Anekdoten

sleep
golden city
behind bolts, bars and stone
dream
mighty city
of the wind and the sea
stars shoot a line across the sky

no way in
from the outside
no way out
from within
stars call me down from the sky

weep
sleepless city
in your room
deep within
and the stars shoot me down from the sky

blind morning
I rise with the tide
caught a glimpse of life passing by
sleepwalking
i'm falling in line
and successfully returning blind

keep moving
keep killing time
to keep the burning gone from my mind
shallow waters
hollow at heart
gone through the motions
gone back to start

break the circle
reset my head
wake the sleepwalker
and i'll wake the dead

how long the wait?
clouds are hanging over me
obscurity prevails
wearing the face
of doubts, hopes and promises
I wish that you would stay

don't blunt the edge
I breathe through my senses
the flesh and the divine
delicate moves
surrender into strangeness
and I can't make out the signs

fall through the air
groundbound and giving away

your secret is safe
unless it would break in two
heaven's still unbound
cling to my wings,
the dreams and the things we knew
now would you want it to?

fall through the air
groundbound and gliding
giving away

i wonder why i let time slip by unconcerned
holding my breath while life's calling out my name
i'm going down - feeling no trace of shame
playing no part - i'm not the one to blame

unfullfilled dreams stay intact here inside
shut out the world and let time fill the cracks all the while
i'm going down - feeling no trace of shame
playing no part - i'm not the one to blame

I feed on fire
so that I can keep the dark at bay
I have known you
I long to speak your name

sink the stone
and heal the wounds to make me whole again
moving closer
we dance into the flame

surreal, still and shining
come and wash me away

sparks flying through the room
my head's on fire
and there is nothing I can do
i'm in the whirlwind
far beyond reach
I wish that you would be here too

fading fire
the wakened eye
soon turning blue again

for all gone before
all left undone
put down your walking-stick and run
i'm on a blind-ride
all screens are blank
looking forward running back

and all is one
to each his own
all is one

but I am alone
as I run
through the fire

For Someone

wayworn souls - we've been drifting through space for so long
moving on - but never quite sure of where we should go

all as one - at the glass gazing out in the blue

we who've been waiting too long
for someone
for someone

stars all around
but we never found a fire burning as strong
no we never found a fire burning as strong
no we never found a fire

a storm
will arise
building up
from the hearts of the moons of mars

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

dawn
drawing near
comes a time
‘cause the system is breaking down

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

hear me breathe
from the other room
so which of all the lies you told
should I keep as my own?
the metaphors are lost on me
what I see is what I see
the earth is moving - time to say goodbye?

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it coming,
saw it go wailing down the line

will I see you again?
a window closed, an opened door
some seven steps away
my actions caught up finally
beyond the watchword wait and see
beyond the undecisive ways of mine

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it come and saw it go
somewhere down the line
down the line

the dream machine's on speed
my head's up in the clouds
we met up on the ledge
and I could read your mind
and though things fall asleep
nothing ever dies
I caught it on the bounce
and now we float
- hands outstretched -
along the river

a light shines above
a trace of the sky
reflecting in my lover's eye

the sun going down
on a war, lost or won
all is silent in this newborn world of peace
we're the only ones awake to see

it's not a case of right and wrong
it's all about to be
you and me
so come and bless my soul
it's all about to be

a blue whippoorwill sings
on the other side of the rain
we're through with the games
we survived the hate and the pain
the storm's gone away
so come my kingdom come - come today

I make images of you
ideal more than true
I glue photos on my wall
ladder bound to fall

and now seeing you again
will it ever end?
here i've no way to deny
what should but did not die

dark of day and light of night
o u t s I d e I n s I d e o u t
perfume circling around my brain
draws me in again

hopeless, helpless soul unchained
I succumb again
come to me and make me blind
dark-eyed dream of mine

The lights have all turned red
On Holloway Road
A pale vision of inertia
In cold halogen glow

The last Clapham bound train
Is waiting to leave
But the engine-driver's fallen
Asleep at the wheel

When I picked up the phone
My hopes were put on hold
The outgoing wires were humming
My heart was growing cold

