Jonathan Feinberg

I want to be by myself, sometimes I do. I don’t want to be left behind, but sometimes I’m left by you. I press my tongue to the top of my mouth, Cause my jaw, was tired from the thinking. And I stretched my toes to the end of the couch, ’cause my back, it was aching from sleeping. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, And why do I feel so alone? And when will it snow, it’s been raining for hours, And why do I feel so alone? And when I’m left at home, when you’re with someone else I’m all alone. You do not cheat me of my childhood. You bring me blankets for the walls of my forts. There is no anger with the eyebrow raised. When you do the fantastic I am amazed. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, And why do I feel so alone? When will it snow, it’s been raining for hours, And why do I feel so alone? You were leaving some bar, and you’re coming downtown, You’re not ripping out stitches, but you want me around. Just to call you my love, just to call you my love. You are the treasure custodian cleaning the moon for me. Scouring the sky so the stars would shine bright. You stand straight-faced, and tip-toed on top of a ladder, And i, I wait, and i, I wait, and i, I wait. And when I’m left at home, I’m all alone But I’d rather be alone with you. So what is this weather, and what is this darkness, And why do I feel so alone? When will it snow, it’s been raining for hours, And why do I feel so alone? Oh, why do I feel so alone?

do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? do you sleep, do you count sheep anymore? do you sleep anymore? do you take plight on my tongue like lead? do you fall gracefully into bed anymore? i saw you as you walked across my room. you looked out the window, you looked at the moon. and you sat on the corner of my bed, and you smoked with the ghost in the back of my head. i don't know, and i don't care if i ever will see you again. i don't know, and i don't care if i ever will be there. do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? do you sleep, do you keep me anymore? you kick my foot under the table, i kick you back; i can't say i'm able to stand for you or fall for you ever again. wish for a perfect setting? wishing that i am letting you take me where you want me all over again? you can't give yourself absolutely to someone else. i don't know, and i don't care if i ever will see you again. i don't know, and i don't care if i ever will be there. i saw you as you walked across my room. you looked out the window, you looked at the moon. and you sat on the corner of my bed, and you smoked with the ghost in the back of my head. do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? do you sleep, do you count sheep anymore? do you sleep anymore? i don't know, and i don't care if i ever will be there.

i see the lights move on the ceiling. i see the stars up in the lights. i see the moonbeams on your forehead there, and i think about the garden of delights. you see the curtains draped in front of me. you see the sun come up alone. you want to show me just what you can see, and i, i turn away. you see my face, you hate my words, i hate you too. you see my heart, it likes the feeling that it gets when I'm with you. i look right at your eyes, i look right through your eyes. i change conversation thought for you. i throw a look that you can't catch from far behind, and you, you turn away. you are my jesus boy, you're laying on a bedly cross, i've got you taped up to the wall. but really don't feel bad 'cause you do to me all the things i do to you. i do to you. i see the lights move on the ceiling, i see the stars up in the lights. i see the moonbeams on your forehead there and i think about the garden of delights.

Skeleton boy by the side of the road. He warned me, he told me; He said, ’there’s this woman, she’s a hurricane, She will heal your heart up, and she is hurrying.’ She said, ’don’t look for holidays. Don’t look, just run away. Go suffocate, and choke your own cry. Go where the water, Where the water, seeps from the pink sky. But behead this woman, she’s a hurricane, She will heal your heart up, and she is hurrying. Remember your reflection in a pool, in a puddle.’ And the leaves sped top-speed towards me, And my image was muddled. I’m a lightheaded wonder, Don’t you see my mind slow down? I’m a lightheaded wonder Don’t you see my mind slow down? Slow down. I’ve compassion for strangers, An affinity for danger Won’t you be my sacrifice? I’m a lightheaded wonder Don’t you see my mind slow down for you? And for you? ’ No you’re a headless woman, you’re a hurricane. You will heal my heart up? No, I will heal my own heart up, because you are hurting. Cause I’m a sunburn slap upon your arm, I’ll twist you til you break, And you’re a hurricane.

