Joey Vera

And if you fall along the way, and people start to stare
I'll grab my mask, put on my cape, and soon I will be there

For you... hey, I'm so sorry again today
And hey, for you, I'll be sorry tomorrow, too

Okay? Okay? let's be sorry everyday

Before you started calling, I'd walk to the phone
Now I never never walk, cause I know you're never home

(no one's home I guess, no one's home ring ring)

Baby's always comin' round don't that feel nice
Baby's always comin' round ain't the great?
My sugar's always comin' by just in time man
Here she comes now baby it's too late

I thought you had enough of me, I thought you had enough of me
I thought you had enough of me, I thought you had enough of me
I thought you had enough of me, I thought you had enough of me

They drove by in their car, and they were lost in their youth
Worried eyes looked ahead, streetlights washed my face

Automatic cameras, coffee machines, self-cleaning ovens
Fireplace screens, for you, for you

Renovated basements
Isolated yards, tables in the kitchen
This is what I'm thinking, and you, and you

She's just a quarter acre
But someone's gonna take her
Is it you, in my graveyard mountain home?

My mistake is never knowing, by mistake I keep on going
Love is in the room but I don't know it, love is in the sails but I kept rowing

Sad sad movie, sad sad movie, sad sad movie, I see that now

My mistake is never knowing, by mistake I keep on going
Love is on the rails but I'm still rolling
Love is on the lawn but I keep mowing

Sad sad movie, sad sad movie
Sad sad movie, I see that now

Walking through the night
Lost my path somehow
I am cold and dry, I am true and lost
I'm the right man for the job
You picked the right man for the job
You know it's gonna get better, baby
This is all gonna pass, maybe
And I might just let you stay, hey

Come on along, in your white robe, come on to bed
Take off your head, you were right there, come on to bed

The moon was so heavy you could put your mind to it
No one looked up and that's how you do it
No one can tell you that those were the days
That's what I see when I pray

i was half outside and half inside a dream
when i thought i heard your voice on my machine
sang along had the song almost memorized
liked the track so i laid back and let it fossilize

(i've got all of this on video
it just gets better every episode)

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

lost my head in my hotel room when the ground shook
had to choose between the bible and the phone book

you're never home but that's okay
it's so much easier that way
'cause i can't tell it to your face in real time anyway

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

and it makes no sense to me
unless i see it on t.v.
so just launch that satellite
and get it right
...

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

and it makes no sense to me
unless i see it on t.v.
so just launch that satellite
and get it right
..

(sometimes the answer just comes)
(sometimes the answer just comes)

i was half outside and half inside a dream
when i thought i heard your voice on my machine
sang along had the song almost memorized
liked the track so i laid back and let it fossilize

(i've got all of this on video
it just gets better every episode)

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

lost my head in my hotel room when the ground shook
had to choose between the bible and the phone book

you're never home but that's okay
it's so much easier that way
'cause i can't tell it to your face in real time anyway

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

and it makes no sense to me
unless i see it on t.v.
so just launch that satellite
and get it right
...

america i was blind but now i see
america right there in front of me

and it makes no sense to me
unless i see it on t.v.
so just launch that satellite
and get it right
..

(sometimes the answer just comes)
(sometimes the answer just comes)

on a beach twenty yards from the roadside
back again 6 AM far from sleep
must be 290 blue on the water
it's gray to me 3 CV is all I see

green can only hold you in the garden
too much red will go right to your head
but if it's all the same to you
give me back my blue
other colors fade anyway

i'm colorblind three way tragedy
pantone memory grayscale eyes
maybe i'm paranoid yeah that's my problem
you almost have to be when you look like me

stopped in the shade of a road sign
when the sun rose like a bomb
tried to read the simple writing
but the letters came out wrong
it's all white lines to me
but things are getting clearer
i can almost read the writing in the mirror

i'm colorblind three way tragedy
pantone memory grayscale eyes
maybe i'm paranoid yeah that's my problem
you almost have to be when you look like me

green can only hold you in the garden
too much red will go right to your head
but if it's all the same to you
give me back my blue
other colors fade anyway

i'm colorblind freeway tragedy
pantone memory x-ray eyes
where'd all the color go on my radio?
you almost have to be a satellite to see.