No rattling of keys
No break before the dawn
I still wait for my relief
What's taking him so long?

soon an angel's leaving
they're ruled by laws of gravity
soon this door is closing
and you'll never know unless you go
no, you'll never know if you won't go

wishing well of wonders
glitter box of dreams
inside lie bitter pills
you know I never wanted
to sing for your lover
but the angels sang of love
and outside the night was falling

fly - fiery angels kiss the sky
won't you shine your light down on me
fly - through the blazing cosmic eye
no, you'll never know if you won't go

eleven ways to lose your mind
seven ways to shine
four doors that may take you in
one that's closed behind
I should have seen you leaving
but I never thought you'd go
no, I never thought you'd walk away

it's getting dark, too dark to see
and angel's a long time gone
too many things I can't combine
with logic reason
how can I tell the black from white
if all is black and blue?
god knows where i'm going
when the keeper waves me through...

I wonder how
we should fill the open space
after lunch time tea
in the rosary
and the evening picnic by the sea

tell me your name
I am game if you want to play
tell riddles in the hall
play hide and seek or ball
or if you'd like to sneak out through the wall

awaken - I am reborn - seeing - calling - roll away the stone - rising

pacing through the ashes, holding fast the rope
finally believing in love and life and hope

beauty - sky, earth and moon - always moving - beating in tune - turning around...

reaching - drawn to the light - wanting - shooting into the night - glowing

getting ever deeper, closer to the core
the purpose and the meaning, the essence of it all!

Purposeless man of clay
Darkness: roll away
A silent stream leads the flow,
moving on and on

Random lines fall in place,
adulterines slowly fade away
I'm sucked in deep by the flow,
taken in by the undertow

awaken - I am reborn - seeing - calling - roll away the stone - rising

pacing through the ashes, holding fast the rope
finally believing in love and life and hope

beauty - sky, earth and moon - always moving - beating in tune - turning around...

reaching - drawn to the light - wanting - shooting into the night - glowing

getting ever deeper, closer to the core
the purpose and the meaning, the essence of it all!

i've drunk my fill, sunk my will,
bored myself with talk
end the dreaming,
time for seeing life as real as now

synchronized in sharp focus, tuned with space and time
led by instinct and emotion, ruled by heart and mind

taking it all in
for each breath I give i'm closing in

the path that leads you back is there all the time
no doors have been shut to keep you outside
benevolent skies will lead the way
on from yesterday

losing our sight of the goal,
we run around in our mazes alone
we run...
the treadmill is spinning around...

taking it all in
for each breath I give i'm closing in

I know I fail to see you as I should
I scrabble on blind, but want to do good
fearing the fears that hold the door
love is the key to all

watching the world through the eyes of a child
leaving the past behind me
curiously peeping behind each door
already longing for tomorrow
there's no need to fear as long as you're here

it's not always easy, not always plain
you cannot evade your sorrow
those are the terms in this old game
give and forgive for tomorrow
there's no need to fear - I will be here

all of the reasons were lost in the wave
I scrabble around for reassurance
dragging my grapnel athwart the sea
scanning my book of hours

here - alone with my fear
if only I could leave this night behind and love life again
if only I could turn the tide and turn back the time

imagining - losing what's real
How I would have needed you to be here by my side
we tore out all emotion
and i'm left with the pain

come, step through my head again and show me where I stand
I need the aim to guide me
leave the time that made the agony burn
lift me up again

the road I thought i'd burned suddenly appearing out of the blue

here and now -
that's where I want to be
released from fears that hold me down,
torpid and drowned and languid...

so come, step through my head again
show me where I stand
I need the aim to blind me
leave the time that made the agony burn
lift me up again, my friend

the works of wonder pass me unseen
so close in distance, yet so much lies between
seeing with blurry, myopic eyes
stuck in a limbo - so far from the sky

one-way devotion and a one track mind:
I am still yearning, though it clearly won't be mine
too much confusion: all "how?" and "why?"
I need you near me to guide me from this storm i'm passing through

a moonlit path runs deep in the dark
guided by stars I follow with my heart
rely on comfort, rely on time
hope for direction and mercy
from that far, erratic sky

amazed I looked up at the stars
and I wondered how many there are
and the other side seemed so irrelevant to me
just like a dream or somewhere between

and the rollers crashed hard on the shore
and the wind blew the songs to my door
the east held the promise of morning
and soon new worlds were born
calling me on - i'm going home

new worlds were born
calling me on...

