Jack McManus

I`m a castaway, a jaded heart
I look at you and I just fall apart
And I could watch for hours
Entertain the thought
Of saying hello but I won`t
When the day`s done then we`ll all go home
But I don`t want to leave here on my own
Oh the days and hours
How they all bought flowers
You`re unobtainable in your ivory tower

There`s a lot of loneliness
Flowing through this world I guess
I`m on the dark side of the moon
Nobody looking here will assume
I have a million things to say
But you’re a million mines away
You almost noticed me today
From your side of the milky way

Tonight as I looked out
There was the universe
I swear that every star I saw
Lined up into the words
The words I have rehearsed
There`s a lot of loneliness
Flowing through this world I guess
I`m on the dark side of the moon
Nobody looking here will assume
I have so many things to say
But you`re a million miles away
There`s a lot of loneliness

Flowing through this world I guess
I`m on the dark side of the moon
Nobody looking here will assume
I have so many things to say
But you`re a million miles away
You almost noticed me today
From your side of the milky way
You almost noticed me today
From your side of the milky way

I wonder if you could bemy therapyIt's kind of awkward but obviousIt's what I needI'm not Michelangelopainting a ceilingBut you're the lastshade of red thatI'll be missingThere's not a pill thatI can't takeYou're just a habitthat I can't break ohI'll bang on this pianotill the feeling's comeI'm standing on the edgebut my feet can't jumpStumbling the wordson the back of my tongueBut I won't stopuntill the feelings have goneIt's 'bout fourin the morning still can't sleepAnd that blanket wrappedaround you wish that was meBut I'm justone more cynical dreamerI never dream like thisI'm pulling out my hairPretending I don't careThere's not a pillthat I can't takeYou're just a habitthat I can't break ohI'll bang on this pianotill the feeling's comeI'm standing on the edgebut my feet can't jumpStumbling the wordson the back of my tongueAnd I won't stopuntil the feelings have goneI don't need to knowwhere we're goingI'll just be the screamand let it outI can feel the music flowingI can't feel itnever felt like thisI'll bang on this pianotill the feeling's comeI'm standing on the edgebut my feet can't jumpStumbling the wordson the back of my tongueAnd I won't stopuntil the feelings have goneI'll bang on this pianotill the feeling's comeI'm standing on the edgebut my feet can't jumpStumbling the wordson the back of my tongueAnd I won't stopuntil the feelings have goneI'll bang on this pianotill the feeling's comeI'm standing on the edgebut my feet can't jumpStumbling the wordson the back of my tongue

I just wanted to have fun all the time
To not commit to anyone
But then you wonder in one night
Changed the way I was
Started looking for a new beginning
Instead of feeling well my heart`s not in it is it
Tried showing you the door
You showed me there was no compromise
Woke up either side of midnight
You`re still lying next to me
If this feels good and it does
Then what does this mean
You stayed either side of midnight

Used to living my own way all the time
Started dying day by day inside
But deep in the heart of me
You led me to believe
That I should be looking for a girl with something
There`s been to many times that
I’ve been left with nothing
While I was looking for the wrong thing
Maybe I found someone right
Woke up either side of midnight
You`re still lying next to me
If this feels good and it does
Then what does this mean
You stayed either side of midnight

Woke up either side of midnight
You`re still lying next to me
If this feels good and it does
Then what does this mean
Woke up either side of midnight
You`re still lying next to me
If this feels good and it does
Then what does this mean
Then what does this mean
What does this mean
If this feels good and it does
Then want does this mean
You stayed either side of midnight

I'll be trouble
You're so nice
And if I chose to listen
I wouldn't take your advice
I'm really sorry
Feeling sorry for myself again
But this isn't working
I wish I could talk to you
You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
Might as well do it now
I want you close
But give me just a little room
I'll leave the engine running
That is what I do
Putting on a front
You might like that
But will you like me when I'm real
It seems like a long way
A long way to go from here
You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
When it comes rushing out
Is it just too little to late
I messed it up
I think I messed it up
And I think I messed it
up with you

You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
Might as well do it now

You think I don't care but I do

You think I don't care but I do

You think I don't care but I do

How could we come so close
And let it slip away
Took a fatal dose
Too much of yesterday

How could we just deny
We made a sacred vow
Together you and I
We′ve really done it now

We′ve really done it now

Back to the beginning
I thought I was winning
I lost again
No stranger to the start
My dreams were in your hands
And now you′ve taken them apart

How could we both forget
Why did we never learn
That even though we met
The world would always turn

I blame a love so blind
To every circumstance
The future left behind
It didn′t stand a chance

