P. M. Dawn

아버지란 이름이 거머쥔
무거운 가장이란 이름
이른 나이엔 이해 못 했던
아버지의 눈물 이젠 알 것 같아
꿈을 이루기 위해 달렸던
당신의 청춘 남자도 운다
그 남자의 나이는 갓 스무 살
고향을 떠나와 아주 낯선 땅
서울에 두 발을 디뎌 꿈을 위해
부모님의 반대에도 길을 나섰다
어릴 적부터 되길 원했던 배우
무작정 대학로 사이를 헤매어
극단 오디션엔 합격했지만
연극이 아닌 걸레질부터 배워야 했어
밤에는 호프 낮에는 전단지
알바를 하며
시간이 나는 틈틈이 외웠던 대본
허나 좀처럼 맡지 못한 배역
어느 날 걸려온 어머니의 전화
혹시 눈물이 흐르면 어쩌나
그는 웃으며 연기를 했어
아들은 잘 있으니 걱정 마요
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
다만 꿈을 위해 꾹 참는다
성공아 널 꼭 잡는다
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
대신 크게 웃어 감춘다
남자의 자존심을 갖춘다
I just hold back ma tears
behind the smile
I'm hiding all the hard
things for my love
I just hold back ma tears
even tears formed in my eyes
Because i am a man
그 남자의 나이는 쉰다섯 살
아버지란 이름으로 쉽지 않은 세상을
헤쳐나가는 개인택시 운전기사
오늘 새벽도 어김없이 달린다
어금니 꽉 깨물고
술 취한 손님의 행패를 참아내
운전대가 비틀거릴 때마다
사랑하는 두 아들과 아내가 떠올라
힘을 내야만 해
가족이란 배의 선장
암초에 부딪혀도 혼자 감당해
실은 가슴에 상처도 상당해
젊은 날 접어버린 배우의 꿈
그 텅 빈자리를 메우게끔 한
가장이란 이름
때론 이 세상이 야속해도 그는 행복해
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
다만 가족이 있기에 버틴다
그 남자의 이름은 아버지다
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
대신 크게 웃어 감춘다
남자의 자존심을 갖춘다
I just hold back ma tears
behind the smile
I'm hiding all the hard
things for my love
I just hold back ma tears
even tears formed in my eyes
Because i am a man
그 남자의 나이는 알 수 없지만
그 남자는 우리 주변 어디에나 있지
천사 같은 첫사랑
그녀에게 고백을 거절당해
슬퍼하는 소년
자신보다 애인이 더 힘들다며
군대에서 이별을 통보한 이등병
요즘 들어 그대가 괜스레 멀리하는
당신의 아버지 또한 마찬가지
그 남자의 나이는 알 수 없지만
그 남자는 우리 주변 어디에나 있지
겉으로는 무뚝뚝해도
속은 여리고 따뜻해요
일 사랑 성공 가족 행복 미래
그 무언가를 위해
눈물 같은 땀을 흘리는 그대
아닌 척하지만 남자도 운다
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
다만 그녈 위해 꾹 참는다
사랑아 널 붙잡는다
남자도 운다 남자도 울어
표현하지 않지만 남자도 울어
대신 크게 웃어 감춘다
남자의 자존심을 갖춘다
I just hold back ma tears
behind the smile
I'm hiding all the hard
things for my love
I just hold back ma tears
even tears formed in my eyes
Because i am a man