i've drunk my fill, sunk my will,
bored myself with talk
end the dreaming,
time for seeing life as real as now

synchronized in sharp focus, tuned with space and time
led by instinct and emotion, ruled by heart and mind

taking it all in
for each breath I give i'm closing in

the path that leads you back is there all the time
no doors have been shut to keep you outside
benevolent skies will lead the way
on from yesterday

losing our sight of the goal,
we run around in our mazes alone
we run...
the treadmill is spinning around...

taking it all in
for each breath I give i'm closing in

I know I fail to see you as I should
I scrabble on blind, but want to do good
fearing the fears that hold the door
love is the key to all

I feed on fire
so that I can keep the dark at bay
I have known you
I long to speak your name

sink the stone
and heal the wounds to make me whole again
moving closer
we dance into the flame

surreal, still and shining
come and wash me away

face my fears, my soul is absorbed into black
dry my tears, fear and pain is what I lack
broken, torn I live with my light-eye drowned
ease and calm you give,
but life begins and ends with pain
my time has come now, this bird has flown
a glimpse of hope, but still an everlasting moment

walk with me, for I shall go no futher now
dance for me, my soul shall end its futile ride
dressed in gold I rise with my face to the sun
open the shallow skies
but life begins and ends with pain
my time has come now, this bird has flown
a glimpse of hope
but I walk this earth no more

watching the world through the eyes of a child
leaving the past behind me
curiously peeping behind each door
already longing for tomorrow
there's no need to fear as long as you're here

it's not always easy, not always plain
you cannot evade your sorrow
those are the terms in this old game
give and forgive for tomorrow
there's no need to fear - I will be here

all of the reasons were lost in the wave
I scrabble around for reassurance
dragging my grapnel athwart the sea
scanning my book of hours

Purposeless man of clay
Darkness: roll away
A silent stream leads the flow,
moving on and on

Random lines fall in place,
adulterines slowly fade away
I'm sucked in deep by the flow,
taken in by the undertow

how long the wait?
clouds are hanging over me
obscurity prevails
wearing the face
of doubts, hopes and promises
I wish that you would stay

don't blunt the edge
I breathe through my senses
the flesh and the divine
delicate moves
surrender into strangeness
and I can't make out the signs

fall through the air
groundbound and giving away

your secret is safe
unless it would break in two
heaven's still unbound
cling to my wings,
the dreams and the things we knew
now would you want it to?

fall through the air
groundbound and gliding
giving away

I watch the clouds through my window, sail across the sky
and underneath the canopy, gulls, they wheel and glide
the shoreline stretches endlessly along these windswept plains
I wander through this barren land where solitude remains

i've made myself a universe in this far-off home
unseen from the outside world, here I live and roam
and though i've tried assiduously to heal the wounds with time
you'll haunt me in my memories until I die

if I should meet you after all these years,
how could I find the words?
i'd greet you with silence and with tears for all the time we've lost

the days get shorter as weeks pass, summer turns to fall
the birds will cease to sing and chant and follow with the call
it's getting clearer and the truth unsparingly reveals
i've drifted imperceptibly out to sea

if I should meet you after all these years,
how could I find the words?
i'd greet you with passion and with tears for all the time we've lost
time lost

my mind's falling down endless tunnels
until I find myself in the void
somewhere down there I could hear them calling me
through walls of silence I heard them weep

the wheel was just about to roll me over
and for a moment I lost control
stars were falling and worlds colliding
I always knew that they would track me down

tried so hard to break through to the surface,
but entered into yet another dream
I held tighter on to the lifeline
and sensing light I broke free!

awaken - I am reborn - seeing - calling - roll away the stone - rising

pacing through the ashes, holding fast the rope
finally believing in love and life and hope

beauty - sky, earth and moon - always moving - beating in tune - turning around...

reaching - drawn to the light - wanting - shooting into the night - glowing

getting ever deeper, closer to the core
the purpose and the meaning, the essence of it all!

