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1. |
| 9:49 | ||||
giving into love and sharing my time
letting someone into my misery i told it all step by step how i landed on the island and how i swam across the sea and it crosses my mind that i may wake to a knife in me no more breath in my hair or ladies' underwear tossed up over the alarm clock blood dripping from the bed to a neatly written poem a heartfelt last line reading there is no more mystery it it going to happen my love it's all in your head she said morning after nightmare you're building a wall she said higher than the both of us so try living life instead of hiding in the bedroom show me a smile and i'll promise not to leave you it happened under a rainy cloud passing through the dark south we went into a big house and slept in a small bed i didn't know you then as well as you of me we talked of our sad lives and we went off separately i found your overseas souvenirs holiday greeting cards and some long forgotten high school fears it's all in my head i said banging a piano i've not been so alone i thought since kicking in the womb i drank so much tea i wrote my letters in kanji around the block i walked and walked pretending you were with me not wanting to die out here without you the hurting never ends like birthdays and old friends we forget what is flesh blood and bone is human turning phone lines to airlines unwilling to face the love is found on the inside not the outside and like a medicine bottle in the cabinet i'll keep you and like a medicine bottle in my hand i will hold you and swallow you slowly as to last me a lifetime without holding too tight i do not want to lose the thrill that it gives me to look out from my window and scowl at the houses from my world in the bedroom it's all in my head she read in her girlfriend's self-help book it's all his own making a war with himself like two sides of a wall that separates two countries he shuts out the world and wants only to love you not wanting to die out here without you |
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2. |
| 10:52 | ||||
out of the box
down colorful hill wind lifting tired feet skin sensing challenge ahead prayers prayers prayers for success prayers prayers prayers always die in time losing the dream face to face sleeping losing the dream open mouth breathing where unadmired beings dread the due changes ahead prayers prayers prayers for success prayers prayers prayers always die in time like empty roofs above life for poor doves like empty roofs above rid of our love |
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3. |
| 4:42 | ||||
i went as far as losing sleep
i went as far as messing up my life unloving still strike me different a million miles away from home and fifteen from a payphone where we sat lonely on the sand you're ten years older we translate japanese to english and english to japanese it's not that simple this dictionary never has a word for the way i'm feeling it's nothing plain for me of a different god and moral what if i laid my head down on your stomach or put my mouth to your hand i cannot translate japanese to english or english to japanese what i had to say is unsaid what i had to do is undone and if it was done i'm sure it would have killed our hour where we sat lonely on the stand above the water the awful gray our current from japan didn't sweep away |
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4. |
| 6:03 | ||||
lord kill the pain
don't want to ask you again kill my girlfriend and kill my best friend sam cause i saw them making eyes again lord kill the pain don't want to ask you again kill my neighbors and all my family too they doubt my direction lord let it rain don't want to ask you again drown my country drown everyone but me so i can live peacefully or put me to sleep here and wake me in japan i want to speak a new language drop me a line and pull me out but do not find me amongst dead underground let me hear the whining sound of a pig drown and lead me over summery hill to a place i like to think about and sedate me with tylenol pills oh how i love to dream about drop me a line and pull me out but do not find me amongst life on the ground let me see the burning down of my home town lord kill the pain |
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5. |
| 5:23 | ||||
michael, where are you now?
somehow in my excitement the last time you called, it slipped again to ask your hidden whereabouts i got a lead from your old triple ex-girlfriend, she said "i heard he lost his mind again" "again?" i said i didn't know that you ever did michael, where are you now? sleeping through the morning in flannel impaired getting high in southern air shoeless, sandy eveing down the unfamiliar last whiff of salt-water freedom skipping shells in the dead zone with the ghost on your side of the state borderline whispering "take it. . ." do you remember our first subway ride? our first heavy metal haircuts? our last swim on the east coast? and me with my ridiculous looking pierced nose? i remember your warm smile in the sun the daydreaming boy without a shirt on the birmingham barfly father left the mother of three sons you're the oldest juvenile delinquent bum my best friend |