Matt Henderson [Madball, S.O.S]

Look my way, don't hide your face in shame
To me your all the same

I don't need your respect

Our pride and shame, we've held strong through the years
We've come this far, and I see very clear
You faked a smile to show me how much you care
You hypocrites get no respect over here

I know your game B
I keep going strong
You can't fake me
I keep movin on

I see right through your games and all your phony ways, in my world you have no say
Go your way, cause i know they'll be a day, when you'll be forced to look my way

Our pride and shame, we've always kept it real
No need to front, or hide the way I feel
You live a lie, afraid to look me in the eye
You have alot to say, so speak your mind

I know your game B
I keep going strong
You can't fake me
I keep movin on



I'm not to blame
When all your shit blows up in your face
I'm not to blame
Cause someone's bound to put you in your place
I'm not to blame
For all the times that you were afraid
To just look my way

You hide your face in shame, cause you have no integrity, and to me your all the same

I don't need your respect

Our pride and shame, we've held strong through the years
We've Come this far, and I see very clear
You faked a smile to show me how much you care
You hypocrites get no respect over here

I know your game B
I keep going strong
You can't fake me
I keep movin on

I'm walkin' down the street
I will not show you fear
No time for sympathy
I give my cold stare
I don't care what you think of me
It's not revenge I seek, it's just you and me
I'm walking down the street
And tension fills the air
I will not think defeat
Moment of truth is here
I don't care what you think of me
It's not revenge I seek, it's you and me

Right Now You and Me
Right Now You and Me

All that talking you've done is weak
You got to be about what you speak
All the schism and hype will seize
Once we take this beef to the muthafuckin' streets

I can't help you, you gotta fight
For yourself
You did this to yourself and
I reject you, what do you want from me now
After you've let us down
And I don't wanna know the reason why
No excuses for all your funkin' lies
I don't want to hear your alibis
I gotta turn turn my back and walk away
I can't forgive when it's my life at stake
You've played yourself out, now it's too late

The time has come to set you free
My back is turned so you can see
It don't matter to me

The time has come to set you free
My back is turned so you can see
It don't matter to me
Because our friendship is now deceased
When justice serves you'll think of me
It don't matter to me

You played yourself and I've been forced to draw
The line
With me you will not find (any pity) It don't matter
You forced my hand, you lied, you've been cut off
And I can't help you out this cause it don't
Matter to me

I've won and I've lost
The struggle tears me apart
The final judgement means much to me
I try to follow me heart
I know that I try
But are my effort's too weak

It's just a matter of right or wrong
It's what I do and not what I speak
I can't believe that there is no hope

Or else I am sure to give in
I have to keep my faith alive and
Tell myself not to give in

I know that I try
But are efforts too late?
Will I be able to right my wrongs?
Will I be able to conquer my hate?

Temptation or restraint
The choice is left up to me
In the end I hope I prove my faith
In he who judges me

Wasted my time, you wasted your time on me
Let's face the facts that we must break clean
Fucked with my mind, I was too blind to see
So I waited patiently

I will not stand by and try
I will not stand by your side
You drained the life out of me
Livin' in such misery

Life is not kind, people are filled with greed
You are no exception, you were no friend to me
Fucked with my mind
Took self esteem and I waited anxiously

What did you mean, you said you cared for me
I was so naive, I let walk all over me

I've gained courage, now I am
So better off without you in my life
You sold me out and though it all you fuckin'
Wasted my time.

I've realized though all your lies you did not
Think too much of me
You helped yourself and did not think to offer
Me your company
The hurt inside will heal in time and that's the
Price I have to pay
And that's just fine, I've done my time and now
I'm glad to walk away cause after all, you fuckin'
Wasted my time

I'm tryin' to keep calm and you're pushin' me
I'm tryin' to keep my calm and see you're still
Pushin' me
I don't know why you keep pushin' me
I'm tryin' to keep my calm and see you're still
Pushin' me!