난 cool하지 않어 늘 뜨거워
연기가 나 내 방은 좀 더워
애들은 걱정해 그만 하라고
야 오승환 진짜 막장 테크 탔다고
알어 사실 편한 날이 없다
매일 매일 thriller
오늘도 우리 엄만
돈 벌어야 집도 사고
결혼 한다 날 조지셔
거기 내민 수줍은 카드 고지서
yeah yeah 믿어줘 여러분
물론 나도 알어 아직 갈길이 멀어두
자신 있어 나 늘 노력해
매일 새로운 class 난 졸업해
언젠간 벗겠어 two job hustle
때가 됐나봐 나 쫌 못 참겠어
목에 깁스 한 듯 난 앞 만 봤어
둘은 없어 오직 랩 하나만
뭐랄까 마치 내일 처럼
안 기다려도 그것은 오지
실력은 내 노력의 output
내 땀 만이 미랠 앞당겨 오직
옆 집 아주머니 한테 미안하지만
오늘도 또 랩을 멈추질 않지 난
연중 무휴 가내수공업
초조함을 눌러 show must go on
믿어줘 just do what I can
보여줄께 꼭 뭔가 확실하게
It feels good 걱정마 엄마
drop the bomb 이번 한번만
믿어줘 just do what I can
보여줄께 꼭 뭔가 확실하게
It feels good 걱정마 엄마
drop the bomb 이번 한번만
I just wanna sing makes me feel
I just wanna sing makes me free
I just wanna sing makes me wonder
Can't stop my song go on
난 구멍난 butane 터지기 직전
김탁구 shit 빵 터져 미쳐
brand bu year 달력에 적어둬
중고 rookie 가사를 외워둬
주정뱅이 처럼 밤새 달린다
식전 신부 화장 뜨면 난리나
집에 골치 이제 효도하고파
Thanks u mom and fa
이제 내가 할께 전부 다
notepad로 역사를 쓰는 사나이
일곱 번 넘어져도 덤벼 과감히
Grand master flash 부터 김콤비까지
배울 점이 있다면 안 가려 다 따지
Misson을 complete해 뉴올형 처럼
끝이 없어 Sool j freestyle처럼
JINBO형 처럼 끊임없이 진보해
내가 바로 범인 너 바로 신고해
아직 갈길 너무 많아도
이제는 겁 안나지 하나도
예전 난 달리기도 전에 헥헥
매일 밤 침대 위
두려움과 have sex
다 지나갔어 전부 EXP 되서
지금의 날 키웠지
메마른 강에 비가 오니 난 이제 떠
노아의 방주야 올라타 니네도
믿어줘 just do what I can
보여줄께 꼭 뭔가 확실하게
It feels good 걱정마 엄마
drop the bomb 이번 한번만
믿어줘 just do what I can
보여줄께 꼭 뭔가 확실하게
It feels good 걱정마 엄마
drop the bomb 이번 한번만
I just wanna sing makes me feel
I just wanna sing makes me free
I just wanna sing makes me wonder
Can't stop my song go on
난 앞으로 갈래
그래 이젠 내 차례
이제 절대 STOP안해
미리 준비해 party
난 앞으로 갈래
그래 이젠 내 차례
이제 절대 STOP안해
너 뭐해 준비해 빨리

Holy animation, what's a human, what's a lifetime?
All the angels, praying for me, I'm only human
For a lifetime, what's a lifetime, if you love me?
For a lifetime, you said you'd love me

Mass producing, more affection, for a human,
For a lifetime, many lifetimes, for a human,
Is it human to, know your...your lifetimes?
What's a lifetime, if you love me?
What's a lifetime, if you can't love me?

Sacred introduction, to a human, to a lifetime,
Elevation, turns emotions, into humans
Into lifetimes, What's a lifetime, if you love me?
For a lifetime, you said you'd love me

Like you...I'm trying hard to get with you...I guess I'm not so into you...
It's unfortunat I'm not used to any other space.
Lately...I've been trying to erase me...see I'm not into hating me
I've already been driving me crazy, but I can concentrate,
reach me, 'cause I got you babe completely..am I unsure? Absolutely
You contaminate me so well I believe you now,
Truly I care about you so deeply..God I wish I believed me....
I wonder you so much, I've been touched
I think

(chorus)
Everything's OK...I mean if everything's alright.....
almost everyone I know believes in God and love....
So if everythings OK....I mean if everything's alright....
Well then Sympathy you should be the superstar that you are.

Just say so...give the word and I'm vertigo....the existenial Romeo
My emotions teach me well with...a God complex
Teach me...this anger tries to impeach me
and consider idiosynncrasicies dameged me so well that I can't tell
'Cause I think

(chorus)

Dr. Strangelove you should be Dr. Estrangedlove...everything that ever was,
you're so lucky you get to be you and you're all the time
I do everything with you despite, See I don't dance but I try to
Apathy knows you well, 'cause you're a superstar
And

(chorus)

I'm Downtown Venus, And I'm trying to be by myself.....myself
Habitual dreamers, And no one dreams enought to get me home
I'm Downtown Venus, And they're trying to devine my self.....my self (and they keep saying)

(chorus)
You could be into you but you don't know what you're like
yeah.....you would be into you but you don't know what you're like.

I'm Downtown Venus, And it's alright to kiss my life.....my life
I got misdemeanors, Mounting up for sleeping on the "nows"
I'm Downtown Venus, And I can't get behind my worth....my worth (but they keep saying)

(chorus)

I'm downtown Venus, where simplicity is always hurt....always hurt
I can't stop screamin', 'cause I'm falling to entertain all of my selves
I'm Downtown Venus And I constantly remind myself....my self

I could be into me but....I don't know what I'm like
Yeah...I could be into me but....I dont' know what I'm like.............