on a beach twenty yards from the roadside
back again 6 AM far from sleep
must be 290 blue on the water
it's gray to me 3 CV is all I see

green can only hold you in the garden
too much red will go right to your head
but if it's all the same to you
give me back my blue
other colors fade anyway

i'm colorblind three way tragedy
pantone memory grayscale eyes
maybe i'm paranoid yeah that's my problem
you almost have to be when you look like me

stopped in the shade of a road sign
when the sun rose like a bomb
tried to read the simple writing
but the letters came out wrong
it's all white lines to me
but things are getting clearer
i can almost read the writing in the mirror

i'm colorblind three way tragedy
pantone memory grayscale eyes
maybe i'm paranoid yeah that's my problem
you almost have to be when you look like me

green can only hold you in the garden
too much red will go right to your head
but if it's all the same to you
give me back my blue
other colors fade anyway

i'm colorblind freeway tragedy
pantone memory x-ray eyes
where'd all the color go on my radio?
you almost have to be a satellite to see.

me & judas lost at sea
under electric twilight fading
i look at him he sees through me
40 days and we're still waiting

i'm not tired but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not welcome but i think i'll stay

me & jonas lost at sea
deep inside a dream we're trailing
heard him whisper wait for me
sun goes down and we're still sailing

i'm not nervous but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not helpless but i think i'll stay
and even the waves won't carry me away

keep heading west that's the best
may be lost but i'm not crazy
stay where you are not too far
keep it up you're doing fine
well i thought i was fine

me & joseph lost at sea
under rain and slowly waking
he looks around and smiles at me
41 and we're still waiting

i'm not tired but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not hopeless but i think i'll stay
and even the waves won't carry me away

me & judas lost at sea
under electric twilight fading
i look at him he sees through me
40 days and we're still waiting

i'm not tired but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not welcome but i think i'll stay

me & jonas lost at sea
deep inside a dream we're trailing
heard him whisper wait for me
sun goes down and we're still sailing

i'm not nervous but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not helpless but i think i'll stay
and even the waves won't carry me away

keep heading west that's the best
may be lost but i'm not crazy
stay where you are not too far
keep it up you're doing fine
well i thought i was fine

me & joseph lost at sea
under rain and slowly waking
he looks around and smiles at me
41 and we're still waiting

i'm not tired but i think i'll lay back anyway
i'm not hopeless but i think i'll stay
and even the waves won't carry me away

Oh...Oh...
I see the sky
Its becoming a very very bright red
Almost an aurora... A red aurora
And Its like I'm suspended
And the light is so bright it hurts my eyes
And I see this huge ball
Now in the center its...
Its A gray colored ball
Almost.. oh... I don't know what its made of...
But the rock like formation
But as its turning now
Its begining to change color
Becoming a purplish Hazy Orange looking ball
And now its beginning to gather great speed
And as its going faster across the sky
Part of it has broken off now
And its going out behind the sun
I see the huge ball in the sun
Its a ball of fire
And this is another ball of fire
And a peice now has broken off
And its heading off into the sun
And there... oh...oh...
Its an explosion
oh... (ahh)
I can't look...oh...oh...

Oh...Oh...
I see the sky
Its becoming a very very bright red
Almost an aurora... A red aurora
And Its like I'm suspended
And the light is so bright it hurts my eyes
And I see this huge ball
Now in the center its...
Its A gray colored ball
Almost.. oh... I don't know what its made of...
But the rock like formation
But as its turning now
Its begining to change color
Becoming a purplish Hazy Orange looking ball
And now its beginning to gather great speed
And as its going faster across the sky
Part of it has broken off now
And its going out behind the sun
I see the huge ball in the sun
Its a ball of fire
And this is another ball of fire
And a peice now has broken off
And its heading off into the sun
And there... oh...oh...
Its an explosion
oh... (ahh)
I can't look...oh...oh...