You've pushed your luck with me and I don't
Appreciate the fact that you're tryin' to
Intimate me
I've tried to keep my cool
But you've taken it from me

You've played yourself out
So just go on your way
You choose your fate now
If you decide to stay
It's not pity that saves you
Cause you're given a chance
I've helped myself out
By Taking this stance

So don't look back now
There's nothing to say
You should be grateful to walk away

Los tiempos son duros, son deficil
No entiendo por que hubo tanto sacrificio
Tal vez es que no fuimos tan afortunados
Esos tiempos han pasado por que a cada cual nos amamos

Trabajando para vivir en tiempos malos
No aceptamos perder asi
Me dieron lo que no pudieron tener
Y no dejo que pase un dia sin darle gracias a el
Con dios estoy bien

Los tiempos duros se mejoran estamos muy bien
Pero el dinero nunca sobra
Sabes para mi ese dinero no me importa
Yo tengo mi familia lo mas importante en me vida

Esto es para mi madre ella me ense챰o a querer
Y para mis ermanos que me ayudaron mantener
Esto es para mi padre
Me dio la fuerza para defender
Para toda mi gente y dios por el poder

I thank God and all Family did their best
And now it's up to me

translation:

The times are hard, are deficil I do not understand Perhaps so that there was as much sacrifice is that we were not so lucky Those times have happened so that everyone we loved ourselves Working to live in bad times we did not accept to lose asi gave Me what they could not have and I do not leave spends a day without thanking to him to With God I am well The hard times improve we are very well But the money never surplus You know for my that money does not concern I to me I have my family but important in me the life This is for my mother she I am taught to want and for my ermanos that helped to maintain me This is for my father gave the force to defend Me For all my people and God by the power I thank God and all Family did to their best And now it's up to me

I'm lookin' forward to better times when I won't
Have to struggle to get by
Searchin' for some peace of mind, hard times got
Me crossin' the line
And every difficult day I learn I'm not alone in the
Struggle to get by

Everybody's got their own fight
It's just a fact of life

And I know things don't come easy
But I know that I'll get by
But I know that things don't come easy
But I'll survive

So I'm takin' it as comes
I know I've got to stay on my feet
I've got to roll with the punches because I see that
It's up to me
And every day that that I fight temptation I know God is
On my side
These are the lesson of life
And I will get by

And I know things don't come easy
But I know that I'll get by
I know things don't come easy
But I'll survive

And when I think back
It gives me strength inside
And I won't hold back
I take it all in stride
I will get by

Wanna run for cover but there's no where to escape
Runnin' from your problems ain't makin' them go away
Gotta be strong even when you're feeling afraid
It's all in your mind the fears you have to face

I remember the times when I felt all alone and afraid
Regretting the times that I chose to turn and walk away

I've had all I can take
My self respect is now at stake

Forget about the past there's nothing I can change
Try to look ahead tomorrow's another day
Time to make a stand for the sake of my own shame
And now I'm gonna fight because I don't see any other way
Remember the times when I felt all alone and afraid
Regretting the times that I chose to turn and walk away

I've had all I can take
My self respect is now at stake

I've had all I can take
Now I'm gonna show force
I've learned life the hard way
Time to even the score
Win or lose there's no fear left in me
Got no choice but to fight
I'm through trying to decide who's wrong and what's right

Knew it all, I thought I knew it all
I knew nothing till it came to an end
The time has come to make move in my life
I've seen it happen all again and again
Looking back on all the things that I did
I have regrets, but that's what it is
So that was then and this is now
I've seen it happen all again and again

I've been there and done that ? Look back
Looking at life and where I'm at
Where do I go from here ? Think clear
Is the question that we all fear

Knew it all, I thought I knew it all
I was blind until I opened my eyes
Fuckin' up is how you learn in this life
Take that for granted and you'll never survive

Looking back on those things that I did
I have regrets, but it is what it is
That was then and this is now
I've seen it happen all again and again

I've been there and done that ? Look back
Looking at life and where I'm at
Where do I go from here - Think clear
Is the question that we all fear
Think clear and look back
Remember then and where you're at
What don't kill you will make you strong
There comes a time when you must move on