If you should ever go, don't ever think I'd never miss you
If we should ever say goodbye, what makes you think that I'll survive
Even if you go, I will always be there for you
'Cause when I think of all your reasons why
It only brings tears to my eyes

Without you in my eyes...I always find my mind is miles from anything.
Without you in my life....I am deep inside miles from anything

Everytime you cry, why do I always feel like I let you
If we should ever fade away, how can you think I'd let it stay this way
You don't ever wonder, what this is the future has for me and you
Whenever you look into my eyes, baby, you should understand all inside

Without you in my eyes...I always find my mind miles from anything
Without you in my life...I am deep inside miles from anything

No, there ain't nothing special 'bout my life, my egoism is so not,
But oh so comfortably confusion ins my life, pleased to meet you baby, baby,
'Cause I've got infinity to bring me a little paradise.....there you are to kiss me,
Must you always live right now? But I always see you right in the middle of
everybody's life, singing everybody wants me there, but everybody
wants to put me down

(chorus)
What could be lonely 'bout you? What could be lonely 'bout you baby?
You're immaculately touched, and they love you that much,
Whatever's lonely bout you only makes me totally convinced that
my own personal gravity serves me well.

Why am I always misinterpretting my guilt? My happiness makes me sad sometimes,
And I'm no guardian angel but I can loan you mine,
They're tickling all my precious depressions

So melancholy's bringing me a little of what he calls paradise,
I'm bored with my elation, it humors me to tears sometimes,
But always manages to put a little hickey on everybody's mind
Why does everybody want me here, but no one here can give me reasons why.

(chorus)

Why do I do everything "dis" integration likes? I'm grieving with my patience's patience,
and all constant information tells me is.....no one wants to put me down here
but everyone was dumb enough to come.

(chorus)

There are only whispers and shadows for me
The way things are and the way things are
And with this I blow a kiss to disaster
Because I wish to perfect my heart...
I gotta check my mind...
Am I in tune with you?
Do we connect within the realm of the gods?
Electric word "life" that means forever
and thats a mighty long time when you've kissed divine
So divine...as with you
The Christ within will come in the clouds
Trusting "divinity is always with me"
Trusting "this is the here and now"
Mercy's right...I gotta check my love
and I'm trying to do as such
I don't let the demons get me down
it's just that sometimes I miss you so much...

I can envision all things to life
I can understand realistic ways
But I invent the next phase in forever
I like you, rewrite the next page
It's so pristine...it's so untouched
I'm an emmaculate sign of devotion
Still unseen...I'm thinking so what
Bless me cursed with colorful emotions
God said "I guess you don't know I'm you
because you know the entire 360"
A Christ that's me
A Christ that's you
Reguardless...constantly within me
I'm so not responsible for this
I'm just a man in love with so much
I know love...you'll always be with me
It's just sometimes I miss you so much

Destiny paints the picture at about 9:45, I possess the image at about 10:15
Reality paints the picture at about 5:25, and I'm like "How much sugar do you take in your dreams?"
So I practice complicity around 9:45, yeah that's right, yeah that's right....Unending

Life, are you in my mind? Are all my dreams mine? Wake me up at 9:45
Life, do you believe in time? Do you love your life? Wake me up at 9:45

Destiny writes direction at about 9:45, I receive the visions at about 10:18
Reality drives perception 'till about 5 after 5, and I'm like "Angels always saturate your schemes"
So I practice complicity around 9:45, so I dream, yes I dream, so infinite.

Life, are you in my mind? Are all my dreams mine? Wake me up at 9:45
Life, do you believe in time? Do you love your life? Wake me up at 9:45

Here's your chance to be unstable, here's you rchance to be unsatisfied,
Here's your chance to dream just like me, realizing we've been fantasized
No need to Christianize me, no need to antagonize my life,
No need to actualize me, "Cause you've just been bitten"

Destiny sings redemption at about 9:45, I can hear the symphony around 10:19,
Reality stops the music at around 5:59, and I'm like "You can't change the volume in my dreams"
So I practice complicity around 9:45, existing...Infinite...Limitless...

Baby works at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I can't go
Baby plays at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I can't go

I know I can disappear like Shakespeare's Romeo
I know that good things always treat me bad
But don't you think it's strange that I don't know?
(sometimes... sometimes... sometimes...)

