Maren Ord

I guess I've come a long ways and I don't even know it
I guess I've seen a lot of days and I don't know how to show it
It seems people come and people go
But somehow I gotta get on with the show
It's all the same
I hope I don't blow it

Who are you and who am I?
It's hard to say sometimes
How am I supposed to fly?
I really don't know, do you?
Who are you and who am I?
It's hard to try when I'm so down
Who am I?

Suppose it's been a long time but I still have lots to say
I know that everything's fine even if it doesn't go my way
I still have a little time to grow
I have a little more that I could know
So, what if everything died?
There's still another day

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Who cares there's too many people bothering me
Who's there you know that you better stop clobbering me oh no
I swear if you open your mouth I'll count to three

I've been crowned the american loser
I have cried from state to state
No one wants to listen to my sad sad song
They just sing along
They're singing my song

Run around naked nobody's gonna' be hearing your prayer oh well
Even if you fake it nobody's gonna' be willing to care
Well you could travel the world and back but everybody has already been there ay now

I've been crowned the american loser
I have cried from state to state
No one wants to listen to my sad sad song
They just sing along ooh
They're stealing my song

Who cares there's too many stories out there
Well that's fine but it's not fair
Well how come nobody wants to listen to mine mine mine

Well I thought I could make a fuss for your eyes
Thought if I wore you a friendly disguise
You'd never see through what I am in my life
You'd never know who I am but you see
Well it's not me oh no

I've been crowned the american loser
I have cried from state to state
No one wants to listen to my sad sad song
We just sing along ooh oh

Well I've been crowned the american loser
I have cried from state to state
No one wants to listen to my sad sad song
They just sing along oh oh

They just sing along na na na
They sing a song
They're stealing my song

Here's a road, are you invited?
It's always up to you
How come our roads have collided?
Maybe I want something too

You say, you say
That there's a place
People make mistakes
You say, you say
That there's no way
Well, forever is a long time
Why don't you stay

Trust is something that's unspoken
I guess I thought you knew
Hearts are just meant to be broken
That's something you like to do

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What if all of your tomorrows end up to be a waste of my time?
Too much pain and too much sorrow is not what I'm in for
It's not what I'm in for

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Just go away

I have developed beauty marks over the years
I notice them when I'm with you
A deeper thing that surfaces the more I know myself
The more I understand
The more I try

Pretty things are what we like to be
I would like to surrender to beauty

I am a fool
The kind that everybody wants to be
'Cause I have you

I am a fool
I've fallen fast and hard because of you
You make me feel
So beautiful

The surface of a face is such a surface thing to view
The years of life are not enough
It doesn't show the inner part of someone who can laugh

The more I know myself
The more I cry

Pretty things are what we want to be
I would like to surrender to beauty

I am a fool
The kind that everybody wants to be
'Cause I have you

I am a fool
I've fallen fast and hard because of you
You make me feel
So beautiful

Pretty things are what we try to be
I would like to surrender to beauty

I am a fool
The kind that evreybody wants to be
'Cause I have you

I am a fool
I've fallen fast and hard because of you
You make me feel
So beautiful

When it's not coming
It doesn't feel right
And you can't fight
'Cause I'm not coming
I can't believe these years of trying to make it right
But he's not coming
No he's not gonna' get it right away
And she's not giving
No she's not gonna' give it anyway

Look it here this is my picture
And I'm not gonna' put it away
Look at me this is my picture
And I'm not gonna' tell you what I want
You can see right here

You're not coming
I think you would if you could see me here
But you're not coming
It might be better if I could only disappear
I'm just running
I think you know that if you understand
That you'd be coming
But I'm too far I know you'd be here if you could

Look at me this is my picture
And I'm not gonna' put it away

I'm not gonna' tell you
Put it away

So, this is it now
Your feelings turn
So this is it now

Tell me
What you want to know
I, I don't think so

Love is at your door but it's too easy
Your Mother's at your door ready to set you free
I am at your door, but you don't love me anymore
Peace is at your door
I'd like to think so

Tell me
Is it for the best now?
I, I don't think so

Solace at your door, but it's too easy
Your Mother's at your door ready to set you free
I am at your door, but you don't love me any more
Peace is at your door
I'd like to think so

Is it for the best now?