I've seen a lot in my young age
A lot has changed, memories remain the same
There's different ways this game is played
Our violent ways have to end some day

Hang out with me then you stab me in the
Back- are you friend or foe
See me on the streets you walk right by
Me- are you friend or foe
Tell me on the phone that I'm a fucking
Clone- are you friend or foe
Why don't mind your own life and leave me
Alone- are you friend or foe
Friend, foe
Are you my friend or foe

Demonstrating my style
Lettin' it be known

Follow the path of no one else
It's all about being true to myself
I'll speak my mind, I won't keep it inside

The years pass and people change
But I'm stayin' true to my ways
Hardcore is my life, I'll carry the name

Demonstrating my style
Lettin' it be known
Demonstrating my style
We're not alone
Give respect where respect is due
To those who know what we've been through
We can all relate in our own way

To those who put us down, we won't see you around
Cause you're too scared of me
To those who've helped us out, you know what we're about
You'll get respect from me

Demonstrating my style

Now - is the time for unity
Why - because it means a lot to me
We - can be strong once again
I've seen it before and I know we can
They - always tried to hold us down
We - are the ones who are still around
Why - because we fought for unity
That is something they don't wanna see
They'll always try but they can't hold me
There are many who have come and gone
I've seen the weak, I've seen the strong
But to those who are true, you know who you are
This is all about you and me, and our fight against society
Our time has come; we have to break free
Don't think that we believe your lies
We see the fear in your eyes
You can't change us so don't even try
It's time for us to make this last
We've learned our lessons from the past
I've seen it before and I know we can

Live or die, are the choises I got
But I refuse to go anywhere soon
Life is too short to keep explaining myself
My situation means nothing to you
Back to reality once again
I clear my thoughts and think about how much time I spent
Keep movin' on and try to do what I do best
I was always taught right from wrong
But who are you to be judging who's right
Doin' what I gotta do to get by
Will I survive; just look in my eyes
I gotta live my life day by day
No matter what type of bullshit is thrown my way
I'll overcome it with or without your help
Don't tell me, you can't tell me
How I choose to live my life
The way I choose to live my life
I was always taught right from wrong
But who are you to pint the finger at me
I have no need to explain myself
Cause your opinions I don't need

Times are changing for the worse
Gotta keep a positive outlook
Growing up in such violent times
Have some faith and you'll get by

Thinking back when I was a kid
Times have changed so much since then
All grown up I gotta do for myself
I refuse to depend on anyone else

Life's hard, you struggle some times


In the end I'll get what's mine
But for now I'll deal with the times
Have some faith and you'll get by

Times are changing for the worse
Times are changing - I keep

I know my family is there for me
And without them where the hell would I be
But still I gotta try to be my own man
Make good of what I got - do the best that I can

Walking through these streets of hate
And I can feel their pain
I see how this fuckin' place
Can sometimes drive you insane

But I choose to keep my sanity
Won't let anything bring me down
I gotta be strong mentally
Be quick to the schemes that are all around

When I walk these streets
I know that it's in vein
I've been told I should get out
Before I wind up a victim in pain



But I choose to keep my sanity
Won't let the bgad times bring me down
I gotta think of all the good things
And all the good friends I have around me

Streets of hate
Walking through these endless streets
And I can feel their rage
I see how this fuckin' place can sometimes drive you insane

In a society where no one is free
Because you're judged by what they see
Affraid of what they don't understand
Putting you down whenever they can

Thought that it was better these days
But there are some people who will never change
Still a minority in their eyes
And when confronted, they will always deny it

Be proud of who you are
Fight for what you stand for
Together as a crew
There's something you can do

Be on-point when you take action
Never give them the satisfaction
Of watching you suffer for their lies
Still a minority in their eyes

All fucked up, now you turn to me
All this time I tried to help you see
Where you're headed is to an early grave
I don't want to see you go out that way