Sorry sir I stole your money
Sorry sir I feel but it's so
so twisted So unreal
It was what I'd heard of
And what I didn't have
But I cannot give
what I do not have
And I cannot take
what I do not have
I can't take it
Don't stultify
Don't hold me high
Don't stultify
Don't hold me high

Too many things held precious
Too many things held dear
That's what I hate
That's what I fear
Too much to ask for
May leave me feeling lonely
But too little
leaves me nothing nothing
The drone in your voice
and the fly on the wall said
It's over it's over it's over it is
What do I wish for you
what do I wish
It's over it's over it is
Are we still solemn and bleeding
Are we still swimming to water
that was wet
You can't give away certain things
that you get

From the outside To the inside
I couldn't tell you
how it really was
There has to be more on one hand
Keep your head above water
on the other the other
The drone in your voice
and the fly on the wall said
It's over it's over it's over it is
What do I wish for you
what do I wish
It's over it's over it is
Are we still solemn and bleeding
Are we still swimming to water
that was already wet
I can forgive but I won't forget

I'll wish for you
I'll plead and I'll steal
Hold me precious hold me dear
I'll wish for you
I'll sing and I'll feel
Don't stultify
don't hold me high

Like a Gothic staple a last good bye
One way to float is if you die
And it's over it's over it's over
It's over it's over it's over
It's over it's over

Who would steal on sunday
Who'd made them believe
make believe
Who'd buy a prayer
when you can pray for free
If the way you drank your coffee
was the way you looked at me
Then I could take both my hands
off the tv
I've been sleeping on half
of my bed lately
And thinking about
what you said to me
you're tipsy you're turning
you are alive you are burning

Lisa won't you listen
The moon shines for you
You're tipsy you're turning
you are alive you are burning

A sweet man will sing
a seafaring song
And a dear strong woman
coos gently along
Good guys at the cozy are servin'
folks for free
ever notice there are so many people
in bands in the city
I've been sleeping on half
of my bed lately
And thinking about
what you said to me
you're tipsy you're turning
you are alive you are burning

And I will not judge you
by the way you play your instrument
No that's true as fiction
sometimes I do
But the moon shines halfway
sometimes too
Lisa won't you listen
The moon shines for you
You're tipsy and turning
you've got one foot on the floor
You're alive you are burning
You always wanted more

Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide. Shabby tried to comb her hair with the gift from her grandma, her blood. Tangled she got halfway. Sticky and powdered with dirt from the ground where her mamma had left her, Had left her, had left her. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide, With your eyes open wide. Rusty the screen door, she opened it. Raised from the ground. Mamma left me her ring, mamma left me no family, Just barstools, and boyfriends, and whiskey at nighttime, and bedtime, Bedtime, bedtime, bedtime. I'll go with the man who looks like my father, The neighbors all tell me to go with him. He better take caution, he better take care of me, 'Cause if he don't he, better beware of me. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes closed. Those were rose-colored times on rides with your eyes open wide, With your eyes open wide, With your eyes open wide, Wide, wide, wide, Eyes open wide.

She can’t tell me that all of the love songs have been written, ’cause she’s never been in love with you before. Your skin smells lovely like sandalwood. Your hair falls soft like animals. I’m tryin’ to keep cool, but everyone likes you. I want to kiss the back of your neck, The top of your spine where your hair hits, And gnaw on your fingertips and fall asleep, I’ll talk you to sleep. But I’ll be the one, I will have chosen. I’m tryin’ to keep cool, but everyone here likes you I’m not the only one. Your skin smells lovely like sandalwood. Your hair falls soft like animals, And nothing else matters to me. She can’t tell me that all of the love songs have been written, ’cause she’s never been in love with you before, In love with you before. Your hand, So hot, Burns a hole in My hand. I wanted to show you.

It’s a bad day. It’s a train ride. It’s a bad day. You’re my medicine It’s a snow day. It’s a full moon. It’s a snow day. When’d you get down to my bones? Where’ll I find that wishing stone? The beads, the records, All the calls, and the drinks alone. First by mind, then by music you’ll make this all less confusing. It’s a slow dive down, A fast distraction, A strange fall forward My lame reaction. It’s a bad day. It’s a long ride. It s a bad day. You’re my medicine It’s a sinking feeling, Pulls me through the seat of chairs. When will you come rescue me, Find solace, and then take me there? You’ll say, ’you re not too tired for this life, And it’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You’re not too tired for this life, and It’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice. ’ When’ d you get down to my bones? Where’ ll I find that wishing stone? The beads, the records, all the calls, and the drinks alone. It’s a bad day. Two miles to go. It’s a bad day. You’re my medicine You’ll say, ’you’re not too tired for this life, And it’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice You’re not too tired for this life, and it’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice. You’re not too tired for this life, and it’s not gonna matter if you fall down twice. If you fall down, if you fall down.’ You’re my medicine x4 My medicine. My medicine.