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Anywhere close and far away
I can feel you breathe
I have noticed all this time
Life's truly serene

Open face and pretty lace
I have known these things
Children grow and so we know
That this is what life brings

This is what life brings

Love is holding someone tight
Knowing the flecks in their eyes
Feeling their softness against your cheek
Knowing your Love tries

This is what love brings

You don't have to hear me out
Or listen to me shout
I can't remember when I've been so cold
You don't have to be so mean
Just to wash your hands clean
Don't like to do what you've been told

Well, Hallelujah, today's the day
For taking back the things you say

You can tell me off
You can run your mouth off all you want
You can tell me off
It won't bring back everything you think you want

You think you're feeling better now
And when I ask you how
It's 'cause you think you can't be wrong
Spilling what you want
Won't take you where you need to go
When's the last time you felt strong?

Well, Hallelujah, today's the day
To pay the price for what you say

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I have a knack for telling you what's inside my head
But only 'cause you're asking for it
Try bringing me down
Just you try bringing me down
I'm stronger then you think I am

Well, Hallelujah, today's the day
You better stop the things you say

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It happens everyday now
Walking out the door
It happens everyday now
Do I know what I do this for?

It happens everyday
I walk out of my place
Tempted by the storm
That's always in front of my face
Do I know what I do this for?

I've lived in this for so long
How do I feel a change?
The storm, it beats against me
Every single day

But Jesus stands beside me
He's holding me hand
The storm, it beats against me
But I know where I stand

It happens everyday
I walk out of my place
I'm tempted by the storm
That's always in front of my face
Do I know?
Yes, I know
I know exactly what I do this for

But Jesus stands beside me
He's holding my hand
The storm is pressed against me
But I know where I stand

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I woke up too early this morning
Just staring at the wall
Thinking why don't I just lay here and just not get up at all?
But then you pull me close beside you
It's so hard to let you go
And I breathe

I don't want to go
Don't wake me up
I want to stay beside you for as long as I want
Don't let me go
I want to see you tomorrow

So I turn around to face you
To see if you're awake
And my heart is tearing up inside and I know I cannot take the time
To listen to your heartbeat
It's a choice I have to make
And I breathe

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So I turn around to face you
And my heart is tearing up inside

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I guess I'll never see you again
I guess our everything is an end
And all you have to do is say my name
But Baby, if you tried to now
It would only cause me pain

I guess these memories aren't my friend
I thought these memories wouldn't end
And all this equity I've built to be with you
It's just gone all to waste
'Cause you don't want to face the truth

I love you but you don't love me
All I want to know
Is if you're sitting at home just like me
You've sent me, boy, you've rent me down
So Down

The phone ain't ringing here any more
My best friend, that's what you were for
But are you waiting silently like me
Just pretending you don't care any
Are you doing that to me?

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I guess I'll never see you again
I guess our everything is an end

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I've always been so understanding
If memory serves me right
No I've never started a fight

You're cold you're stiff you're wrong
Just look at you fumble along

If you point your fist in my direction
Color me black as night
No I'll never stumble into your light

You're cold and you started this fight
You're wrong but you're very right
Is it so important to you
Fine you're right

And I should know
I'm a girl and you're a boy
And you should know me better

You've always been understanding
You're not on my side today

Don't close your eyes
They may not open
What if they open
Would you be alive

Everyone falls
But not everyone rises
Why don't you get up
And rise again for me

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What if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
What if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
and blink again for me (for me, yeah, for me)

What about friendship
What about friends
You said the whole world
was against you
And it all had to end

What about love
What about family
What about all that
you have to live for

What if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
What if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
and blink again for me (for me)

It isn't easy here without you
Why did you leave me
What am I supposed to do
(without you)

What if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
And what if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes~
And what if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
And what if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
And blink again for me (for me, for me)

She drives herself through the streets
Watching eyes so blindly
Taking pictures
she can't see or show

On her mind is
who to meet
Cautioning too kindly
Wondering is she'll ever have
or need to know

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Sarah doesn't care anymore
What they talk about
at the back door
They say she can't hold her own
And her Mama's never home
Sarah doesn't care anymore
What they talk about
at the back door
You wonder why she feels so alone
How could a young girl feel so old.
You know
Sarah doesn't care anymore
You know what they say
at the back door
But it's not that way

Sarah walks along silently
on her own
Keeping to herself
Talks to no one else
And cares not for anyone
Sealing those pictures of the past
How time's flown so fast

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So what if you're miles
away from me
I can't ponder on you forever
So what if the night
is dreary without you
Here to brighten up my sky

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All I want is you
Here in my arms
You in my dreams
You here beside me
You
All I want is you

I figured it'd be a shorter while
Oh and time would pass quickly
But it's certainly not the case this time
And I miss you here in my arms

