold summer listening
Hot colour melting the anger to stone
I still remember the dream there
I still remember the time you said goodbye
Did we really tell lies
Did we really count to one hundred

she shadows me in the mirror
she never leaves on the light
and some things that i say to her
they just don't seem to bite

it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up

she tricks me into thinking
that i can't believe my eyes
that i wait for her forever
but she never does arrive

it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up

she says to leave it to me
and everything will be allright
she says to leave it to me
and everything will be allright

she's always out making pictures
she's always out making scenes
she's always out the window
when it comes to making dreams

it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up
it's all mixed up

i can't make anything
of why the brightest light fades
or how you slept a sleepless slumber
and through the rhythm of the timeless season
and you are the dark on my soul
and it's your love that i steal
and you're my cuts that won't close
and this i'm certain
and this i'm certain
and this i'm certain

i don't see anything
through all your worries
and the worst in people
and your'e the builder of your own high temple
and that's the magic of your mind
and you're the reason that i'm down
but you're the promise that i found
and you're all that i got
who's the meanest
and who's a genius
and who's mine

and from the bed you lay and wonder
and from the morning come like thunder
it's the downfall of your time
and you're the dark of our home
but still the home that i feel won't let up
or let go
and this i'm certain
and this i'm certain

You'd think that people would have
had enough of silly love songs.
I look around and I see it isn't so
Some people wanna fill the world
with silly love songs,
and what's wrong with that?
How I'd like to know
'Cause here I go again.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I can't explain the feeling's plain to me.
Now, can't you see?
she gave me more, she gave it all to me
What's wrong with that?
How I'd like to know
'Cause here I go again.

How can I tell you about my loved one?
How can I tell you about my loved one?
How can I tell you about my loved one?

she comes apart at the seams
cause she never dreams
as she lays up awake
cause her feelings ache
and the one thing she found
as she gazed at the sea
was that she lost her faith
her faith in me

and in the early morning
i can't make up a thing
and a barely can play
i don't like to sing
so i picked up my brush
painted blue guitar
and i ripped off the chords
from 'bron y' aur'

so i played her a song
but the timing was wrong
poor choices of chords
and the words were forced
and the one thing that i found
as i gazed at the sea
was that she lost all hope
all hope in me

as she gazed at the sea
was that she lost her faith
her faith in me