(now, now I know I'm not crazy. the fucking mouse, the mouse is back again. and I got him here, mother fff - he's in the fucking radiator. this prick, and he's lay - he's eating a fucking Dorito. and I can't get him. and he's looking at me, and he'll still eat the Dorito. he's behind the fucking - i'm gonna fucking kill him. this is war. now this is war. now watch what happens.) <i>[Todd Farrington]

took the flower back
his wayward love had been mislead
the sun is dying
apologies she can't accept
check the window quick
the sun is dying
blue and red of day to purple night
and absent light to disarray
took the flower back
his wayward love had been mislead
the sun is dying
apologies she won't accept
check the window quick
the sun is dying
a candle marks her tears
the flame will fade
she'll greet the dawn in disarray
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
took the flower back
his wayward love had been misled
the level's rising
steps into the stream
we're so misled
she'll watch the pain the level's rising
blue and reds of day to purple night
and absent light to disarray
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising

(now, now I know I'm not crazy. the fucking mouse, the mouse is back again. and I got him here, mother fff - he's in the fucking radiator. this prick, and he's lay - he's eating a fucking Dorito. and I can't get him. and he's looking at me, and he'll still eat the Dorito. he's behind the fucking - i'm gonna fucking kill him. this is war. now this is war. now watch what happens.) <i>[Todd Farrington]

took the flower back
his wayward love had been mislead
the sun is dying
apologies she can't accept
check the window quick
the sun is dying
blue and red of day to purple night
and absent light to disarray
took the flower back
his wayward love had been mislead
the sun is dying
apologies she won't accept
check the window quick
the sun is dying
a candle marks her tears
the flame will fade
she'll greet the dawn in disarray
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
took the flower back
his wayward love had been misled
the level's rising
steps into the stream
we're so misled
she'll watch the pain the level's rising
blue and reds of day to purple night
and absent light to disarray
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising
she steps into the stream the level rising

tell me something stupid
auction off my diary
life is getting esoteric
let me in your movie
each time i walk out the door
someone mixes metaphors
life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the morning when i'm dreaming
and everything is so pristine
it's just a seven hour movie
and i'm in every scene

let me in my t.v.
get this tape to tori
got to have a subplot
when i sell them my life story
maybe i should write it first
and do the living later
'cause life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the time i lost my body
and then i saw it on t.v.
somehow it shed a whole dimension
but it still looked like me
(hey! that looks like me!)

each time i write lines for it
someone improvises it
life is so much cleaner on the page
life is so much cleaner on the page

tell me something stupid
auction off my diary
life is getting esoteric
let me in your movie
each time i walk out the door
someone mixes metaphors
life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the morning when i'm dreaming
and everything is so pristine
it's just a seven hour movie
and i'm in every scene

let me in my t.v.
get this tape to tori
got to have a subplot
when i sell them my life story
maybe i should write it first
and do the living later
'cause life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the time i lost my body
and then i saw it on t.v.
somehow it shed a whole dimension
but it still looked like me
(hey! that looks like me!)

each time i write lines for it
someone improvises it
life is so much cleaner on the page
life is so much cleaner on the page

fly blackbird fly
frozen the sea i see you
old cover clouds new snow there they go

silent but wings
sun orange small i see you
nowhere is home go alone and alone

fly angel fly
older than me i feel you
coalcovered clouds white snow there you go

heard myself call
far from them all i feel you
left them behind or ahead and he said

sooner or later you get up off the floor
when no one wants to hear it anymore
someday soon you're gonna get up off the floor
'cause no one wants to hear that shit

cry blackbird cry over the waves i hear you
coalcovered clouds white snow there they go
ice on your wings songless he sings i hear you
nowhere is home go alone there's a phone

fly blackbird fly
frozen the sea i see you
old cover clouds new snow there they go