I watch the clouds through my window, sail across the sky
and underneath the canopy, gulls, they wheel and glide
the shoreline stretches endlessly along these windswept plains
I wander through this barren land where solitude remains

i've made myself a universe in this far-off home
unseen from the outside world, here I live and roam
and though i've tried assiduously to heal the wounds with time
you'll haunt me in my memories until I die

if I should meet you after all these years,
how could I find the words?
i'd greet you with silence and with tears for all the time we've lost

the days get shorter as weeks pass, summer turns to fall
the birds will cease to sing and chant and follow with the call
it's getting clearer and the truth unsparingly reveals
i've drifted imperceptibly out to sea

if I should meet you after all these years,
how could I find the words?
i'd greet you with passion and with tears for all the time we've lost
time lost

Purposeless man of clay
Darkness: roll away
A silent stream leads the flow,
moving on and on

Random lines fall in place,
adulterines slowly fade away
I'm sucked in deep by the flow,
taken in by the undertow

my mind's falling down endless tunnels
until I find myself in the void
somewhere down there I could hear them calling me
through walls of silence I heard them weep

the wheel was just about to roll me over
and for a moment I lost control
stars were falling and worlds colliding
I always knew that they would track me down

tried so hard to break through to the surface,
but entered into yet another dream
I held tighter on to the lifeline
and sensing light I broke free!

the neon dawn has just begun,
the day is here that wasn't meant to come
she's walking by the frozen sea
trying to count the stars that she can't see

a distant sound of black rain in the water
the pale moon shining soft through a cloud
the sun is turning black in the horizon
the wind is slowly tearing her apart

and so our time has come, my friend
the child who cries and no-one seems to care
the echoes of the birds are gone
the sky is painted grey, but it's so warm

searching for a light in the darkness,
trying to keep your eyes from the dirt
taste the bitter wine of tomorrow
i'm walking on a path that never ends

a storm
will arise
building up
from the hearts of the moons of mars

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

dawn
drawing near
comes a time
‘cause the system is breaking down

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

sleep
golden city
behind bolts, bars and stone
dream
mighty city
of the wind and the sea
stars shoot a line across the sky

no way in
from the outside
no way out
from within
stars call me down from the sky

weep
sleepless city
in your room
deep within
and the stars shoot me down from the sky

blind morning
I rise with the tide
caught a glimpse of life passing by
sleepwalking
i'm falling in line
and successfully returning blind

keep moving
keep killing time
to keep the burning gone from my mind
shallow waters
hollow at heart
gone through the motions
gone back to start

break the circle
reset my head
wake the sleepwalker
and i'll wake the dead

i wonder why i let time slip by unconcerned
holding my breath while life's calling out my name
i'm going down - feeling no trace of shame
playing no part - i'm not the one to blame

unfullfilled dreams stay intact here inside
shut out the world and let time fill the cracks all the while
i'm going down - feeling no trace of shame
playing no part - i'm not the one to blame

The lights have all turned red
On Holloway Road
A pale vision of inertia
In cold halogen glow

The last Clapham bound train
Is waiting to leave
But the engine-driver's fallen
Asleep at the wheel

When I picked up the phone
My hopes were put on hold
The outgoing wires were humming
My heart was growing cold

No rattling of keys
No break before the dawn
I still wait for my relief
What's taking him so long?

hear me breathe
from the other room
so which of all the lies you told
should I keep as my own?
the metaphors are lost on me
what I see is what I see
the earth is moving - time to say goodbye?