It didn′t stand a chance

Back to the beginning
I thought I was winning
I lost again
No stranger to the start
My dreams were in your hands
And now you′ve taken them apart

Used to lie awake at night
Feeling lost and insecure
Turns out I was right
So I don′t need to any more

Back to the beginning
I thought I was winning
I lost again
No stranger to the start
My dreams were in your hands
And now you′ve taken them apart

Back to the beginning
I thought I was winning
I lost again
No stranger to the start
My dreams were in your hands
And now you′ve taken them apart

How could we come so close
And let it slip away
Took a fatal dose
Too much of yesterday

I can′t wait for tomorrow
Coz I know that I’ll feel better than today
I′m bringing down the curtain on this play

I hope I wake a little wiser
Is there anything that may remain the same
Without my madness getting in the way

What a fine time to lose your mind
Just when I thought life′s alright
There were sky-high warning signs
That I chose to ignore
Tell everybody outside my door
Come again, out of time
I′m too busy losing my mind

I won′t be at your party
I′ll be the life and soul of nowhere but my head
I′ll celebrate alone in there instead

What a fine time to lose your mind
Just when I thought life′s alright
And it′s like myself and I
Have just started a war
And I never felt so lonely before
Come at some other town
I′m too busy losing my mind
Too busy losing my mind

And I chose to ignore
And tell everybody outside my door
Come again, out of time
I′m too busy losing my mind
Too busy losing my mind

Welcome to the modern world
Where did all the dreamers go?
How did your hopes become your doubts
Caught up in the city lights
Losing every sign of life
Just chasing shadows in the crowd
′Til they all fall down
Shadows they hit the ground

I′m just living in a suitcase
Pocket full of change
Standing on the sidelines
Laughing at the game
See the wheels of your life
Turning over and over
I′m sailing in the distance
I′m blowing in the wind
You′re waiting for tomorrow
To do it all again
Isn′t it a burden
Isn′t it a shame
Why do it over and over again?

Look over to the other path
That′s the life you could have hand
But soon there′ll be no going back
Don′t be scared to let it go
If you don′t you know you′ll never know
And can you really live with that
Coz they′ll all fall down
Shadows they hit the ground

I′m just living in a suitcase
Pocket full of change
Standing on the sidelines
Laughing at the game
See the wheels of your life
Turning over and over
I′m sailing in the distance
I′m blowing in the wind
You′re waiting for tomorrow
To do it all again
Isn′t it a burden
Isn′t it a shame
Why do it over and over again?

Living in a suitcase
Pocket full of change
Standing on the sidelines
Laughing at the game
See the wheels of your life
Turning over and over
I′m sailing in the distance
I′m blowing in the wind
You′re waiting for tomorrow
To do it all again
Isn′t it a burden?
Isn′t it a shame?
Why do it over and over again?

Over and over again

Just living it up′s okay
Over and over again

I′m done with being sick and tired of waiting
And pleasing everyone in sight
Will anybody save me now
Or am I taking this world on alone?

It′s like I’m living for the first time
And every colour seems so bright
And all the rules that I’ve been making
You keep breaking every time

Looking for the light again
You can make it happen
I′m strong enough to take the pain
You can make it happen
When nothing′s wrong and nothing′s right
We can work it out
And if I struggle to the end
We can make it happen
Make it happen

I′m taking aim, finding my direction
It’s like I have no choice at all
When everybody walks away and leaves me
Feels like I’m standing in the dark

Looking for the light again
You can make it happen
I′m strong enough to take the pain
You can make it happen
When nothing′s wrong and nothing′s right
We can work it out
And if I struggle to the end
And everything falls apart

Laughing, crying, living, dying
Got me waiting at the start
Trying to pull me through
And I’ll keep holding on
Coz you′re the only one to save me

Looking for the light again
You can make it happen
I′m strong enough to take the pain
You can make it happen
When nothing′s wrong and nothing′s right
And we can work it out
And if I struggle to the end
We can make it happen
Make it happen

Learnt that look is my queue to move out
It′s been great baby see you around
A girl like you with the world at your feet
You won′t need to cry over me

Swear that I didn′t know
That these feelings will grow
You know I’d never say
What you want me to say

I had to tell you before the problems started
Nobody wants to see someone broken hearted
Sooner or later the doubt would arise
Don′t need to see that so I’m going to drive

In the breeze
Oh the places I′ll play
In the breeze
Just a highway away
All the sad and the grey
You can blow them away
In the breeze
In the breeze
Blow them away

