Less Than Jake

I'm sleeping
right in the middle of a good dream
when all at once I wake up
from somethign that keeps knocking at my brain
before I go insane
I hold my pillow to my head
and spring up in my bed
screaming out the words I dread
I think I love you!
this morning i woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with
and so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself
and never talk about it
and did not go and shout
when you walked into the room
I think I love you
I think I love you
so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that im not sure of
a love that there's no cure for
I think I love you
is that what life is made of
though it worries me to say
that i've never felt this way
believe me
you really dont have to worry
I only wanna make you happy
and if you say hey go away I will
but I think better still
I better stare out and love you
do you think I have a case
let me ask you to your face
I think I love you
I think I love you
so what am I so afraid of
im afraid that im not sure of
a love that there's no cure for
I think I love you
is that what life is made of
though it worries me to say
that i've never felt this way
I dont know what I'm up against
I dont know what it's all about
I got so much to think about
I think I love you
so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
a love that there's no cure for
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you
I think I love you
I think I love you

You've gone too far this time
But I'm dancing on the valentine
I tell you somebody's fooling around
With my chances on the dangerline

But I'll cross that bridge when I find it
Another day to make my stand
High time is no time for deciding
If I should find a helping hand

So why don't you use it, try not to bruise it
Buy time don't lose it

The reflex is an only child, and he's waiting in the park
The reflex is in charge of finding treasure in the dark
And watching over lucky clover, well isn't that bizarre
Well, every little thing the reflex does
Leaves you answered with a question mark

I'm on a ride, and I want to get off
But they won't slow down the roundabout
I sold the Renoir and the TV set
Don't want to be around when this gets out

But I'll cross that bridge when I find it
Another day to make my stand
High time is no time for deciding
If I should find a helping hand

So why don't you use it, try not to bruise it
Buy time don't lose it

The reflex is an only child, and he's waiting in the park
The reflex is in charge of finding treasure in the dark
And watching over lucky clover, well isn't that bizarre
Well, every little thing the reflex does
Leaves you answered with a question mark

So why don't you use it, try not to bruise it
Buy time don't lose it

The fucking reflex what a game he's hiding all the cards
The reflex is in charge of finding treasure in the dark
And watching over lucky clover, well isn't that bizarre
Well, every little thing the reflex does
Leaves you answered with a question mark

The reflex what a game he's hiding all the cards
The reflex is in charge of finding treasure in the dark
Just watching over lucky clover, isn't that bizarre
'Cause every little thing the reflex does
Leaves you answered with a question mark

I have this feeling inside that i wouldn't like me if i met me. it seems like a losing fight, if you can see thru my eyes then you'd believe me. the truth is that i'm overrated, I can't think straight I'm formulaic, the truth is that it's sad to say it, but you can't help me. you don't see me that way, you hear the words that i say, you just tell me that my heart's in the right place, it's the world that's confused and it's never too late to save a hopeless case i've always known a ghost like me, can disappear in a moment, i'm my own worst casualty, everything i touch can get broken, the truth is that i'm self-destructive, i'm insecure, i'm out of focus, the truth is that i've had enough but you still help me. you don't see me that way, you hear the words that i say, you just tell me that my heart's in the right place, it's the world that's confused and it's never too late to save a hopeless case. you're giving me perspective, it's better than mine, and i'll still be defective and you're wasting your time.

It's never been so crystal clear that i've been dying six months a year arguing with strangers about why i'm still here. no on lets me forget questions about my relevance and i'm starting to believe their arguments in my self-defense it's just my self-destructiveness and always wasting all my breath and it's still a mystery to me why i'm doubting all my dreams all the things that i say will someday fade away when the message in the songs has kept me sane all along. the years hit like like fist to face and some days i've tried to replace this person with the same god-given name. some days i shake till noon i've tried to explain to overcrowded rooms across these states my narrow point of view. but what can i do it's just my self-destructiveness and always wasting all my breath and it's a mystery to me why i'm doubting all my dreams all the things that i say will someday fade away when the message in these songs has kept me sane all along.