Baby works at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I don't go
Baby hurts at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I won't go

If I can't make it disappear then I will have to go
I wonder if happiness will meet me there
But classify me strange 'cause I can't go
(sometimes... sometimes... sometimes...)

Baby awakes at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes there's no show
Baby freaks from the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes there's no show

I know that I love you but I'm bleeding all I know
you do a great job of wanting me
But don't you think it's strange I told you so
(sometimes... sometimes... sometimes...)

Baby works at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I can't go
Baby plays at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I can't go
Baby works at the puppet show...
and sometimes, sometimes I can't go
Baby hurts at the puppet show...
and I'm just trying to understand you

I look through love baby just like you, I hope to be all he wants me to be
So when you run from me I will always understand
But don't you want to know why God loves you?

I think I know how divine you are and I only see what you want me to see
So when you cry a crucifixion I will always comprehend
But will you ever know why god loves you?
I will always love you more because you want to know why God loves.....

All things in time are shadows as divine
Everything I do I only do through you
Will we all survive all the wonders why
as close as we are everyone's alone

I'm flesh and blood baby just like you, and we're also more than we're able to see
That's why through all your tribulations I will always hold your hand
Because you want to know why God loves you

All things inside are shadows of my lives
Everything you do affects me like I'm you (because I am)
Will we all survive?
No more wondering why because when closeness comes......

OH MY GOD

You got me floatin', 'round and 'round
You got me floatin', never down
You got me floatin', nat'rally
You got me floatin', float to please

Oh, you got me floatin' around and 'round
Always up, you never let me down
The amazing thing; you turned me on nat'rally
Oh and I kiss you when I please.
Hear what I'm sayin' babe......

(
)

You, you got me floatin'across and through
You make me float right on out to you
There's only one thing I need to really get me there
Is to hear you laugh without a care
What I say now babe.....

(
)

Now your, daddy's cool and your mama's no fool
They both know I'm head over heels for you
And when the day melts down into a sleepy, red glow
That's when my desires start to show.

(
)

"He just kept on goin'......."

Is it my turn to wish you were lying here
I tend to dream you when I'm not sleeping
Is it my turn to fictionalize my world
Or even imagine your emotions to tell myself anything
Is it my turn to hold you by your hands
Tell you I love you and you not hear me
Is it my turn to totally understand
To watch you walk out of my life and not do a damn thing


*If I have to give away
The feeling that I feel
If I have to sacrifice
Oh, whatever babe, whatever baby
If I have to take apart
All that I am
Is there anything that I would not do
'Cause inside I'd die without you

Oh, I apologize for all the things I've done
But now I'm underwater and I'm drowning
Is it my turn to be the one to cry
Isn't it amazing how some things just completely turn around
So take every little piece of my heart
So take every little piece of my soul
So take every little piece of my mind
'Cause if you're gone.. inside
I'd die without you

*Repeat

The camera pans the cocktail glass, behind a blind of plastic plants; I found the lady with the fat diamond ring. then you know I can't remember a damn thing. I think it's one of those de ja vu things, or a dream that's tryin' to tell me something. Or will I ever stop thinkin' about it. I don't know, I doubt it. Subterranean by design, I wonder what I would find if I met you, let my eyes caress you, until I meet the thought of Missess Princess Who? Often wonder what makes her work. I guess I'll leave that question to the experts, assuming that there are some out there. they're probably alone, solitaire. I can remember when I caught up with a pastime intimate friend. She said, "Bet you're probably gonna say I look lovely, but you probably don't think nothin' of me." She was right, though, I can't lie. She's just one of those corners in my mind, and I just put her right back with the rest. That's the way it goes, I guess. Baby you send me Set adrift on memory bliss of you Careless whisper from a careless man, a neutron dance for a neutron fan; marionette strings are dangerous things, I thought of all the trouble they bring. An eye for an eye, a spy for a spy, rubber bands expand in a frustrating sigh. Tell me that she's not dreaming. She's got an ace in the hole, it doesn't have meaning. Reality used to be a friend of mine, 'cause complete control, I don't take too kind. Christina Applegate, you gotta put me on. Guess who's piece of the cake is Jack gone? She broke her wishbone and wished for a sign. I told her whispers in my heart were fine. what did she think she could do? I feel for her, I really do. The next day I had the ring finger on her hand, I wanted her to be a big PM Dawn fan, but I had to put her right back with the rest. That's the way it goes, I guess. Baby you send me... Set adrift on memory bliss of you -