God Lives Underwater

Death is everywhere
There are flies on the windscreen
For a start
Reminding us
We could be torn apart
Tonight

Death is everywhere
There are lambs for the slaughter
Waiting to die
And I can sense
The hours slipping by
Tonight

Come here
Kiss me
Now
Come here
Kiss me
Now

Death is everywhere
The more I look
The more I see
The more I feel
A sense of urgency
Tonight

Come here (touch me)
Kiss me (touch me)
Now (touch me)
(touch me)

There are flies on the windscreen
There are lambs for the slaughter
There are flies on the windscreen

Come here (touch me)
Kiss me (touch me)
Now (touch me)
(touch me)
Come here (touch me)
Kiss me (touch me)
Now (touch me)
(touch me)

You don't know me, think you can judge me
Budge me, rape me, love me
You wait for me to just believe you
Like all the times before
I was young then, ask for it again
I feel the sweat in my eyes
How could you treat me just like a child when
I couldn't even realize

Do you love me?
Do you need me?
Maybe someday, yeah
Do you please me?
So I'll please you
Don't drag me, don't you drag me down

Now I know you, think that I love you
Trust you, want you, don't you
You want me to be afraid to
Say anything on my mind
I can't understand why another man
Wouldn't leave you alone
Maybe they don't see what I see
I hope you're left on your own

Deep, deep, slowly
I'm slowing down not to be found for a while

I keep thinking the past few days
Sometimes I'm wrong, wrong in my ways
I tell myself someday I've got to explain

Now I've become what I said
Said I'd never come to
You just figured that I
Would never care about anything

Sleep, sleep, lonely again
Toss in my bed, regret what I said to you

I can't stop thinking of how you cried
You're probably drinking, tomorrow you'll lie
I know myself, it's something I can't control

I can see
See the signs
I've been waiting here for you
But nothing's getting through

I am gone
Up in the clouds
Praying I can turn,
Turn myself around

A year ago
I gave it a year
I hoped it wouldn't happen
Now its here

It took so long
I can't carry on
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me

No more love

I can see
See your eyes
I can feel your heady stare
I run my fingers through my hair

I am high
As one can be
And I hope I don't come down,
I hate when I come down

A month ago
I know you lied
Took my life into your hands
You just don't understand

How it feels
To be free
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me

Sitting here thinking about what
What everything means to me
Do I want it all?
Can I take it all?

Sitting here thinking about you
Do I need this jealousy?
What do you mean to me?
What do you really mean to me?

I know what you're feeling
Here I am again
I'll regret what I've been to you
And there's nothing I can do

Sitting here thinking about why
I sometimes scare myself
I'm so high above
I rose so high above

Sitting here thinking about how
You want me on the ground
You can't bring me down
I'm never ever coming down

Sitting here thinking about how
How I'm giving in
I should be giving up
I should have given up

Sitting here thinking about why
I'm jumping in again
More than a friend
More towards the end again

I can see you, but I don't know what you're thinking
I can feel you, but I don't know what you're feeling

You take me away when I look in your eyes
I can't reach you no matter how hard I try

I don't care what gets in the way
Some days I don't know what to say
I can't get this through to you
Maybe you just don't want me to try

I can touch you, but I don't know if you'll let me
If you let me, I don't know if I'll want to

You push me away and I don't come back
Sometimes it's so hard to get you to react

I don't care what gets in the way
Some days I don't know what to say
I can't get this through to you
Maybe you just don't want me to try

I can't help it, I'm too young to be truthful
Maybe I'm not good enough to deserve you

You lead me astray and I can't fight back
Can't you help me? I want you to protect me

I don't care what gets in the way
Some days I don't know what to say
I can't get this through to you
Maybe you just don't want me to

I don't care what gets in the way
Some days I don't know what to say
I can't get this through to you
Maybe you just don't want me to try

How much longer will I be waiting for you?
You know I've been thinking of what I'm gonna do
I knew when I saw you, the look on your face
I hardly had to ask you over to my place
I've been waiting, anticipating you

You know it's just a waste of time
Hoping I would change my mind
What's this coming over me?
I don't feel free anymore

I could please you, but I don't choose to now
I've got needs, you know, please fulfill them somehow
I know I seem demanding, but it's all worthwhile
I need your understanding of how to make me smile
I can see you're working out just fine

What do you think you mean to me?
How important you must seem
What's this coming over me?
I don't feel free anymore

I'm breathing the air
The air I always breathe
I don't have a lot
I want someone to share it with me

I really only want a few things
They've all been taken away
What does the next life bring?
I just want to feel O.K.