I'm on a mission
To see what's been missing
My favorite song is on repeat
But it's just not helping me
My eyes have been wider but never been brighter
Something else is going on
I need a reminder of why I feel this way

There's a fine line between
Living a lie and feeling alive
There are times that I've been
Looking from the outside in
And here I go again
Falling behind losing my mind
I'm pretending it's alright
Listening to the soundtrack of my life

Wo-oh
Listening to the soundtrack of my life

I still believe in
Facing all my demons
And everything that people promise
Everything I've always wanted
My mouth has been open
My words have been stolen
It may have been used against me
It's starting to affect me
And now I feel this way

There's a fine line between
Living a lie and feeling alive
There are times that I've been
Looking from the outside in
And here I go again
Falling behind losing my mind
I'm pretending it's alright
Listening to the soundtrack of my life

Wo-oh
Listening to the soundtrack of my life

And it goes like this...

And it takes me back...

And it spins around
And round and round
And round and round
And it goes around
And always leads to black

There's a fine line between
Living a lie and feeling alive
There are times that I've been
Looking from the outside in
And here I go again
Falling behind losing my mind
I'm pretending it's alright
Listening to the soundtrack of my life

Wo-oh
Listening to the soundtrack of my life
<i>[x3]</i>

"A Still Life Franchise"

I remember that I kind of laughed at the sparks that spread the flames
Over all the ugly memories these past three years have made
Then I waited for the smoke to fill my lungs and suffocate my pain away

So I say goodbye and I just say so long
Almost feeling paralyzed
My still life with vital signs
And I'll just say so long
My good intentions felt so wrong
Left me feeling so far gone
Well I'm gone, woah, woah.
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone

I remember when I found the place for the ends to list that normal scene
Living in this haunted house on this otherwise normal street
Postcards and photographs of who we were start to burn and fade away

So I say goodbye and I just say so long
Almost feeling paralyzed
My still life with vital signs
And I'll just say so long
My good intentions felt so wrong
Left me feeling so far gone
My good intentions felt so wrong
Left me feeling so far gone
Well I'm gone, woah, woah.
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone

So I say goodbye and I just say so long
Almost feeling paralyzed
My still life with vital signs
And I'll just say so long
My good intentions felt so wrong
Left me feeling so far gone
And I'll just say so long
My good intentions felt so wrong
Left me feeling so far gone
And I'll just say so long

"Overrated (Everything Is)"

Maybe I'm jaded and bored
Always looking for more
Wait around for the next big fix
I know I'm a wreck, I'm a mess
But I couldn't care less
Don't know what it would take to change me

Everybody's so afraid to be different
Please excuse me now if I don't get it

I think sex is overrated
So is always getting wasted
Designer drugs and dead end jobs
And classic rock is so outdated
I'm so sick of therapy
And all the things it's done to me
How can I be satisfied?
When everything is overrated

Maybe the problem is me
But I won't make believe
And I can't take this mediocrity
What if this is a test?
And I deserve what I get?
Will I wake up with all the answers?

Everybody's too afraid to be different
Please excuse me now if I don't listen

I think sex is overrated
So is always getting wasted
Designer drugs and dead end jobs
And classic rock is so outdated
I'm so sick of therapy
And all the things it's done to me
How can I be satisfied?
When everything is overrated

(Woah, woah).
When everything is overrated.

Can't stand the normal
Can't stand the ordinary
Find me anything that's extraordinary
Show me something
Show me anything
Am I the only one?
Am I the only one?

I think sex is overrated
So is always getting wasted
All my friends and family
They make my life so complicated
I'm so sick of apathy and TV show reality
How can I be satisfied?
When everything is overrated.

Woah, woah.
When everything is overrated.

Frustration that I've been facing
I don't remember how but I've lost motivation
I can't stop this sinking feeling from creeping over me
I can't stop myself seeing the darkness in front of me

It's not that hard to just fall apart, fall apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, from the start.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.

Repeating, I keep retreating,
I don't remember how, but I lost all my meaning.
Can't stop mistakes I'm making from hanging over me,
Can't stop myself from facing the darkness in front of me.

It's not that hard to just fall apart, fall apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, from the start.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.

I remember when I'm reaching my breaking point,
Pressure pushing on me till I lost my voice,
I don't think I ever had a choice,
With this every day decay and destroy.

It's not that hard to just fall apart, fall apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, from the start.
It's not that hard to just fall apart, I'm falling apart.

