Pain Of Salvation

Ticking... ticking...
Wishing... wishing...
Standing here in Busa trying to explain
To myself and to the girl beside
Why I feel so weightless and free from all my pain
Telling myself that you're here inside
For the wind is in my hair as we are on this sun hot roof
And far below the Danube passes as we talk
And I'd like to think that this is what you wanted me to
find
This happiness could help us rebuild what we've lost

Calling - waking every god
Falling - love is in my blood
Breathing - love is life unbound
Kneeling - let me tread its ground
Through her eyes I can see who you used to be
Through my eyes she can see
What that feeling means to me

Oh, ticking...
Wishing I was stronger - wishing I was whole
Wishing I was someone that I'm not
And I wish that I could linger to the faith I used to have
Wishing of myself to be a god
I'm wishing to be God!

Calling - waking every god
Falling - love is in my blood
Breathing - love is life unbound
Kneeling - let me tread its ground
Through her eyes I can see who I used to be
Through my eyes she can see
Numb anxiety

Love take me home
Life shake me home!

Imago:
(I will never submit to all the things you've said God!)
No!

We're breaching the core - we're breaching the core
We're breaching the core - we're breaching...

To taste it
To touch it
Cut my hand
To crave it
Enslave it
Pluck my eye

I can never submit to all the things you've said God
If you want me dead, I'm right here God
But fear is a funny thing God
In that it gives you the strength to resist just about anything God
And friend turns to enemy
So easily
When you defend your legacy with guilt
And talk of blasphemy
God
You know
You created a golden cage for your sheep
A stage too wide and deep for us to even see the play
But hey
You know what they say about catching the bird
But you can't make it sing?
You lose the bird the second it loses its wings
Just like I reckon you will lose your herd
To choirs of ”I am, I am, I am”
And mountains and mountains of money and things!

We're breaching the core - all breaching
We're breaching the core - still breaching

Animae:
"Help me I'm starting to fade
Save me I'm drifting away"

Imago:
But we can change
We can change...?
I said we can change!

We can change, we can change - still breaching...
We can change, we can change - still breaching...

I hold it
I'm never
Letting go
I settle for rash rather than risk going to slow
I sought it
I killed it
But now I know
(I'm left somewhat broken but I won't let it show)
Hear me now!

Animae:
"Man is shattered
I am shattered
My shards have become shards of their own
Pieces of pieces, impossible to put back together
Spending their lives seeking a context they were always a part of
And so, they leave the context
And we shrink
I fade
And nothing more can be learnt or taught
I have no choice but to leave them to their own devices
I have come to understand one thing and one thing alone
One little piece of understanding
Glowing through this void of blankness and clean slates
Like a beacon of hope
Or just a reminder that I was always wrong:

Searching for yourself is like looking for the house you stand in
How could you possibly find it?
It's everywhere
It's all you know
And there are no other points of reference"

Help me I'm starting to fade
Save me, I'm drifting away
Help me, I'm dying now
(Imago: What are these stains? They stay, stay when it rains...)
Curtains before my final bow
(Imago: ...burning my skin. It's burning... burning... burning my skin!)
Drifting, just drifting away
(Imago: Burning... Take it away, it's burning me... Burning my skin!)
Leaving with all that's still left to say
(Imago: Now life... now life... fails our kin!)
I failed
I failed

We failed
We failed...

With overlaid spoken recordings

My wish is just selfish, maybe ignorant. But I beg you to put back the sense in my life.
Are you there? I, I, I just called to see if you're there. Sometimes, sometimes I feel upbeat, sometimes I hate you, mostly, I, I just wonder if you're there. Are you there?
God, If you are love, then why are we subjected to an increasing injustice throughout the world? Do you show us love by tormenting us? It doesn't make any sense.

Miss Mediocrity:
”Hey there sweetie.
Don't I know you?
I swear I recognize your face...
and those beautiful eyes...
You know,
they say the eyes are the doorway to one's soul...
There's a smile.
A little shy,
aren't we?
Hey, do you wanna get out of here?