Help you, is what I try to do
But you refuse - what can I do
That shit you do is only killing you
It's blinding you - can't see the truth

Can't you see what you're doing to yourself
You're at fault, can't blame nobody else
Where you're headed is to an early grave
I don't want you to go that way

You're losing all your pride


And now it's time to gain it back
Get your self-respect
I can only help you out
If you want to be helped
Gotta help yourself

Life's not waiting on you
Gotta put yourself in-check
Get your self-respect
I can only help you out
If you want to be helped
Gotta help yourself

Livin' in a world
People try to be what they're not - but can't see the fantasy
Who's living a dream
It seems it's you
We know whose real
Your life is just a game
You don't deserve your fame
Living in a world
Where the fake get apid and the true get pushed around
True to the game I'll stay while for you it's the fame
I despise you and your selfish ways
You know I'm real and I know you're fake

He was young at heart, been through it all
Seen all the changes, now it's time to move on
If it wasn't for him it just wouldn't be the same
He's not gone, in his heart it will stay
Pass the glory down
So pay your respect
Keep alive what he started
We'll make sure of that
If it wasn't for him
It just wouldn't be the same
He's not gone, in his heart it will stay
He moved on; that's the choise he had to make
Do what you gotta do, we're behind you all the way
Hardcore, that's all you're ever gonna be
I give thanks; you'll always be a brother to me

you are the blood running through my veins.
you are the streets that made me this way.
in you ive lost and regained faith but in my silence i'll never betray.
these are the streets where men are made.
where our values are sometimes plagued into temptation i dwell for days.
and i cant stop, wont stop living by the gun.
never one to run from my fears.
cant stop livin this way and i know what my life means to me.
i see theres things that shouldnt be,
i see theres still hope for me.
but i see myself in these streets and i try but i cants stop.
you say theres still time but i wont stop.
and i know theres still hope for me.
but i see myself in these streets.
i pray theres hope for me.

Enough times been wasted and now I'm faced with our realities and what's to come of this scene.
So many come and go, some have disgraced it.
I think its time we take a stand show them what we mean.
You can't stop this, this think of ours.
Hold it down.
This things is ours, hardcore is ours.
Time after time, line after line.
I must express the truth 'cause that is what we stand for.
Some live to lie they will defy and deny our roots I pay no mind.
You no who we care for.
And I'm not only speaking for myself I cant.
I hope I speak for everyone else out there.
'cause a lot of people think that we don't care.
But they can't stop what I'm bringing can't stop what I'm bringing.
Tryin to make a change do what I can.
They can't stop what I'm bringing can't stop what I'm bringing.
You can't stop what we're bringing.
Tryin to make a change and hold it down 'cause we can

you better think quick,
act fast before its time you take another blast.
you better think about where you stand 'cause it seems youre on the wrong path.
used to look down, talk down.
now you walk down the same path blown out.
youre foolin yourself, youre not proud.
so lean on me to come down.
choose youre own fate, but this aint mine.
youve fallen from grace,
i wont let you fall this time.
out back to back days sniffin gak,
now youre really on the wrong track.
do you really want to come back?


are you losing yourself and do you want that?
i fall this time.
its not a necessity,
its just a fantasy and its too much for me.
too much of anything is not a good thing.
fallen and now i plead.

everyday i hate more and more cuz i know the truth.
its just a role you play and nothing more.
lifes a game to you.
but i live by another set of rules and i know just what it takes to prove.
that weak at heart is what youll always be.
your fake ass wont compete with me.
it must be hard to live in disgrace.
they know the truth and now who should you blame?
you have no fucking shame.
im the one so blame me.
everyday i hate i cannot relate.
youll never be a part of my scene.
youre just a sucka mc,
a fucking wanna be.
now come and throw joints with me