Rescue me from boring times it's a story
i know line by line different deep on the
inside, isn't different if you have to try
i'm borderline day after day waiting to
get knocked off my feet again time
passes by like a slow parade waiting to
get knocked off my feet again knocked
to my knees again. the measurements of
my success, are always measured in not
making sense my motivation's taking
bets it's apologies or arguments with a
head filled full of cans and can'ts. i try
and try and try to remember why i
think it's now or it's never. i'm borderline
day after day waiting to get knocked off
my feet again time passes by like a slow
parade waiting to get knocked off my
feet again knocked on my knees again.

I could hear all the plans we had when the wind hits me just right
and i'm so sick of wanting all the things i'm haunted by
my sympathy goes to the oldest joke that's survived another year
i wonder where i'm going from where i'm at i wonder why i'm still here.
the writing on the subway walls reminds me why your words don't
console me anymore while i'm lying wide awake on my bedroom floor.
i'm the lucky one, i'm getting out of here this is my last chance to disappear.
i'm the lucky one, i'm getting out of here, i think i may freeze on the last
days of summertime. the local papers always opened up to obituaries
and engagements cause i keep track of all the fresh starts and he dying famous
and there's a hate of second-hand smoke underneath the summer stars
along with conversations we had on this subway car. the writing on the subway
walls reminds me why your words don't console me anymore while i'm lying
wide awake on my bedroom floor. i'm the lucky one, i'm getting out of here
this is my last chance to disappear, i'm the lucky one, i'm getting out of here,
i think i may freeze on the last days of summertime. remember when, when you said,
you said take these words and do what you want with them. the writing on the subway
walls reminds me why your words don't console me anymore, while i'm lying wide awake
on my bedroom floor. i'm the lucky one, i'm getting out of here this is my last
chance to disappear. i'm the lucky one, i;m getting out of here, i think
i may freeze on the last days of summertime.

<i>[Verse 1]</i>
Dear "you won't answer me"
Did you honestly
Think I'd ever leave?
If you'd somehow just believe me
You've gotta know right now that these words still sting
I've lost everything I've ever touched

<i>[Pre-chorus:]</i>
The results were eating me up
For once I've had enough

<i>[Chorus:]</i>
Landmines-landslides no matter how I try
Landmines-landslides every single time

<i>[Verse 2]</i>
I fell asleep while watching TV
While the living dead
They walk my streets this evening
This sitting target's been
Stuck on the couch again
Pretending I'm stable when the panic sets in

<i>[Pre-chorus]</i>

<i>[Chorus:]</i>
Landmines-landslides no matter how I try.
I'm destined for disaster a failure by design
Landmines-landslides every single time.
I'm destined for disaster I'm trapped on every side

<i>[Bridge:]</i>
You know how hard I try sometimes
You can see it in my eyes
It's always eating me alive
The day to day of getting by
Self-control from all the helplessness I've known
I'm a wreck
Lacking confidence there's no arguments you know

<i>[Chorus:]</i>
Landmines-landslides no matter how I try.
I'm destined for disaster a failure by design
Landmines-landslides every single time.
I'm destined for disaster I'm trapped on every side.

I fell asleep last Saturday
Underneath polluted skies
I walked alone on those Jersey nights, and I
Saw the boardwalk start to fall
The emptiness starts to drown
The quiet corners off this town, and I--
Late last night, I made my plans
It was the only thing I felt I could do
Said goodbye, to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell you the truth

It's gonna kill me... The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face all of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life

This is my all time low
Somehow it feels so familiar
Somehow it seems so familiar
I feel like letting go
And every second that goes by
I'm screaming out for a second try
Said goodbye, to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell me the truth

It's gonna kill me... The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face all of my past mistakes
I've got to live with them rest of my life

This is the mess I've made
These are the words I can't erase
This is my life support, shutting down, for the final time
And it twists like a blade
And kills me for the rest of my life

If you won't forgive me
The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's time to face all of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life...

I can't seem to recognize, either side of this modern version or
fading person i was, i tried to memorize dates and times of old
accidents and the failed attempts now, i'm still afraid of those
mistakes i've made. i'm mostly memories, most missed
opportunities, mostly minor tragedies, i'm mostly you and me.
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities, mostly
abnormalities, i'm mostly you and me, and you and you and
me. i can't seem to recognize, either side of my conversations or
contemplations i've done, i've tried to memorize the truth and
lies, of the facts and fictions and the half truth admissions i've
done. i'm still afraid of those mistakes i've made. i'm mostly
memories, mostly missed opportunities, mostly minor tragedies,
i'm mostly you and me. i'm mostly memories, mostly missed
opportunities, mostly abnormalities, i'm mostly you and me,
and you and you and me. out of luck and had enough
out of trust and out of touch, out of time i'm hanging up
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities, mostly
minor tragedies, i'm mostly you and me. i'm mostly memories,
mostly missed opportunities, mostly abnormalities, i'm mostly
you and me, and you and you and me.