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All I want is you

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If you could open up your eyes
And see the colour of my tears
They're not that grey, they're not that
blue, They're beautiful

If you could just see what I see
You'd know the world is not that grey
And it's not that blue
You'd see the world is beautiful
if you would

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Open your eyes, take my hand
Take a look at where you stand
It's not that hard,
just take a step back my friend
And see this world
We're living in it's beautiful
life is beautiful

So take that look from off your face
I know it's not that easy so tell me
Ohhhhh
It's not that grey so look at me and

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It's when I open up my eyes
And see the colour of your tears
They're not that grey,
they're not that blue, no
If you could just see what I see you'd
know the world is not that grey,
it's not that blue
You'd see that the world is beautiful

Just smile and swallow
Nod your head and look away
Raise your chin and walk away.
That's the best way

Well you know, I know
Well, we both know
That this is going to be hard.

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So when you go
Don't you swallow
All the words that I've spoken
Because it's all ok
We're both protected.

Well I hate it that
There's going to be
Some kind of deadline
between you and me.
Well, you know
That's the best way.

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I see, the words are kind of hard
You don't know where they are
Well, here's a start.

I see, the words are kind of harsh
You don't know where to start
Well, here you are.

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Why did you hold on
Why did you hold off
Why did you do it?
You're in love with yesterday.
Why did you hold on
Why did you hold off
Why did you do it
Harsh words just aren't the way

I see, you fell down in your dream
You just wanted to scream.
Well, don't be mean.

He said, the clock is way past ten
No ordinary men
Can live like you do.

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I see, the words are kind of harsh
You're just pretending who you are.
Well, here you are.

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So, what have they done to you
You were a child
You used to see it through
What have they done to you.

You used to smile
But you couldn't find the crowd
It took a while
But you couldn't see it through
What have they done with you.

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So you look at your life
You look at the world
The you look to the oceans
You're looking for that world
A world above the rest
Something to set you free
Then you realize
You need to get out.

So you're swimming around
Well, you're swimming deeper still
They've got you wearing a crown
A crown of steel that's just weighing you down
You need to get away

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Well your father was mad
But he still is your dad
Well you know he was wrong
But you can't carry on
You need to break that cycle now
And rise above the rest
The you can be free

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I don't know the way that I will go
I don't care whether fast or slow
Just take me there
Now, anyway you can.

I don't know who I really am
I don't know how to be a man
I don't know anything at all

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Don't ask me tonight

Sometimes I'll take the hand that's out
And I will never figure out
What took me there
Even when I look up high
I must always use my head
Of all the little things I've ever sadi
I don't know anything.

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Somehow you came along
You lifted up my head
and then you wre gone
You're not yourself
Where have you been
I'm all alone
Your story is wearing thin tonight.

Curled up on the couch alone
Just sitting, waiting there pathetically
Hoping that you'll walk through that door
I don't see you anymore
You don't see me anymore
We don't see anyone at all

Don't ask me tonight.

You stroll along
Retrace your footsteps
You see a child
He's left alone

Alone to stay
Alone with no one there to play
You recall your childhood
Still lonesome today

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All he wanted was a friend
Someone he could talk to
Relate to

You attempt to reach
but then you look away
Nothing's accomplished
Two shadows fade

What to grow as?
What will you grow up to become?
Where are these answers?
Oh they'll come along

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You wonder why you're still alone
You cry all night on your roof top
What are you hiding?
Is it something I must know?

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I'm sitting here
And I'm waiting patiently
For the clock to turn
It's not all that fast today

So I'm on my own
But I know I'm not alone
I'll be witnessing
A happy ending

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I'm sitting here in silence
I'm waiting here patiently
And I'm wondering
if you're waiting too
I'm sitting here alone now
And I'm waiting here on my own
I'm wondering
If you're waiting for me too

I'm watching now
And I'm seeing
others as they pass me by
It's not a pretty sight
But it will be someday

And it's not that I
It's not that I'm afraid of losing you
I'm afraid of me
And what my choices might do

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All the time I seem to wonder
How all this is gonna end
Will you stay with me forever and
Tell me that you'll never go away

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May the words you speak
mean nothing to me
Mean nothing at all
so I won't feel the pain
And you do not understand,
it's here in my heart
it's here that I cry.
Don't you go away
You can't deny it

And you speak in such a way
that it doesn't faze you
Well, it fazes me
Are you scared of me?

(musical interlude)

Speak only to me and
don't hear my words
Don't see me anymore
Just try, see through my past
If only you'd let me.
Just give me a chance
Let me endure to the end
You can't deny it