silent but wings
sun orange small i see you
nowhere is home go alone and alone

fly angel fly
older than me i feel you
coalcovered clouds white snow there you go

heard myself call
far from them all i feel you
left them behind or ahead and he said

sooner or later you get up off the floor
when no one wants to hear it anymore
someday soon you're gonna get up off the floor
'cause no one wants to hear that shit

cry blackbird cry over the waves i hear you
coalcovered clouds white snow there they go
ice on your wings songless he sings i hear you
nowhere is home go alone there's a phone

last night hit the net
woke up in a sweat
same scene different dream sudden ending

grabbed a pillow and covered my head
kicked the phone off the side of the bed
tried to sing but the damn thing kept on ringing

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
that's what i meant when i said goodbye

backed the shovelhead out of the shed
hit the interstate hard heading left
the street below is water flowing undertow

there's a song that i'd rather forget
but i don't think i've shaken it yet
as soon as i do
i'm gonna write us another one

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
that's what i meant when i said goodbye
...

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
maybe i'll die maybe i'll learn how to fly
that's what i meant when i said

last night hit the net
woke up in a sweat
same scene different dream sudden ending

grabbed a pillow and covered my head
kicked the phone off the side of the bed
tried to sing but the damn thing kept on ringing

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
that's what i meant when i said goodbye

backed the shovelhead out of the shed
hit the interstate hard heading left
the street below is water flowing undertow

there's a song that i'd rather forget
but i don't think i've shaken it yet
as soon as i do
i'm gonna write us another one

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
that's what i meant when i said goodbye
...

i know
i'll go to mexico
someplace nothing changes
maybe i'll call on the phone
maybe i'll write you a letter
maybe i'll die maybe i'll learn how to fly
that's what i meant when i said

sometimes i wanna sleep in the street
but it feels a little funny without you
down in the basement feeling the pavement
holding my stomach

and sometimes i can't believe my own feet
so i found another permanent address
sold the old mattress keeping the changes
talking to strangers

i knew i could forget you
that's what i'm gonna do
now i'm staring at a stop sign
just like the last time

hey you're everything you dreamed you'd be
what a civilized way to be angry
locked in the attic, starting to panic
wait, that's me

always it's the same situation
it's got to be somebody's fault
but i never know what to do
so let's say we put the blame on you

standing in a phone booth
waiting for the punch line
trying not to call you
just like the last time

sometimes i wanna sleep in the street
but it feels a little funny without you
down in the basement feeling the pavement
holding my stomach in

and sometimes i can't believe my own feet
so i found another permanent address
sold the old mattress keeping the changes
talking to strangers

i knew i could forget you
that's what i'm gonna do
now i'm staring at a stop sign
just like the last time

you look so mysterious
but you sound so serious
you should have told me on the phone
i'm sorry i'm sorry i don't know what i'm saying

i guess you tried to let me know
by leaving notes on the stereo
it's not the typical way to go
i'm sorry i'm sorry i don't know what i'm saying

'cause i found myself
back in the bachelor scene
feel like an astronaut
in a submarine
if i fall asleep
i could fall out of bed
maybe the helmet helps
but it hurts my head

let's not get hysterical maybe you need a sabbatical
you get so angry when you're wrong
i'm sorry i'm sorry i don't know what i'm saying

you know it came as quite a shock to find your note in the cereal box
and why'd you have to change the locks
i'm sorry i'm sorry i don't know what i'm saying

and i found myself
back in the bachelor scene
feel like an astronaut
in a submarine
if i fall asleep
i could float out of bed
maybe the ceiling helps
but it hurts my head

cause i found myself
back in the bachelor scene
feel like an astronaut
in a submarine
if i fall asleep
i could fall out of bed
maybe the helmet helps
but it hurts my head

so the man was tired and the car was starved
and the sun was setting
no the moon was tired and the cow was carved
i remember every second

forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
yeah i saw the way you talk to your cell phone

forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
then i thought about the man with the shotgun

so the man took a shotgun out of the trunk
waited on the hood with the headlights on
radio was playing christmas songs

later on he thought he saw something
realized he never saw anything
now he drives with his headlights off

forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
yeah i saw the way you climbed out the window

forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
forget what you don't know yet
and now you never answer your cell phone

The crew is bedded down for the night, and here's an announcement from mission control."

