Lifer

I find myself in question again
And I doubt this Love you've given to me
I hope you understand when I say
I need this time to myself

You speak your mind to me again
You force your words so deep within
You try to tell me how to live
But it's my life

I know your open arms too well
Cause I뭭e lost myself there many times before
I need to slowly fall away
Far from the grip you have on me

You speak your mind to me again
You force your words so deep within
You try to tell me how to live
But it's my life
I find these words were never true
I've lost all my respect for you
I need to find my own way
It's my life

I gotta get away
One step away
I gotta get away
Just one step away
I gotta away you're pushing me away
I gotta get away
Well I'm gone

save yourself while you can
watch your back because i'm coming
wanna listen to me cry, i'm gonna try
i'm back, one back for you to turn on
just face it
what you're thinking about is impossible
i can't take anymore listen to me
come to my room, in my bed
but the whore inside you never goes away
in the end it's o.k.
but the hole inside you really shows
come with me before
now you're regretting what you're doing
wanna listen to me cry?
i'm gonna try
one slap in the face was all i needed to face it
and now i'm thinking about my situation, my situation
come to my room, in my bed
but the whore inside you never goes away
in the end it's o.k.
but the hole inside you really shows
can you feel it?
the commotion
do you feel it ?
don't tell me no
and if you don't
let the games begin!
that scab from the past that you showed to me
wasn't from me
too much television
you lay by my side
when everything's fucked
do you know why?
another slap in the face but not another for me
one foot in the mouth another in the game
why do you regret what you want?
why do you resent me?
when all that i wanted was you
i've thrown myself away now because of you
what more do you want from me?
how does it feel?
what do you want?
come to my room, in my bed
but the whore inside you never goes away
in the end it's o.k.
but the hole inside you really shows
come to my room, in my bed
but the whore inside you never goes away
in my room, in my bed

no use running i see you there
no use hiding or lying i'm becoming you
i'll be all that i'll be
beautiful, pitiful
beautifully, pitiful
look at yourself
what do you see now?
ugly somehow
i am ugly
you are ugly
we're all ugly in the mirror.
clear day
sunny day
now cloudy day, good day
my pain lasting too long
but i love what i've become
beautiful, pitiful
beautifully, pitiful
look at yourself
what do you see now?
ugly somehow
i am ugly
you are ugly
we're all ugly in the mirror.
i'm not mentioning any names.
i'm not mentioning any names.
i'm not mentioning any names.
i'm not mentioning any names.
look at yourself
what do you see now?
ugly somehow
i am ugly
you are ugly
we're all ugly in the mirror.
i am ugly
you are ugly
we're all ugly in the mirror

come and take a look at what i've got inside
steppin' up to me will make you question your mind
so step up! step up! and eat a piece of your pride
even the big look kind of small
if you're gonna snooze ya' lose and don't forget it
and if it happens again guess you're never gonna get it
you'll never learn that you'll never knock me over
If you're offended by a freak stop coming to the show.
no name calling everthing will change
what will you do now that everthing is rearranged?
how can you sit there and laugh about the things that i do when i try?
would you try for me?
i'm fed up with everything but me
when i think back to how it used to be
sit there and watch me pretend
you bore me now
you bore me now
(what am i supposed to think?)
boring, somehow you think you're so much better than me
come and take a look at what i've got inside
steppin' up to me will make you question your mind
so step up! step up! and eat a piece of your pride
even the big look kind of small
if you're gonna snooze ya' lose and don't forget it
and if it happens again guess you're never gonna get it
you'll never learn that you'll never knock me over
if you're offended by a freak stop coming to the show.
no name calling everthing will change
what will you do now that everthing is rearranged?
how can you sit there and laugh about the things that i do when i try?
would you try for me?
i'm fed up with everything but me
when i think back to how it used to be
sit there and watch me pretend
you bore me now
you bore me now
(what am i supposed to think?)
boring, somehow you think you're so much better than me
you bore me now
you bore me now
(what am i supposed to think?)
boring, somehow you think you're so much better than me
come and take a look at what i've got inside
steppin' up to me will make you question your mind
so step up! step up! and eat a piece of your pride
even the big look kind of small
no name calling everthing will change
what will you do now that everthing is rearranged?
how can you sit there and laugh about the things that i do when i try?
would you try for me?
i'm fed up with everything but me
when i think back to how it used to be
sit there and watch me pretend
you bore me now
you bore me now
(what am i supposed to think?)
boring, somehow you think you're so much better than me
you bore me now
you bore me now
(what am i supposed to think?)
boring, somehow you think you're so much better than me