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it coming,
saw it go wailing down the line

will I see you again?
a window closed, an opened door
some seven steps away
my actions caught up finally
beyond the watchword wait and see
beyond the undecisive ways of mine

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it come and saw it go
somewhere down the line
down the line

the dream machine's on speed
my head's up in the clouds
we met up on the ledge
and I could read your mind
and though things fall asleep
nothing ever dies
I caught it on the bounce
and now we float
- hands outstretched -
along the river

soon an angel's leaving
they're ruled by laws of gravity
soon this door is closing
and you'll never know unless you go
no, you'll never know if you won't go

wishing well of wonders
glitter box of dreams
inside lie bitter pills
you know I never wanted
to sing for your lover
but the angels sang of love
and outside the night was falling

fly - fiery angels kiss the sky
won't you shine your light down on me
fly - through the blazing cosmic eye
no, you'll never know if you won't go

eleven ways to lose your mind
seven ways to shine
four doors that may take you in
one that's closed behind
I should have seen you leaving
but I never thought you'd go
no, I never thought you'd walk away

it's getting dark, too dark to see
and angel's a long time gone
too many things I can't combine
with logic reason
how can I tell the black from white
if all is black and blue?
god knows where i'm going
when the keeper waves me through...

the neon dawn has just begun,
the day is here that wasn't meant to come
she's walking by the frozen sea
trying to count the stars that she can't see

a distant sound of black rain in the water
the pale moon shining soft through a cloud
the sun is turning black in the horizon
the wind is slowly tearing her apart

and so our time has come, my friend
the child who cries and no-one seems to care
the echoes of the birds are gone
the sky is painted grey, but it's so warm

searching for a light in the darkness,
trying to keep your eyes from the dirt
taste the bitter wine of tomorrow
i'm walking on a path that never ends

hear me breathe
from the other room
so which of all the lies you told
should I keep as my own?
the metaphors are lost on me
what I see is what I see
the earth is moving - time to say goodbye?

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it coming,
saw it go wailing down the line

will I see you again?
a window closed, an opened door
some seven steps away
my actions caught up finally
beyond the watchword wait and see
beyond the undecisive ways of mine

only sky ahead
love's so hard to find
I saw it come and saw it go
somewhere down the line
down the line

the dream machine's on speed
my head's up in the clouds
we met up on the ledge
and I could read your mind
and though things fall asleep
nothing ever dies
I caught it on the bounce
and now we float
- hands outstretched -
along the river

How long 'til I'm set free
Until I find a tie that binds?
How long until I see
The words that rhyme?
But when the blinding lights have all gone down
You are in for a ride

How long until we meet
Until our lines will intertwine?
How far until we hit
The other side?
But when we've passed the point of no return
You are in for a ride

Fate came by and leaned in close to me
I skipped a heartbeat
What if this is what I've waited for?
Then what will come of me?
Maybe the timing is more wrong than right?
Signs of panic
But I've bought that ticket and I'll take that ride
There's no way back to sleep
When you've woken up the beast

Suddenly the dice were cast
The bones were dancing madly on the table
Don't think about tomorrow
Don't dwell on the mistakes that you have made
This is the time, this is the place
And when the blinding lights have all gone down
You are in for a ride

a storm
will arise
building up
from the hearts of the moons of mars

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

dawn
drawing near
comes a time
‘cause the system is breaking down

be prepared
for the day
when we walk from the darkness
out into light

how long the wait?
clouds are hanging over me
obscurity prevails
wearing the face
of doubts, hopes and promises
I wish that you would stay

don't blunt the edge
I breathe through my senses
the flesh and the divine
delicate moves
surrender into strangeness
and I can't make out the signs

fall through the air
groundbound and giving away

your secret is safe
unless it would break in two
heaven's still unbound
cling to my wings,
the dreams and the things we knew
now would you want it to?

fall through the air
groundbound and gliding
giving away

soon an angel's leaving
they're ruled by laws of gravity
soon this door is closing
and you'll never know unless you go
no, you'll never know if you won't go

wishing well of wonders
glitter box of dreams
inside lie bitter pills
you know I never wanted
to sing for your lover
but the angels sang of love
and outside the night was falling

fly - fiery angels kiss the sky
won't you shine your light down on me
fly - through the blazing cosmic eye
no, you'll never know if you won't go

eleven ways to lose your mind
seven ways to shine
four doors that may take you in
one that's closed behind
I should have seen you leaving
but I never thought you'd go
no, I never thought you'd walk away

it's getting dark, too dark to see
and angel's a long time gone
too many things I can't combine
with logic reason
how can I tell the black from white
if all is black and blue?
god knows where i'm going
when the keeper waves me through...