Mr. Money:
Hey Miss Mediocrity, gee, I'm sorry
You've seen me on TV, I'm Mr. Money
Now you want someone to hold you
And call when you're in town
Someone to calm you and confirm you
Well, I'm here...
...to let you down
'Cause outside these sexy cars
And far from my trendy bars
Behind these smiles...

Miss Mediocrity:
"...maybe go some place..."

Mr. Money:
...And sunscreen...

Miss Mediocrity:
"...more quiet, where we could... you know... talk!"

Mr. Money:
...And “Live the Dream!”s...

Miss Mediocrity:
"...and get to know each other..."

Mr. Money:
I am cold!

Miss Mediocrity:
"...no?"

Mr. Money:
And mean!

Miss Mediocrity:
"How about a ride in that Bentley up front?
It's yours isn't it? I'll be a good girl, I promise!
...or bad...
...whatever you like!”

Mr. Money:
Daily Finance ? that's me in the Armani
Got Three Mercedes 350, two Ferraris
I Could have bought a Third World country
With the riches that I've spent
But hey
All modern economics claim that I deserved
Every single cent
And the one time I'm the lesser half
Is when we split the tab
So here's to Friends, Family and Liberty, Genuinity,
here's to Happiness, Success, Good Press, No Stress...
But most of all...

Here's to Me!
Here's to Me!
Here's to Me!
There will be nothing left...
So...
Here's to Me! (Dea Pecuniae: Oh baby, baby)
Here's to Me! (Dea Pecuniae: I'll take care of you)
Here's to Me!
There will be nothing left...
Nothing left...
...for you

Dea Pecuniae:
"If you're looking for fulfilment
A Kingdom and a Crown
A Paradise of Free Rides
I am here...
...to let you down
I'll get you the sexy cars
And a taste of divinity
A glimpse of the Stars
Immortality
But then Vanity
Will leave you dried and scarred
(Mr. Money: That's right, oh, give it to me!)

Here's to Me! (Mr. Money: Oh baby, baby)
Here's to Me! (Mr. Money: You'll take care of me)
Here's to Me!
To me"

Oh Lord
Oh Lord
Won't you hear a sinner's prayer
Oh Lord

Oh Lord
Oh Lord
Won't you help me find the way
When I'm lost and lead astray
Oh Lord

Mmm…

Oh Lord
Oh Lord
Won't you help me to stay humble
Oh Lord

Oh Lord
Oh Lord
Won't you help me be an ocean
Help me bend to stay unbroken
Oh Lord

Mmm…

Save me, I'm drifting
Help me, I'm drifting

Oh Lord…
Oh Lord…
Oh Lord

Narrative

Mr.Money:
:OK alright baby, the love of my life
Girl:
:Are you referring to me... or the car?
Mr. Money:
:Oh, please honey, what do you think?
:Now, Cindy...
Girl:
:Sandra
Mr Money:
:Yeah, of course. Now, as I see it, we've got two natural choices here. So, what do you say? Either I drive and you can give me some good head while I'm watching the road...
Girl:
:What?
Mr. Money:
:Well, somebody's gotta watch the road honey...
:...or... YOU can drive this baby
:...oh, but only if you're good at handling the stick of course...
Girl:
:But... this is an automatic?
Mr. Money:
:...rrrright!
Girl:
:Is that some sort of sick joke?
Mr. Money:
:What?
Girl:
:... "natural choices" my ass!
Mr. Money:
:Well, that's a third choice I didn't think about...
Girl:
:You son of a...!
Mr. Money:
:Take it easy baby!
:No sweat... it was only a joke, alright?
Girl:
:Alright
Mr. Money:
:... I mean, of COURSE I was joking...
:... I would NEVER let you drive my car!

Transcript of radio

A car radio plays in the background.

