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How many times have I fallen before you
How much longer can I go on To raise to my feet, to try this game again I often point fingers of blame If only my mother knew the real me Her heart would break, for I am shame Not the strong man she raised from birth A coward, a child, and a scared soul In my dreams, I can fly away And look back through tears of pain Even if I were to never awake I would still have my downtime If only my mother knew the real me Her heart would break, for I am shame Not the strong man she raised from birth A coward, a child, and a scared soul A sweet embrace from honest love Just won't be enough this time If I had the cure, to save myself I would then know how you feel If only my mother knew the real me Her heart would break, for I am shame Not the strong man she raised from birth A coward, a child, and a scared soul |
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| 2. |
| 7:36 |
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I am broken.
In spirit, body, and mind Forever cold to faith in life Mother of night, embrace me I have not forgotten Looking back on the years of last With so much pain to bare I am broken Nights forgotten its son of brave And turned her back on bitterness Torn is my duality Judging the force of things yet old Trivia in forsaken thoughts Of tomorrow's crushing blow A calming plea, follow the day Two fold, I stand to ache Given to me by pitiful life Desperate time, to pass in stride How does anyone ever know? False dreams, and lesser faith Can you look me in the eyes And tell me everything's all right? If we talk about tomorrow How can I stop your tears? Separation of life and mind Comfort, the quest for time Suffer day, and hallowed night In dark realms to betray Left here for the devouring dogs To feast upon my very pride One thing I will never forget That I am only a man And I am broken Failure I cannot fix False hope for nothing This is the life I lead And tomorrow will not change |
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| 3. |
| 5:31 |
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I can't control when I was afraid
So far away, from any choice I have Here in this day, I continue to fear Simple as I am, It's always on my mind Somewhere inside, a voice is heard To remind me that I have lost control I have lost my will, to continue this way With every waking breath, I decide... How I live my life is far from normal days See my downward fall, and allow me to lie Somewhere inside, a voice is heard To remind me that I have lost control I give into my life, and color it with black I listen to my heart, and hear nothing If every day is cold, and the skies have turned to gray Only then will I be happy with this pain I have come to realize, my trials are before me These are the rules set forth, to be lost in a day I can't control when I was afraid So far away, from any choice I have Here in this day, I continue to fear Simple as I am, to be lost in a day |
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| 4. |
| 4:52 |
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My bride to comfort me
when all seems lost A kiss upon my brow to soften my suffering She means so well I haven't the heart To tell her my smile was forced. My mother cries for me when no one will Her words of compassion swell my eyes "It's not fair this has happened to you, And I'd do anything to take away your pain" My rage to help me through the day And visions of black to cure my loss I taunt the pain to prove it's real And greet my facade with a grin Look what your God has made me Placing spikes within my flesh A crown of nails for my sunken head To shy away from this freak |
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| 3:47 |
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On the days you long for me
And the cold nights of grey (Hear me) I ask you to forgive me And bow my head in shame (Feel me) I promise, I will never leave you I will not go on without you If the light calls upon me I will remain, waiting for you (Live for me) I've never felt so empty before I never cared more for us (Pray for me) I promise, I will never leave you I will not go on without you If the light calls upon me I will remain, waiting for you Somewhere along the days of my life I found my faith in you (Cry for me) |
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| 6. |
| 7:14 |
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In just one breath
Your dreams will fade A moment in time For fear to embrace The future... is my enemy Long days.... and endless nights Pain awakes my sleep And ends in a silent barrage of calm Look at me though jaded eyes Forever see the mask I wear Never feel pity for me It's the way my life lives Beaten by the only life I know Forced upon the spirit seed I only wish I had the strength To say goodbye At what time did you turn your back? I pay for this with every breath And all you do is preach through man Of how merciful you can be Then you shall not fail For every time you close your eyes I'll be there to greet you |
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| 7. |
| 5:46 |
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(life)
I long for days like this My heart pounds when you are near The gift of life Treasure it, for it is pure Embrace it with all your heart Not a thousand years of pain Would be worth the loss of this I hold for you a special gift And on this day, a new life begins (torn) Facade the day of forest green And calm my breath with words of plight A question I ponder this hour The light for me, or shadows engulf (death) I am the answers you seek You stand before me And I see your sorrow Even now, in your agony You can have your doubt For one last time (torn) Do I make make the sacrifice? To walk among the restless souls? How can I let this go on? Torn between love and life All is dead in my eyes (death) Close your eyes and welcome the truth Innocence is so sweet For only the aging of the flesh Shall rain upon the sorrows of life Admire this touch of heaven Before it fades. I remember days of old, And through your grief, one stands clear. I can see you forge a smile All these flowers are turning to snow For all is lost in your heart It's only her love that keeps you alive Now's the time for your pain to end (life) How can I ever live without you? This all seems so perfect So perfect, until I dream of you And your smile is my sunshine You deserve more then this Your saviour has come A strong soul to carry on To take you home I need you here with me Follow me now To pick me up when I fall Before the sunlight fades |
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| 5:56 |
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I just want to close my eyes
So I can forget about today Forget about what lies tomorrow And only take place in the realm of paradise To be beaten each day And lower my head As if its my own fault Forgotten about as night falls Restless nights that are filled with guilt And invite me into their empty embrace I never saw this coming And I now know that i'm not alone I can only wish that i'm the last And no one will suffer my fate It would take an eternity in hell For my heart to rest in peace. To strike down this hate filled soul And give back the pain you've caused Would only satisfy My craving for blood. I will see you in the end And I will laugh at your pain And I pray you suffer long And all the angels turn their backs From the site of your pitiful face No God will save your soul For there is no love for you You left that all behind The day you learned to fucking speak |
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| 1:37 | 
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| 10. |
| 7:36 |
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Solid shades of passions lie
With countless eyes to stare your sleep Wallow in terror of nights fetal embrace Cold tongues taste the fear A dark vision to scare my soul And shy away as the madness calls upon me To close my eyes at the end of day Welcome dark clad armies of fear More then novels have told my tale And campfire dreams that warm the soul With every moment of every night The shadows dance the walls And I know she looks upon me from afar To close my eyes at the end of day Evokes dark fields for brilliance Her cold smile haunts the after thought A fate for us all to be taken away From the empty days of hope, deny the darkness Follow my voice, we'll run far away from here If only to hide, to escape this life And live forever, forever in the sun For all the nights I lie awake And stare into the void Just once I wish to grasp Some glimmer of hope A cowards reign The last to know Forward, down And through my eyes |
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