the neon dawn has just begun,
the day is here that wasn't meant to come
she's walking by the frozen sea
trying to count the stars that she can't see

a distant sound of black rain in the water
the pale moon shining soft through a cloud
the sun is turning black in the horizon
the wind is slowly tearing her apart

and so our time has come, my friend
the child who cries and no-one seems to care
the echoes of the birds are gone
the sky is painted grey, but it's so warm

searching for a light in the darkness,
trying to keep your eyes from the dirt
taste the bitter wine of tomorrow
i'm walking on a path that never ends

my mind's falling down endless tunnels
until I find myself in the void
somewhere down there I could hear them calling me
through walls of silence I heard them weep

the wheel was just about to roll me over
and for a moment I lost control
stars were falling and worlds colliding
I always knew that they would track me down

tried so hard to break through to the surface,
but entered into yet another dream
I held tighter on to the lifeline
and sensing light I broke free!

awaken - I am reborn - seeing - calling - roll away the stone - rising

pacing through the ashes, holding fast the rope
finally believing in love and life and hope

beauty - sky, earth and moon - always moving - beating in tune - turning around...

reaching - drawn to the light - wanting - shooting into the night - glowing

getting ever deeper, closer to the core
the purpose and the meaning, the essence of it all!

watching the world through the eyes of a child
leaving the past behind me
curiously peeping behind each door
already longing for tomorrow
there's no need to fear as long as you're here

it's not always easy, not always plain
you cannot evade your sorrow
those are the terms in this old game
give and forgive for tomorrow
there's no need to fear - I will be here

all of the reasons were lost in the wave
I scrabble around for reassurance
dragging my grapnel athwart the sea
scanning my book of hours

the works of wonder pass me unseen
so close in distance, yet so much lies between
seeing with blurry, myopic eyes
stuck in a limbo - so far from the sky

one-way devotion and a one track mind:
I am still yearning, though it clearly won't be mine
too much confusion: all "how?" and "why?"
I need you near me to guide me from this storm i'm passing through

a moonlit path runs deep in the dark
guided by stars I follow with my heart
rely on comfort, rely on time
hope for direction and mercy
from that far, erratic sky

Did you see me?
Did you bother when my head was under water?
When the road was hard and winding
Where were you? Where were you hiding?
You were nowhere to be found
When I searched the heavens and the ground
Or was I too blind to see
That was what you kept on telling me

So the truth shall set me free?
Well, I'm cold and I am hungry
Tell me why I should believe
I see death and I see you and me

Darkness falling down on me
The betrayal burned a mark so deep
Thirty pieces at my feet
No lord above my soul to keep

The silver coins lay on the ground - they blind my eyes
What would it take to make all my dreams come to life?
Only a word
Give me just a sign
Just a tiny lie

Stood by the gate at the foot of the garden
Am I too late? Are you gone now forever?
So many things I never did tell you
So many things, but still not much getting done

Examining memories, dissecting dreams
Looking for visions and great, long lost schemes
Half-baked ideas were all that I found
No guide to my future, no key to what I've become

I am an island, a ship on a sea
I drift with the winds
Where the currents will lead
I am an island, a star in the night
I scan the horizons for beacons of light
Long are the hours
Still is the sea

When you had gone through the lost and the found
What were the things that stuck in your mind?
When you were tossing and turning in bed
What were the thoughts that went through your head
I know that you're longing for some greater plan
A welcoming harbour, a safe place to land
Abandon the anchor, go set the sail
Lashed to the mast, follow the nail!

my mind's falling down endless tunnels
until I find myself in the void
somewhere down there I could hear them calling me
through walls of silence I heard them weep

the wheel was just about to roll me over
and for a moment I lost control
stars were falling and worlds colliding
I always knew that they would track me down

tried so hard to break through to the surface,
but entered into yet another dream
I held tighter on to the lifeline
and sensing light I broke free!