Interviewer:
:here once again
:we bring you here today to unveil your new breakthrough which is basically what?
:an unconcious state of hibernation?
Interviewee:
:Well, first of all, i guess i wouldn't call it hibernation, but forrestative unconcious freezing.
:In this state organs can be kept alive longer, tumours can be stopped in its tracks
:Its virtually a springboard for the new age of modern medicine
Interviewer:
:But isn't it true that you've been experimenting on animals.
:Seeing if you can put them in safe hibernation for long periods of time.
:Don't you think thats morally wrong?
Interviewee:
:No, not at all.
:I've always done research on the underlying belief that the ends truly do justify the means.
:We are after all ... '(obscured by engine) ...irreversible illness
:...people into hibernation till a cure is found, and then they can live a normal life free of that illness
:Today we have had great success with 'Laying Down', thats what i call the process.
:Laying down many animals.
:The Longest hibernation thus far has been 18 months with no signs of distress whatsoever on any of the animals placed into a forrestative state.
Interviewer:
:It all sounds so wonderful, and paints a pretty picture.
:but i still wonder your true motives for an action such as this
:I also question the quality of life a person will have after a long period of Laying Down.
:While an individual...

The last section of the interview can be heard at the end of "Dea Pecuniae".

A Scene in Brown and Yellow:
At first I don't know why your presence fills me with unease
Though I've missed you more than Life itself
I freeze
It's like you've been lost and now you're glad to see my face
But as you sit down my confusion turns to distress
Not knowing how to let you know that you are
Dead
(I wake up sweating)

They tell me you are better off
Where you are now
Well, I don't care
They tell me that your pain is gone
Where you are now
Well, you left it here
See, I need to be strong
Need to be brave
I need to put faith in something
How could I live on
Not hoping we will meet
Again?

A Scene in White and Grey:
Under the icon's weight the old thoughts lay
Under the cross so still and pale
The flowers usher the stale breath of Death away
And someone tries to sing
But the bird of song has lost its wings
Now it twitches
Rips the stitches of a chest where tears are torn
And where all loss begins

Life seems too small when Death takes its toll
I need something to blame for this pain

A Scene in Amber - Flawed:
And have you ever had that dream
Where one you love passes away?
And you wake up crying to a world
Where she's long since gone
But you feel the pain
So close
As if she'd died today
But I need to be strong
I need to be brave
I need to put faith in something
How could I live on
Not hoping we will meet
Again
Some day?

Earth to Earth, Dust to Dust
A verse we know too well
Like a nursery rhyme
Just in reverse
'Cause we are all the little tin man
With hearts like little tin cans
And as we line them down with tears
Over the years
They inevitably turn
To rust

Life seems too small when Death takes its toll
I need something to blame for this pain
I try, I fail, I fall, like anyone you know
I break, I bleed, like anyone you know

A Scene in Blood on White:
Where the linen's changed just for tonight
And somehow we beat her to this sight
This ghostly room of Exit
That she enters by the flicker of candle light
And in her breast
A desert storm is taking form
An old thirst that can never be quenched or killed
Sweeps over the cold
Broken but thousandfold
"My Love!"

Spring came with awakening, came with innocence and joy
Spring came with fascination and desire to deploy
Summer came with restlessness and curiosity
Summer came with longing for the things we could not be

Take me to the forest, take me to the trees
Take me anywhere as long as you take me
Take me to the ocean, take me to the sea
Take me to the Breathe and BE

Autumn came with knowledge, came with ego came with pride
Autumn came with shamefulness for the things we could not hide
Winter came with anger and a bitter taste of fate
Winter came with fear for the things we could not escape

Take me to the forest, take me to the trees
Take me anywhere as long as you take me
Take me to the ocean, take me to the sea
Take me to the Breathe and BE

Teach me of the forest, teach me of the trees
Teach me anything as long as you teach me
Teach me of the ocean, teach me of the sea
Teach me of the Breathe and BE

See me! I am the one creation
Hear me! I am all the love that came from Animae
Know me! I am the incarnation
Fear me! I am all the power held by Animae
Me!