as i wake
i open my eyes
i find, i realize
my drive was so far but close enough to go
compelled by someone or something
who knows the real me?
i showed you everything and you took from me
spit it out
pull it out
i come when i'm amused by you.
so take my hand
will you show me what you like?
i will show you what i like
will you touch me there?
while i'm touching you
if i told you i loved you and without you i would die
i lied to you
i lied to you
fuck me!
spit it out
pull it out
i come when i'm amused by you
spit it out
pull it out
i cum only when i'm in you
if i told you that i lied
if i told you that i lied
i'm a liar.
it might be in you
it might be masturbation
find comfort in you
feel my desperation
on your skin
on your lips
on your toungue
in your mouth
do you spit?
do you swallow?
it might be in you
it might be masturbation
find comfort in you
feel my desperation
on your skin
on your lips
on your toungue
in your mouth
do you spit?
do you swallow?
spit it out
pull it out
i come when i'm amused by you
spit it out
pull it out
i cum only when i'm in you
do you realize my drive?
do you swallow

remember things that I forget
it isn't now and wasn't then
now i'm laying on my back again
i don't care
i let you win, again
i don't need anthing i've left behind
no need for any one to show me how
don't lie to me
i've already lied to myself
it didn't bother me, so don't bother
believe me when that i say that it wasn't me
i'm just a friend that likes to pretend
i don't know how that you think that i don't care
i gave in
i let you win
i don't need anthing i've left behind
no need for any one to show me how
don't lie to me
i've already lied to myself
it didn't bother me, so don't bother me!
it's what i am so understand.
it's what i am so understand.
i don't need anthing i've left behind
no need for any one to show me how
don't lie to me
i've already lied to myself
it didn't bother me, so don't bother me

it's raining
i know you think that everyone is looking at you
why do you think everyone is looking at you?
you think it's funny?
well i'm starting to
you better get in
it's raining on your parade
you better go back inside
before the big one comes and washes us all away
i know you think that everyone is looking at you
why do you think everyone is looking at you?
you think you're stunning
well i'm stunning too
you better get in
it's raining on your parade
you better go back inside
before the big one comes and washes us all away
when the sun shines
and dries up all of the rain
it's all the same, it doesn't matter
but if it doesn't shine
and take away the blame
then it's not the same
it's not the same
you wanted this, another point of view
and then i saw another side of you
roses turn black when i'm blue
fuck me?
well fuck you too!
it's raining on your parade
you better go back inside
before the big one comes and washes us all away
when the sun shines
and dries up all of the rain
it's all the same, it doesn't matter
but if it doesn't shine
and take away the blame
then it's not the same
it's not the same

take another hit and it makes me big again
in, out, and around my head again
here, and i'm never giving up because i don't wanna leave today
my situation declines
the tension rises above everything i see
let it go
let it go
you can't have everything now
one more hit to forget the path again
now i'm on my back again
down, and i'm never getting up because i don't wanna move today
my motivation declines
the temperature rises above everything i feel
let it go
let it go
you can't have everything now
let it go
let it go
you can't have everything now
you've seen this happen before
you know it's not a mistake
if you've seen it before you'll see it again
you fell asleep when i was awake
you left me blind
left behind
when all i feel is hate
all that i hate
all i've hated
let it go
let it go
you can't have everything now
let it go
let it go
you can't have everything now
you can't have everything, now