"Hello Apollo 11 Houston, we've got the network all configured for the TV, you can, eh, start any time you want, over." "Okay, we'll, eh, reconfigure the TV for that."

"This is Apollo Control Houston at eighty-seven hours and thirty-one minutes now into the flight of Apollo 11. The Apollo 11 space craft continues on its frontside pass above the moon. We're now less than ten minutes away from, eh, loss of signal. The Apollo 11 crew are currently in their rest period. We've, eh, received, eh, no indication yet that any of the three crew members are actually sleeping, eh, although all three appear to be in a very restful mode."

"This is Apollo Control at sixty-one hours thirty-nine minutes. We've had no further conversation with the crew since our last, eh, report. Our flight surgeon says there is no indication at this time that they have begun to sleep. But we expect they'll be, eh, getting to sleep here shortly. Coming up in, eh, less than 10 seconds now we'll be crossing into the sphere of influence of the moon, and our displays will shift from earth reference to moon reference. At sixty-one hours forty-one minutes this is Apollo Control Houston."

saw her at a red light
headlights flashing like shooting stars
in the fast lane like an airplane

never saw the tail light
windshield cracked like an insight
was a long flight but i'm alright now

i can tell you're falling
it's nice to know
i can tell you're falling
it's nice to know

oh no there you go
now i won't be home for the late show
sorry about the window what a nice throw

sometimes i can see
that you finally got me where you want me
guess i can't complain though
'cause i can't go home

i can tell you're falling
it's nice to know
i can tell you're falling
it's nice to know

tell me something stupid
auction off my diary
life is getting esoteric
let me in your movie
each time i walk out the door
someone mixes metaphors
life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the morning when i'm dreaming
and everything is so pristine
it's just a seven hour movie
and i'm in every scene

let me in my t.v.
get this tape to tori
got to have a subplot
when i sell them my life story
maybe i should write it first
and do the living later
'cause life is so much cleaner on the page

it's like the time i lost my body
and then i saw it on t.v.
somehow it shed a whole dimension
but it still looked like me
(hey! that looks like me!)

each time i write lines for it
someone improvises it
life is so much cleaner on the page
life is so much cleaner on the page

"The number you have reached, 9, 1, 1, has been changed..."

it was five o'clock 'cause i checked my watch
when i woke back up on the subway
and i missed my stop it was 10 blocks back
but i liked my seat so i kept it
and i'm still surprised that you stayed with me
'till my first mistake of the century
it was so extreme i controlled my dreams
with the radio and the late show

"When you drive, you practice mindfulness of driving. It is possible. When you stop at a red light, you look at the red light and smile. You look at the red light, you smile, and you breathe in and out, and sit back, relaxingly. Breathing in, I calm myself. Breathing out, I smile."

"And the red light become a friend, become a bell of mindfulness. Something unpleasant become something pleasant. We have the habit energy of wanting to arrive. That is why we want to go as quickly as possible. But according to this practice, we arrive at every moment. Life can be found only in the present moment. Everything that we look for must be found in the present moment. Peace. Joy. Happiness. Buddha. The kingdom of God."

"What is our final destination? If we abandon the present moment, our final destination may be our death. We don't want to arrive there, we want to go in the direction of life."

"This concludes Tape 1, A Retreat on the Practice of Mindfulness. Our program continues with Tape 2."

time in london now exactly 3:30 in the morning so quite a little while to go so i'm sure you'll enjoy some sleep perhaps watch a movie and enjoy some food not much more to tell you really um there are um start again you can't feel anything unless you're paying attention and if you're in a situation like breaking your leg in a burning building then your attention is on getting out of that building and only once your outside does the leg begin to hurt so in many of these situations what"