Give me of the forest, give me of the trees
Give me anything as long as it's for me
Give me of the ocean, give me of the sea
Give me of the Breathe and BE

Give me all the forests, give me all the trees
Give me everything as long as it's for free
Give me all the oceans, give me all the seas
Give me all the breathing BE

10,000 BC - 1 Million people
9,500 BC - 2 Million people
9,000 BC - 3 Million people
8,500 BC - 4 Million people
8,000 through 5,000 BC - 5 Million people
4,500 BC - 6 Million people
4,000 BC - 7 Million people
3,500 BC - 10 Million people
3,000 BC - 14 Million people
2,500 BC - 20 Million people
2,000 BC - 27 Million people
1,500 BC - 38 Million people
1,000 BC - 50 Million people
500 BC - 100 Million people
Year 1 AD - 170 Million people
500 AD - 190 Million people
1,000 AD - 254 Million people
1,500 AD - 425 Million people
Year 2,000 AD - 6,080 Million people

(Spoken)
Trying to understand the system of Life
Trying to understand myself
I created the world to be an image of myself, of my mind

All of these thoughts, all of these doubts and hopes
Inside
I took out to form a new breed
A new way to be
And now I am many, so many

So much larger than ever I were
Yet, at the same time
So much smaller and more vulnerable

They all carry shards of the whole
Together they become me
I see them interact, develop
I see them take different sides
As were they different minds
Believers of different ways, and different gods

I think they will teach me something

I am
I am
I am

I was not
then I came to be
I cannot remember NOT being
But I may have traveled far
very far
to get here

Maybe I was formed in this silent darkness
From this silent darkness
BY this silent darkness

To become is just like falling asleep
You never know exactly when it happens
The transition
The magic
And you think, if you could only recall that exact moment
Of crossing the line
Then you would understand everything
You would see it all

Perhaps I was always
Forever here...
And I just forgot
I imagine Eternity would have that effect
Would cause a certain amount of drifting
Like omnipresence would demand omniabsence

Somehow I seem to have this predestined hunger for knowledge
A talent for seeing patterns and finding correlations
But I lack context

Who I am?
In the back of my awareness I find words
I will call myself...
GOD
And I will spend the rest of forever
Trying to figure out who I am

And SEX was always there from when I was only eight years
- tempting me leaving me thirsty
Sweat, skin, a PULSE divine to balance this restless MIND
- it seemed so wonderfully physical
Oh the BLOOD, the lust, the bodies that color the world: all
drugs to die for!
Won't you share my fire?
How can LOVE make that world a minefield of forbidden
GROUND?
A map of untouchable skin and SILENCED desire?

And love was there in vain, PROFOUND and deep but traced
with pain - too early for a child of TEN
Loving the pure and sane he sought the goddesses unstained -
watching them turn to flesh again
HUNGRY for both the PURITY and SIN
Life seemed to him merely like a GALLERY of how to be
And he was always much more HUMAN than he wished to be
But there is a LOGIC to his world, if they could only see

Wishing - sickened - ill - ticking

SOMEONE steal this hunger (it's in my blood) always growing
stronger (ticking)
BUDAPEST I'm learning, Budapest you're burning me
This is not who I wanted to be, this is not what I wanted to
see
She's so young so why don't I feel free now that she is here
under me?

Naked - Touching - Soft - Clutching

And then after all it led me here to wake up again
Seeking a love that might make me feel free in myself but
then it proves to be
Something that hurts inside when we touch, so I move on, I
lose my way
Astray I'm trying too much to feel unchained, to burn out
this sense of feeling cold
And every day I seek me prey: someone to taste and to hold
I feel alive during the split second when they smile and
meet my eyes
But I could cry 'cause I feel broken inside!
COME and DROWN with me - the UNDERTOW will sweep us away!
And you will see that I'm ADDICTED to my HONESTY
Trust! 'Cause after all my sense of TRUTH once brought me
here
But I've LOST control and I don't know if I am true to my
soul
I've lost CONTROL and I don't know if I am true to my soul
Losing control and I don't know if I am TRUE AT ALL

And we were always much more human than we wished to be...
And I remember when you said you've been UNDER him -
I was surprised to feel such pain
And all those years of being faithful to YOU despite the
hunger flowing through my veins
And I have always tried to calm things down -
SWALLOW down swallow down
"It's just another small THORN in my crown"
But suddenly one day there was just too much blood in my
eyes,
and I had to take this WALK down REMEDY LANE of whens and
whys...

