Adema

I went outside to take a walk
So I could relive memories
I thought that you would lend a hand
But you were never ever there
It's all in your mind
You do what you wanna do

Your promises are all played out
You've got your wish you've worn me down
I treated you the best I could
I realize that I don't need you

I lost my way when you left home
I thought that you could change your life
What did I do why do you lie
You've walked back in my hands are tied

I'm tired I'm so damn angry
With you
Your not gonna change
I see who you really are

Your promises your promises
They're all played out
Your so played out your so played out
There all played out

I'm always gonna be one life behind
That's why I'm all alone
What's it gonna take to make you see
That we are falling apart
I wonder can we throw away the past
So we can stop the screaming match
I'm not gonna break down anymore
I've found my way to the door

I can see through both of us
It's an issue over trust
It's killing me it's killing me
To watch you leave me

I've tried to talk about what's really wrong
I see that look of discontent
The volume starts to rise and then it's on
That's why I have to go
Dealing with the pain is all that's left
Because we can not get along
You wanna put the blame on me again
I think that we have reached the end

It's your turn to watch me leave you
It's your turn to watch me leave you
It's your turn to watch me leave you

I never thought I was strong enough
To handle raising my own son
You'll always fear what you've never done
I hope he'll know me when I come home

Nothing gonna change
My love for you

I love my child
He's got his mother's smile
I'm so fortunate so fortunate
Life can get tight
But I will make it right
I'm so fortunate so fortunate

I had to learn what meant more to me
My family's became everything
I miss you more than you'll ever know
I wish that I could just leave go home

The weight of the world has been put on my shoulders
I looked in mirror and know that I'm older
I try to escape but the rain makes it colder
Why do I let all our problems take over

There's nothing I can do
There's nothing I can say
We need to try to find the right way

Stress me out stress me out
God has turned his back on me
Stress me out stress me out
There's nothing left for us to say
Stress me out stress me out
God has turned his back
Stress me out stress me out
There's nothing left to bleed

Nothing left to bleed nothing left to bleed

I've tried to explain what it's doing to me
Arguing over the simplest things
You wanna make life how you want it to be
Upset everyday isn't something we need

You're letting me down your letting me down
You're letting me down again

Are you looking down on me right now
I feel your presence beam down
Watching you get ill it changed our lives
Your hand went limp and we cried
I didn't realize you had to go
Emotionless overflow
I wish I had the chance to tell you
I'm so sorry...

Do you here me
Praying to you x2 [where can I find you
I'm thinking of you darling, darling, darling]

I know that you are in a better place
Somewhere you can escape
I'm looking for a sign from up above
That you still care and have love
I was really young and didn't know
I wish I had the chance to tell you
I'm so sorry

Work harder for nothing
To come up I'm fading
Work harder for nothing at all
To find you you're nowhere

I'm sitting on the edge of the water
Contemplating my strange life
The sun starts to fall into the ground
A breeze picks up off the waves
And everything is fine

I know that I am not alone
Everyone makes mistakes and starts to learn with time
There's nothing more I need to say
I'm happy with my life

Let go of all of the pain
Let go of all of the pain
Let go and you'll escape
You'll be happy with yourself
Let go of all of the pain

I watched you change and never
That you would be like all the rest
You were so true to good to be true
I trusted you and feel apart again

I can not change the fact
That your not coming back
So depressed I'm your slave

Betrayed me your not the one
To be trusted with my love
Betrayed me your not the one
Who should be trusted with my love

I had to leave so I could breath
I hate to fight that's not what I want
You were so true to good to be true
I trusted you and feel apart again

To Live, Do you want to... Live!?
Do you wanna live?
Do you wanna live?
Do you want to live?

I know this girl with a needle in her eye
The red dragons fucking circles through her skull
16 dragons to appease the tracks apon her soul
Grip the shit twice a day, to shut out all the pain

I can't take it anymore
I can't take it anymore.
Take this needle from my vein
Take it from my vein
All I feel is pain
All I feel is pain
There's nothing left
But blood stains

The tracks around me tell a tale, of what your hell on earth would feel
Do you want to live? Do you want to live?
Take that needle, fly away, remove it from your eyes
Do you want to live? Well, do you want to live?

I can't take it anymore
I can't take it anymore.
Take this needle from my vein
Take it from my vein
All I feel is pain
All I feel is pain
There's nothing left
But blood stains

When it all comes down, does the one thing end your life
And you make the world that we hate inside
Everything, is crying on me, it's gone, I've become your god

I can't take it anymore
I can't take it anymore.
Take this needle from my vein
Take it from my vein
All I feel is pain
All I feel is pain
There's nothing left
But blood stains

Why does everyone have answers, (problems)
Everybody has answers (problems)

Problems [x18]

I wanted to know who you really are
I needed the chance to stitch up my scars
I'm closer to you then I was in the start
Come dive right in and tear me apart

I'm trapped and we can't get along
I thought that I was strong
We are so unstable
In bed I'm strung out from your touch
But I won't give you up
We are so unstable

I wanted to learn about the dark side of you
You bring me down like a bottle of pills
I hate the way that you make me feel
I keep coming back I never get killed