You say I only hear what I want to
And you say I talk so all the time- so
And I thought what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leaving
Now I know that I did something wrong
'Cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

And you say I only hear what I want to
I don't listen hard
I don't pay attention to the distance
That you're running or to
Anyone, anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative, no no no- bad

So I turned the radio on, turned the radio up
And this woman was singing my song
The lover's in love and the other's run away
The lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay
And some of us hover when we weep
For the other who was dying
Since the day they were born
Well, this is not that
I think that I'm throwing but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever
But now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever
But that won't take me anyhow
Or anywhere with you

And you said that I was naive
But I thought that I was strong
I thought, "Hey, I can leave, I can leave"
But now I know that I was wrong
Cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

You said, "You caught me cause you want me
And one day I'll let you go"
You try to give away a keeper
Or keep me cause you know
You're just so scared to lose

And you say, Stay

You say I only hear what I want to

you say i only hear what i want to

you say i talk so all the time so
and i thought what i felt was simple
and i thought that i don't belong
and now that i am leaving
now i know that i did something wrong
cause i missed you
yeah i missed you

you say i only hear what i want to
i don't listen hard
i don't pay attention to
the distance that you're running
or to anyone anywhere
don't understand if you really care
i'm only hearing negative no no no
so i turned the radio on
i turned the radio up
and this woman was singing my song
the lover's in love
and the other's run away
the lover is crying
cause the other won't stay
some of us hover when we
weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born
well this is not that
i think that i'm throwing
but i'm thrown
and i thought I'd live forever
but now i'm not so sure
you try to tell me that i'm clever
but that won't take me anyhow
or anywhere with you
you said that i was naive
and i thought that i was strong
i thought
hey i can leave
i can leave
but now i know that i was wrong
cause i missed you

I missed you
cause you want me and
one day you'll let me go you try
to give away a keeper
or keep me
cause you know
you're just
scared to lose
and you say stay

My friend's got a bruise on his leg, A bruise on his leg Everytime you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his leg, where I press my knee Everytime you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes. Sometimes you tell the truth like you're pulling taffy. My friend's got a bruise on his arm, a bruise on his arm Everytime you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his arm, where I shove my elbow Everytime you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes,
and sometimes you tell the truth like You're pulling taffy. My friend's got a bruise on his ribs where I poke my finger Everytime you speak. My friend's got a bruise on his ribs, his rib cage is now numb Everytime you speak. Actually, bottom line, you tell the truth sometimes, And sometimes you tell the truth like you're pulling taffy.

waiting for wednesday, my stomach doesn't hurt enough, pain always is the sign. waiting for wednesday, no proof of mine exists, so l don't have to take it back. don't want to show you good-bye. show you good-bye. show you good-bye. show you good-bye. but you're waiting for wednesday. waiting for wednesday. waiting for wednesday, i pray you'll put me on the spot. i do believe you, that you'll love me that you'll leave me. what will i do when you come near to me? you'll put me on the spot. you've been doing this a long, long time, not that you're better than me, but that you do it a lot. Now i'm waiting for wednesday, waiting for wednesday, waiting for wednesday, waiting for wednesday. i'm gonna show you good-bye, show you good-bye, show you good-bye, show you good-bye. now I'm waiting for wednesday, you're back from out of town, the west is dry, your mind is clear, and i don't want to be here, i don't want to be here, i don't want to be here, to show you good-bye. and i'm waiting for wednesday, to show you good-bye.

when all the stars were falling i reached up like you said all the stars were falling one hit me in the head and i fell down down down i fell down down when all the stars were falling they fell from above and i thought of hate and i thought of hate and then i thought of love i fell down down down i fell down down and i've learned how to dance from a vincent van gough and the knights were wrapped in a white sheet and now no one even says hello cuz i couldn't stand on my two feet i fell down i fell down down down down down down down now the piece you will find on your own you've found lights in the city are the stars on the ground i may not be acquainted with living in a speed zone but i could be restfull i could be someone's home if i fell down and i fell down down now all the stars have fallen