Empty - Licking - Clean - Choking

SOMEONE steal this hunger (possessing my mind) always
growing stronger (craving)
BUDAPEST I'm learning, Budapest I'm burning me
This is not who I wanted to be, this is not what I wanted to
see
She's so young so why don't I feel free now that she's under
me?
In the morning she's going away in a Budapest taxi I've paid
Seeking freedom I touched the untouched - it's too much -
I'm BEYOND THE PALE...

Prematurity is the story of both you and me,
and we were always much more human than we wished to be
Prematurity is truly the story of both you and me,
and we were always much more human than we wished to be
We were always much more human than we wished to be -
we were always much more human than we wished to be
We will always be more human then we wish to be
WE WILL ALWAYS BE SO MUCH MORE HUMAN
THAN WE WISH TO BE...

Day after day
Nothing's changed you're far away
But I need you to know that I can't sleep anymore
By the nights
Night after night
The stars are shining so bright
Though our pain is larger than Universe tonight

I want you to know I can't sleep anymore
By the nights
By the nights
Day after day I want you to say
That you're mine
You are mine

Year after year
Tear after tear
I feel like my heart will break in two
You came like a wind
I couldn't defend
You cut my heart so deeply
The scars won't mend

I'll never believe in love anymore
After this
After this
Can never change of rearrange
What we lost
What we lost

Time after time
I am wasting my time
Living in a past where I was strong
But now I am gone
I leave no shadow when I'm alone
I'll stay forever in my dreams where you are near
Want you to know I can't sleep anymore
By the nights
By the nights
Day after day I want you to say
That you're mine
You are mine

"See me"
"Hear me"
"Need me"
Some things will never change
"Touch me"
"Heal me"
Mankind remains the same

Oceans
Forests
Nations
Now everything bears our name
While Earth is bleeding
Nothing will remain
Nothing prevails

We were stuck in this world of change
Expecting it to remain
Now nothing is left unstained

No!

When there's nothing more that we can trade
Own
Steal
Or sell

When there's nothing whole because we took it apart
And
Just left
Moved on

When there's nothing left for us to break
Use
Abuse
Or rape

Then you're free to count how much you saved

Radio reports
Power grids shut down today ranging from the east coast all the way to Michigan and parts of Canada
A total of 50 million people are without power
There is no estimate of when the electricity will be restored and the cause is yet unknown
New York city is in gridlock with hundreds of thousands of people in the streets
Their cars left on the sides of the road.

Terrible earthquakes rocked Samoa, the ???
It rated 7.2 on the richer scale
At this point no estimates of deceased and wounded can be recorded
We do know however that since the year 1973
there have been 17 earthquakes in 14 cities
throughout Europe
with 6,500 dead

Two tankers collided off the coast of Norway
This afternoon pouring millions of gallons of oil into the ocean
???? is going to have a terrific effect on the ocean for years to come
The greatest fear being the extinction of several species ??? on the "endangered" list

I can see the ways we fail
I can see us fall so easily
A structure far too frail
I can see 40,000 years of knowledge and history
Invested in this child
Spoiled and stained by proud divinity
Gaining at best the perspective and wisdom
Of not even a fleeting century

We have now reached the final ten thousandth of a second
of our evolutionary year, as we hit 2,000 at a birth rate
of 250 people a minute

Tell me
How are we supposed to survive?
If we're acting like fools
All dropping dead to stay alive?
Someone tell me
Please just show me
If there's nothing to do, God we'll turn to you
But if we're an image of you
I reckon you are just as puzzled and ugly too

You think we have developed fast; that we're civilized and intelligent
I'll let you in on a secret: we have developed Things!
The rest is simply knowledge passed on

(I can see us drain this world
I can see us buying loss too cheap
Terra Sterilia washing its broken hand of us now
Creation's blackest sheep!)
Hell, 99% of humanity couldn't put together a simple light bulb if you put a gun to their heads!
And the intellect rubs off on fear