I′m gone and no looking behind
No one will be changing my mind
You fall hard with your heart on your sleeve
That the type of life I don′t need

Oh the sun doesn′t care
It′s got time it can spare
It will fall, it will rise
Have a million goodbyes

That isn′t me
I doubt if I’ll live forever
Don′t wait for me
It′s like waiting for perfect
It isn′t time yet for me to decide
To put down roots
Or to take to the sky

In the breeze
Oh the places I′ll play
In the breeze
Just a highway away
All the sad and the grey
You can blow them away
In the breeze

In the breeze
Oh the places I′ll play
In the breeze
Just a highway away
All the sad and the grey
You can blow them away
In the breeze
In the breeze
Blow them away

Yeah in the breeze
Blow them away
Blow them away

And we′re moving far too fast now
Our feet don′t touch the ground
You know it couldn′t get much higher
That′s why we′re coming down

We leave the zero pool of gravity
Back into the atmosphere
Burning up again

Now she′s gone
I think she won the war
But what′s the fighting for
Forgot myself again
One on one
They both feel the same
When the feelings fade away
And she′s gone
And we can start again

Sometimes it′s easier pretending
We fall as perfect as we can be
Back into the atmosphere
Love′s burning up again

Now she′s gone
I think she won the war
But what′s the fighting for
Forgot myself again
One on one
They both feel the same
When the feelings fade away
And she′s gone
And we can start again

We can′t avoid it
And it gets us every time
We have a choice but
We′re leaving it behind
A million miles away
I never though I’d hear you say

Now she′s gone
I think she won the war
But what′s the fighting for
Forgot myself again
One on one
They both feel the same
When the feelings fade away
And she′s gone
And we can start again

I never really knew you
I wasn′t blind, just mistaken
The secret glance I never saw
The velvet hand, the sharpened claw
And the rain it started in my head
Was days before you left my bed
And soon my life will be declared a travesty

And it hasn′t even touched you
Voices getting louder
Don′t trust that bitch
She′ll kill you with her flowers
And I’m tired of asking why
Put my middle finger to the sky
Something easy shouldn′t be so hard
But I’m crumbling apart
So tell me what′s the point
Tell me what′s the point
When everything comes undone
Maybe letting go is not the hardest part

A marching band plays out of tune
The coffee′s mixed with absolut
The pillars on the wall are cracked
And rainbows always fade to black
I sit alone in darkened rooms
And all the scars of weightless bloom
While you′re up there in bright lights
You can′t see

And it hasn′t even touched you
Voices getting louder
Don′t trust that bitch
She′ll kill you with her flowers
And I’m tired of asking why
Put my middle finger to the sky
Something easy shouldn′t be so hard
But I’m crumbling apart
So tell me what′s the point
Tell me what′s the point
When everything comes undone
Maybe letting go is not the hardest part

Not the hardest part

So tell me what′s the point
Tell me what′s the point
When everything comes undone
Maybe letting go
Maybe letting go is not the hardest part

Amy walks right by the window
She won′t see me, no
Doesn′t even know me
Scream her name inside my mind
My love so blind
I′ve got to let her know
That I’m gonna dance with her someday
And tell her I love her
Why does it have to be this way
Wish I could say
Hello

Amy now its 3pm
It′s time again
For you to pass my window
Maybe now it′s time to show
And let her know
That I’m the one that needs her
That I’m gonna dance with her someday
And tell her I love her
Why does it have to be this way
Wish I could say
Hello

Amy now my time has come
No need to run
From what I’ve been avoiding
Give it time she′ll see the sign
Just give it time and she′ll be mine
I′ve got to let her know
That I’m gonna dance with her someday
And tell her I love her
Why does it have to be this way
Wish I could say
Hello
Hello

Wish I could say
Hello

Coz I’m gonna dance with her someday
And tell her I love her
Why does it have to be this way
Wish I could say
Hello

I'll be trouble
You're so nice
And if I chose to listen
I wouldn't take your advice
I'm really sorry
Feeling sorry for myself again
But this isn't working
I wish I could talk to you
You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
Might as well do it now
I want you close
But give me just a little room
I'll leave the engine running
That is what I do
Putting on a front
You might like that
But will you like me when I'm real
It seems like a long way
A long way to go from here
You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
When it comes rushing out
Is it just too little to late
I messed it up
I think I messed it up
And I think I messed it
up with you

You think I don't care but I do
Yeah I do
When you leave me
You think I don't care but I do
Wish you knew
But I'm too scared
To tell you how I really feel
Got to do this sometime
Might as well do it now

You think I don't care but I do

You think I don't care but I do

You think I don't care but I do