Going back and forth inside my shut up brain again
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
Worlds apart, I'm torn apart, I'll stall up my senses
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
Somehow through it all we've become defenseless
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
I'm living this lie and I can't pretend
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

And I know I'll get that feeling when we meet again
And I know I will be stronger in the end

I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye

Now we realize the compromises you and I
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You fell from heaven to heartbreak in the blink of an eye
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

And I know I'll get that feeling when we meet again
And I know I will be stronger in the end

I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye

You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

If I leave right now, get up and walk away
Our yesterdays will begin to fade
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye

I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye
I think I'm gonna lose my mind
'Cause I don't wanna say goodbye

You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

If I leave right now, get up and walk away
Our yesterdays will begin to fade

You gotta let her go, gotta let her go
You gotta let her go, gotta let her go

I know there comes a time when you lose faith in what you believe inside
and did you know somehow it's just a spark that's a start
that keeps us from the crowd.
The other day this girl came up to me
and asked if she used to go to school with me and kinda laughed
and she said wasn't I the guy her friends always called a waste of time.
I know just who I am
and what's in my head is that I don't really give a damn
who you think I am.
When I stop and think about to where I'll be 10 years from now
I wonder if the me of now would call myself washed up or watered down
or part of the crowd?
and the other night this guy came up to me downtown
and can't believe that after 5 years I'm still around
and he said, wasn't I the guy who walked these streets all night?
It's such a waste of time

And just outside I can heard the sounds
of the early morning street becoming way too loud
and the hum of the engines of the cars on the street
And with this cigarette that I just lit
as I pass the 53rd St. Bridge
Right now the world just seems too big
so sit down and remind me how
this is the same old story of growing up and getting lost.
And outside I can see my breath
in between the words that fog my spinning head
and I can see the sun coming up. And it's just light enough to see
Another cigarette that I just lit
as I pass the 53rd St. bridge
right now the world just seems to big
And all the late night calls and all the lost hopes
and the missed connections and the lost direction

Do you think it's strange
that there's this way of how you look at,
how you act like, and how you think and pretend they're not the same as you
Do you know about his strength of convictions
or how she puts all her faith in religion
Did you ever take the time
to really discover how little we know about each other?
this all becomes one more chance to
keep us from saying anything
and separate from everything.
And all this really means
you're one in a crowd and paranoid of every sound
another friend you won't miss anyhow

Got on the 47, transferred to the 89
left town eastbound past all the city signs
and y'know sometimes it's hard to leave your past behind
and as I pass the crummy bars and beat up cars
nothing's gonna change my mind this time
By now you think I've found that things changed, just don't look that way to me
by now you think I've found that things change, and look rearranged to me
it never used to look that me.
At half past seven I'm on the 95
sick of malls and alcohol
just passed the next state line
and I know sometimes it's hard to leave your past behind
and as I think of the corner creeps and dirty streets
nothing will change my mind,
there's no turning back this time.
And when going off is like going on
and never going back is just like giving up
it's like I'm going nowhere fast

On a tuesday in the rain I never thought there'd come a day
if I put myself to the test would I ever raise a fist
would I just shut my mouth, would I just block it out?
I've sworn a million times never to be left,
standing with that feeling
of hopelessness, just standing nervous in the alley
When all is said and through
would I know just what to do
and if I put myself to the test
would I ever raise a fist
would I just shut my mouth or just block it out
I've sworn a million times never to be left,
standing with that feeling
of hopelessness, just standing nervous in the alley
Is it a change of heart,
that keeps us apart
and you say it's true
and we know it's true
when all we have left is me and you
and it's so strange,
when all I have left to say
is I wonder what's worth fighting for

Have you ever felt that something,
you know that something that keeps you sane?
and you can't explain why
But you know it's what's left inside you
and I know that it's that something
you know that something that keeps me sane
and I can't explain why when it's all I have I have left to hold onto
And when I say It's everything
from my highest hopes to my dumbest schemes
you'll never know what it means to me.
I'm just a reason away, from that something that keeps me sane