The year 2,010 AD: 6,823 Million people
2,020 AD: 7,518 Million people
2,030 AD: 8,140 Million people
2,040 AD: 8,668 Million people
2,050 AD: 9,104 Million people

I can see us read the signs
But spell them out in backward travesty
I see us close our eyes
To all the wounds that we inflict to this world by being "free"
We love this world to death
Purchasing our lifestyles with our lives
Defending our momentarily nations
With the loss of our priceless earthly home

It's not hard to reach the top
It's not hard not knowing when to stop
It's not hard to take all
Not very difficult to fly if you settle for a fall
It's not hard to cross a line
It's not hard to push and go too far
Some creatures cannot climb
Then there are us who cannot even learn how to stay alive

I'm sorry!
For the things we did and did not do
Forgive us; the fools that rushed ahead without a clue
I am sorry
Please forgive us
For this human lack of humanity
This evolutionary travesty
This tragedy called "Man"
...called "Man"...

Radio reports:
...martyr, on the other hand claims that he was instructed by god to attack the kindergarten.
Because of his own...

.. to kill these men as a symbol of white supremacy, the founding premise of...

.. the school girls were given the date rape drug by the nurse when they complained of feeling ill.
They were then taken by the...

..questions regarding so many people diagnosed with colon cancer, the doctors response was..

..45 counts of child pornography. He was arrested after police set him up..

..his blood alcohol content was .463, almost 6 times the legal limit. Ironically the girl died...

..for years over the abuse the environment and atmosphere have endured with the modern industrial lifestyle. It seems as if one of their greatest fears..

I'm sorry!
For the things we did and didn't do
Forgive us, the fools that rushed ahead without a single clue
...without a single clue...

FEBRUARY,1993(motala)

instrumental

다니엘 길덴로우가 아내를 위해 몇 년 전에 만들어 놓은 곡으로,
서로 상반된 분위기가 나타나는 경우를 그렸다 함

"Please let me be yours please never leave
Please stay here close to me
All love we shared where is it now?
Please let me be better than I was
Please don't give up on us
The thought of leaving you - I do not know how"

"I can feel the pain you have inside
I see it in your eyes
Those eyes that used to shine for me
I can feel the wildness in your heart
That's tearing us apart
My love how can I help if you don't want me"

There is nothing you can do to help now
I am lost within myself as so many times before
There's nothing you can do to ease my pain
I am so, so sorry but if you love me you must let go

Two young souls in the dance of a chain sling
Love once born from the ink of Solitude
Bidding to the dance in the swing of a rope end
Walking their Remedy Lane
through this interlude of pain

Who will be there now?
When I lose my one true love?
(When I lose my love)
I am falling now
Darkness below and above

There is nothing you can do to help now
I am lost within myself as so many times before
There's nothing you can do to ease my pain
I am so, so sorry but if you love me you must let go

Two young souls in the dance of a chain sling
Love once born from the ink of Solitude
Bidding to the dance in the swing of a rope end
Walking their Remedy Lane through this interlude of pain

Who will be there now?
When I lose my one true love?
(I am falling now)
Have I lost myself?
To love someone else...

"Please let me be yours please never leave
Please stay here close to me
All love we shared where is it now?
Please let me be better than I was
Please don't give up on us
The thought of leaving you..."

I DO NOT KNOW HOW

She is still young...
Another day of emptiness
This life is wearing her down
The room around her is a mess
Her children safe with her mom
She is still young but feeling old
Two children with different fathers
She sits on the bathroom floor alone
The shower chain broke
Her neck hurts
Then another night of emptiness to wear her down
Naked to the world she wraps her sadness in a gown
Her children fast asleep she sears the dark with glassy eyes
Choosing carefully among her husband's business ties

"Over!" she cries through rope ends and silk ties
Beautiful life escaping her young blue eyes
(But life holds her hand, refusing to let go
Leaving her breathing on the floor)