tell me when you've had enough
i know i need some
really? huh? do you want some of this?
do you wanna try?
do you think that you've had enough?
you tell me you're falling in love
but i know that you sleep alone
really? huh? do you want some of this?
do you wanna cry?
do you still think that you love me?
i believe in nothing but me
(i asked you something)
(you think you know everything)
(i don't believe that shit)
(can you believe this shit?)
you tell me you think you are right
but i know that you are not
really? huh? do you want some of this?
do you wanna try?
do you still think you are right?
i believe in nothing but me
(i asked you something)
(you think you know everything)
(i don't believe that shit)
(can you believe this shit?)
i believe in nothing but me
(i asked you a question)
(you think you know everything)
(i don't believe that shit)
(can you believe this shit?)
i believe in nothing but me
(i asked you something)
(you think you know everything)
(i don't believe that shit)
(can you believe this shit

make up your mind
what's your decision?
don't say that to me!
looking back to before
was it me that pushed you out the door?
now i am the one that you want to meet
i can't shake your hand
you starred at you son
but not for long
i wasn't the one that gave you up
believe in your son because im right here
you were never there
it's not like before
somewhere in the middle of it all
you're looking at me
thinking back to before
it wasn't me that pushed you out the door
now i am the one that you want to meet
you're my newest fan
you starred at you son
but not for long
i wasn't the one that gave you up
believe in your son because im right here
you were never there
you starred at you son
but not for long
i wasn't the one that gave you up
believe in your son because im right here
you were never there
you were not there
it's not fair
do you care?
i don't care now
you're still not here
it's not fair
you don't care
i don't care

and you try to get the fuck up
listen to me
if you're scared drop to the floor
try to think about something
need a change because everyone looks the same
only one of us can remain
i'm not changing never for you
some people look good on their knees
but you look the best, and you try to get the fuck up
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
everyone listen to me
everyone drop to the floor
try to think about nothing
need a change because everything is the same
only one chance to offend
i'm doin' it and i'm doin' it well
some people look good on their knees
but you look the best, and you try to get the fuck up
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows
needed something to pass the time
never wanted to cross the line
one step changes everything
then everything blows

Why do you insist that you are right and I am wrong?
I know I'm no Jesus Christ, but I'm no different than you.

What if I was everything you wanted,
Would you still point and laugh at me?
I cried once, but never again.
Not again.

I am not like you, so you don't like me.

You are so resistant,
Never listening to anything other than what's familiar.
I'm familiar with everyone else.

What if I was everything you wanted,
Would you still point and laugh at me?
I cried once, but never again.
Not again.

I am not like you, so you don't like me.
I am not like you.

What if I was everything you wanted?
Would you still point and laugh at me?
I cried once, but never again.

I am not like you, so you don't like me.
I am not like you, so you don't like me.
I am not like you...
I am not like you

offended by my obscenity
mouth full of soap
cleansing me
asking for a little empathy
mouth is stained please let me
breathe
don't breathe, don't breathe
i can't breathe
breathe
don't breathe, don't breathe
i can't breathe
i am suffocating
i am suffocating
i am suffocating
i am so frustrated
drowning in my insecurity
i am on my hands and knees
begging for a little symapthy
begging you to help me
breathe
don't breathe, don't breathe
i can't breathe
breathe
don't breathe, don't breathe
i can't breathe
i am suffocating
i am suffocating
i am suffocating
i am so frustrated

at one time close now somehow far
no more oppression
no more scabs
to heal or pick open again
attention strayed from everything
i will never believe again
i don't think anything is true
is anything for certain
can't take the place of you
but it takes the place of nothing
when everything is perfect
why is everything so rotten?
it can't take the place of place of place of me in you
to think how some were wanting me
i'm close to something wrong to me
if i confess you'll lie to me
i think of something
wondering if i will ever believe again
i don't think anything is true
is anything for certain
can't take the place of you
but it takes the place of nothing
when everything is perfect
why is everything so rotten?
it can't take the place of place of place of me in you
as i walk away from you
how can I how can I
look at you when I feel this way now
how can I how can I
look at you when I'm pissed off somehow
how can I how can I
look at you when I feel this way now
how can I how can I
look at you when I'm pissed off some
how can I how can I
look at you when I feel this way now
how can I how can I
look at you when I'm pissed off somehow
somehow
somehow