[spoken]
this song goes out to all the kids out there who are keeping it real and turning their backs on any hardcore bands that make any money.
fuck that man.
hardcore isnt about money,
its a way of life.
sure i live with my mom right now,
but id live on the streets if i had to.
and i know deep in my heart,
that one day, i'll go to college,
get a real job,
and forget all about hardcore.
but until then im gonna talk as much shit as i can.
diy!
[sung]
d.i.f.f.m. fuck you!
d.i.f.f.m. fuck you!
d.i.f.f.m. fuck you!
d.i.f.f.m. fuck you!
d.i.f.f.m. fuck you!

i will not hesitate,
if i wait, i give in to chance and i cant live life that way.
can you read my face,
theres no way i'll turn and walk away so just make your mistake.
so when the time comes i dont care,
when the time comes i'll be there,
when the time comes show no fear,
'cause its time and im right here.
i will not lose face, i'll save,
everything i am 'cause thats just how i was made.
i will not hesitate,


if i wait i give into chance and i cant live life that way.
a wise man once said to me
??짝????'on, dont you ever back down to no one?
'cause i'll be there, dont show no fear.

i know its hard for me to see,
the way things have come to be but i must leave it be.
cant keep looking back,
i dont know how to act.
i dont know where to start,
i know ive been here before.
my conscience still believes that it was on me.
my guilty heart bleeds dont want to feel this no more.
so tell me something since youve done nothing except you lied to me.
you said youd never leave,
after all this i wanted to believe that you still care about my life.
just tell me something so i can go in peace 'cause we could not make that sacrifice.
after all this i wanted to believe that you still care about me.


its hard to see, but it must be,
you take away a piece of me.
i never take a step back,
never look back.
ive come to face the facts and i know where you stand.
i wont take another step back, never look back.

new times draw upon me i cant forsee whats next.
but i feel free to do what i have to do,
i answer to, only g.o.d. i look up to. cant say ive changed,
cant say that im still the same.
i mintain through my mindstrains to figure out the next move without pain.
still searching for teh way to work it out,
soul searching cant do nothing about what lies next on lifes list,
will i live, will we ever get out?
trapped visions that i must believe,
so far away from i cant retreat.
sometimes i find a way to get mine,
other times im lost, im blind.
the pressure gets hard B,


i cant lose track its always on me.
i cant stray 'cause it wont go away,
gotta figure out the next move day by day.
times out!
do or die, its my time, its my life, its my time,
do or die. do or die, its our time-its our lives.
times out.

youre always talking but the things you say have no meaning,
they carry no weight.
take your time but dont waste mine.
go sell your stories im not looking to buy.
we all have flaws but this is your downfall.
talkin a game you cant even back up and youre so hollow you have no clue.
theres repercussions and theyre comin for you.
confessions-i leave it up to you,
i know where i stand.
oppressions-something i must choose to make you understand.
to make you understand i dont share your pains 'cause i dont preach about pointless things.


i only speak when i have something to say or i wont fake moves disgrace my name.
self pride-i cant throw away,
i have too much love for family.
self pride-i wont throw away,
raised to be real from the first day.

beware of whats around you.
the elements of life will sometimes take you in.
bad things always surround you.
its your choice now to think.
crime is easy to come by and temptation is bound to bring you down.
corruption distorts your judgement and it seems you cant trust no one now.
thinking to myself theres a price to pay.
is it worth the pain,
the pain of someone taking your life away?
saying to myself there is a better way.
its not worth the pain,
the pain of someone taking it all away.
memories are here to remind you,
learn from your brothers.


dont make their mistakes.
trouble will somehow find you,
its your choice to contemplate.
crime dont pay in the long run.
money aint worth the risk of death or jail.
im not judging no one.
im just thinking, talkin to myself.

i never backstab another to save mine,
i stand the time.
for me its do or die,
these are the rules i live by.
and i shed my blood for my brothers of the same mind,
of the same kind, who never leave a side.
see we never think twice,
and they shed their blood for me.
shos by my side, im by your side.
my blood is my loyalty,
my brothers are loyal to me.


who by my side, this is what we believe.
we stand for one another in hard times, in good times.
no matter what we find,
a way so we can get by.
and i shed my blood for my.