They're still asleep don't hear her cry
And she's still obsessed with rope ends
This time she picks a stronger tie
With Winnie the Pooh and friends
She is still young but feeling old
A child dying to be a mother
Now she hangs from the ceiling all alone
All pressure is falling from her
Seeing guilt has taught her guilt she's raised on disbelief
Merely twenty beautiful but with a taste for grief
She has learnt all that there is to know about hopelessness
Seeing that no effort in this world can stand her test

"Over!" she cries through rope ends and silk ties
Beautiful life escaping her young blue eyes
(And Winnie is strong, would never let her fall
Prevents her from breathing till she's not there at all
But life holds her hands, refusing to let go
Leaving her breathing on the floor)

Seeing guilt has taught her guilt she's raised on disbelief
Merely twenty beautiful but with a taste for grief
She has learnt all that there is to know about helplessness
Seeing that no caring in this world can ease her stress

Helpless she lies in rope ends and undies
Unseeing eyes fixating Eeyore's smile
"Over!" she cries as she's going unblind
Still in this life
Still in this troubled mind
(The ceiling let go, the old house let her fall
Dropping her breathing to the hard cold floor
Hitting her head - a broken china soul
Red stains on porcelain and she's not there at all)

Breathing she cries for rope ends and silk ties
Beautiful eyes Pigliet stands shy behind
Broken she lies undead and unblind
Beautiful life Beautiful crying young eyes
(Blackened and bruised, learning how to see
Staring at her tooth - crimsoned ivory
Hours they pass this broken china soul
Red stains on porcelain
And she's not there at all)

Let me go
Let me go
Let me seek the answers that I need to know
Let me find a way
Let me walk away
Through the Undertow
Please let me go

Let me fly
Let me fly
Let me rise against that blood-red velvet sky
Let me chase it all
Break my wings and fall
Probably survive
So let me fly
Let me fly...

Let me run
Let me run
Let me ride the crest of chance into the sun
You were always there
But you may lose me here
Now love me if you dare
And let me run

I'm alive and I am true to my heart now -
I am I, but why must truth always make me die?

Let me break!
Let me bleed!
Let me tear myself apart I need to breathe!
Let me lose my way!
Let me walk astray!
Maybe to proceed...
Just let me bleed!

Let me drain!
Let me die!
Let me break the things I love I need to cry!
Let me burn it all!
Let me take my fall
Through the cleansing fire!
Now let me die!
Let me die...

Let me out
Let me fade into that pitch black velvet night

I dream my dreams all alone at night
- my life's a cartoon in black and white
I'm sick of this paint in my face!
I'm always the one to make the show
- a laughing clown, wings black as a crow
I carry this large mind with pain
A mind in this world seems in vain

I remember all those years, running through the freedom
What became of the child I used to be?
I remember all those tears, melting my own face and now
It has become the one I thought was yours

Oh, look at this pitiful young soul - is he beyond or
behind, who knows...
But there's no one to burn at his pace
Contemplating wave lengths in the bath while scorching
himself to make us laugh
This beckoning mind cannot be
Insanity might set it free

I remember all those years when I was invincible
What became of the child that used to laugh?
I remember all those fears, bleaching this wild heart and
now
It has become the gray I thought was yours

If you'd just let him in, if you would just touch him
He would love, he would grow, he could rest his old soul
Maybe he's difficult but he's still beautiful
Wild at heart, troubled mind, torn apart, seeking his kind

I lie awake watching your shoulders
Move so softly as you breathe
With every breath you're growing older
But that is fine if you're with me

I pledge to wake you with a smile
I pledge to hold you when you cry
I pledge to love you till I die
Till I die

The rays of dawn play on your eyelids
A sleeping beauty dressed in sun

I will wake you with a smile
I will hold you when you cry
I will love you till I die
Till I die
Till I die

I believe this heart of mine when it tells my eyes
That this is beauty
I believe this heart of mine when it tells my mind
That this is reason
I believe this heart of mine when it cries at time
That this is forever
I believe this heart of mine when it tells the skies
That this is the face of God

I lie awake watching your shoulders