I'm sick of the excuses that
you want me to believe
I've been understanding,
givin' everything you need
Using me is over now
and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you,
I'm done with you

Would there be a difference
if I followed what you say?
Taken from my mind and
I can't seem to get away
Using me is over now
and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you,
I'm done with you
Everyone is the same
Quick to point the blame
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape
all the games that you play
All I know is that life is a struggle

Sorry, I'm angry,
I've fallen from everything
Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same,
It's gonna change,
I'm not ashamed to live my life
Everyone is the same
Quick to point the blame
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape
all the games that you play
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same,
It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape
It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed
All I know is that life is a struggle

He says he love's you
But the make up will not cover up the bruises
He left on you
I tried to stop the cycle for you this relationship is wack
You bastard don't touch her anymore

Stand up stand up
He's a drunk and abusing
Stand up stand up
He thinks that you'll never leave him
Stand up stand up
I won't let him get near you
Stand up stand up
It's not your fault when he hurts you

I think you should have the chance
To enjoy the friends you have
He wants to erase them
I know that you are trying hard not to show it
But the coward is an asshole he's shameless

Abusing no more no more
Abusing no more no more

I woke up this morning and knew
That the world would test me come unglued
Is it me or do you feel my pain
This world makes my blood boil again

You rip the heart out of me
You rip the heart out of me
You make it look easy
Control and deceive me

I've tried to everything to please you
Gone out of my way like a fool
What makes me break down like a bitch
It's so hard to crawl out of this ditch

Most people don't care
Some people just fear
There's so much pressure
That our lives will feed us
Don't need a reason
I will get even
This is the season
Where I feel so manic

You hurt yourself
And blame me when you fall (codependent)
You have lost control
And crashed into a wall (codependent)
Life has found a way
Where karma slaps you in the face
You depend on me
For everything (codependent)

I am the bad seed
It fuels my own needs
I never was scared
To take my chances
I see the downfall
Cause I'm no social
I've got my own life
And you can't stand it

Codependent
Codependent
Codependent
Codependent

I'm sick of the excuses that you want me to believe
I've been understanding, givin' everything you need
Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you, I'm done with you

Would there be a difference if I followed what you say?
Taken from my mind and I can't seem to get away
Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you, I'm done with you

*Everyone is the same
Quick to point the blame
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape all the games that you play
All I know is that life is a struggle

Sorry, I'm angry, I've fallen from everything
Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same, It's gonna change,
I'm not ashamed to live my life

*Repeat

Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same, It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed

Let me breathe
Let me breathe

I can't even think right now
Something's got me feeling guilty
Hurt you slowly but so surely
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?

Pushing into what I want
Because I am so goddamn selfish
Left you hanging, stopped relating
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?

I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go

(Is it you, is it me)
It's easier to let you go
(Let me breathe)

Let me breathe

I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?
(Repeat)

I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go
(Repeat)

Is it you, is it me
(Repeat)

It's easier to let you go

Breathe
(Repeat)

Let me breathe

Breathe
(Repeat)

Die I gave in to
The stress in life
I can't escape
The pressure seems
to get me down
It's like a needle in my spine
It stings inside
Poisons me with time
I can't deal with your lies
I wish I could watch you
drown and die
And take my time
It's always been a problem
can't you see
I don't get
Your lies
People have said
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I lost my mind numb me 'till
I won't feel pain again
It's like a needle in my spine
It stings inside
Poisons me with time
I won't deal with your lies
I wish I could
watch you drown and die
And take my time
It's always been a problem
can't you see
I don't get
Your lies

Life is gone
I have no one
Life is good
I am no one
Life is gone
I have no one

I wish I could watch you
drown and die
And take my time
It's always been a problem
can't you see
I don't bend
The lies
I wish I could watch you
drown and die
And take my time
It's always been a problem
can't you see
I don't bend

There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
The guilt has lasted years, still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday

Realize that I've lost control,
impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside

Take up all my life inside,
why would I let them make up my mind
And be mislead
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
Realize that I've lost control,
impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me (Killing me)
The problems I face daily
It's always things that I have always take in vain
I'm sick of you judging me
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me
The problems I face daily

Days will come that make no sense
My present situation makes me
think too much, too much
It all revolves around you
This life that I'm living means
nothing without you
I'd shed my skin for you
What would you want me to do
I will always love you, but I can't live like this

This problem here is my fault
It's not that I don't care but I'm so lost
I'd shed my skin for you
What would you want me to do
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
Why
Now you (With me, a buzz) see why
Don't fuck with feelings inside
Who you lying to? Will I survive?
I like what you put my through,
'cause I feel almost alive (Almost alive)
I'd shed my skin for you
What would you want me to do
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
I'd shed my skin for you
What would you want me to do
I will always love you, but I can't live like this

Sign away all of my decisions
Tell when I breed
Terminate opinions
I dream away my freedom to please you
Let them talk so they feel important
They don't mean a thing, this is my own dream
Why do you have to put this on me?
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Life's okay, so don't complain
You can't obtain, figure out how to maintain
It's a shame, make a change
So life will never ever find me down
Found out just what it's really all about
Never doubt, I wish I could get out
Why do you have to put this on me?
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want

Find a way
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want