I'm searching forever
For someone or something
I want to be high
And I want someone to love me

I've spent 23 years now
Trying to get by
Other people make it day to day
I still wonder why

I really only had a few thing
They've all turned to tears
One tried to kill me
The other kept me here
I'm still here

I hate to break it to you
But this convenience ain't convenient anymore
Now I realize I had different eyes
Back when I thought this was a good thing

Here I am, my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation I'm in again
Everything must come to an end now

There's some things that I wanna do
And I don't wanna lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong

I'll dig to learn about you
I'm sure I'll find you were as evil as me
We can call it even, you can let me leave then
You can leave me to my own thing

Why won't you face me?
It's been such a long time
I'm walking a fine line
Now we're walking out

Why can't I see things
Like I'm supposed to see things?
I'm not supposed to be this way
Not this time around

Sometimes I feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday I endure
Sometimes I feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday you want more

My expectations
Were high in the first place
Were high in the worst way
It leaves me so down

I give up easily
Can't speak so freely
Won't someone release me?
Just this time around

Sometimes I feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday I endure
Sometimes I feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday you want more

These days I'm getting older
Before my time
To say I'm getting stronger
Would be a lie

I think you're trying to break me
Seems so unreal
Don't know how to take me
Don't know how I feel

Look around you
Do you see what I see?
Other people think you try to
Make a fool of me

It seems to take so long
'Til anything gets done
Why do I have to lose to get things?
I've never won

I'm defeated again
I see the look on your face
I've got that feeling again
My mouth has a bad taste

My hope in empty promise
Put me to shame
I know it's what you wanted
I need the pain

I was gonna be someone
You held me down
Didn't want me to move on
You let me drown

I can see
See the signs
I've been waiting here for you
But nothing's getting through

I am gone
Up in the clouds
Praying I can turn,
Turn myself around

A year ago
I gave it a year
I hoped it wouldn't happen
Now its here

It took so long
I can't carry on
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me

No more love

I can see
See your eyes
I can feel your heady stare
I run my fingers through my hair

I am high
As one can be
And I hope I don't come down,
I hate when I come down

A month ago
I know you lied
Took my life into your hands
You just don't understand

How it feels
To be free
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me

I'm scared of you
There's nothing I can do
No sense in wasting time
I want you out of my mind

You make me feel unhappy
I wish you weren't real
You only make me unhappy
And I can't deal
With it

I never wanted you
But I'm afraid it's true
You're gonna catch me by surprise
I hope there's time to realize

Where you're at, you shouldn't be
Although I wish I was there too
Back and forth, through the course
My mind is not made up, still

Do you lie to everyone?
You don't have to lie to me
Is your sight without light?
You can't see me, still

My mind is not made up... still

I know what it takes to normalize
To slow me down, to cut me down to size

I wanna get that feeling
To touch the ceiling
To send me reeling
I want to know
How can I ease my mind, ease my mind?

Yeah, I'm being taken away
I'm feeling that I'm finding my way
To something that's completely overwhelming me

I get tired of most everything
I anxiously await the gifts you bring

I spend my time thinking
And I hate thinking
To stop this thinking
I want to know
How can I pass the time, pass the time?

Breathe
Turning blue and I can't breathe
In the water underneath
And we're way too deep
To save ourselves

Now that you don't know me
And I've been away for long
Have you also been growing?
Seen how we were wrong

Deep
My misery is now complete
I've been falling under feet
And I'm way too deep
To save myself

Please
I'm losing consciousness it seems
Like everyone's on top of me
And these suffocating dreams
Are real to me

Here I am
Understand
No one sees

How I feel
How's it feel
To be free?

Why does everything come true
When I don't want it to?
Everyone and everything, pushing me to weaken
Feel like I am sinking
Wish that I could push this all away
Push this all away

Please, you remember
I will never be the same
Please, you remember
I will always be ashamed

Here I am
Back again
In the trees

Now I'm lost
And I've lost
What was me

How could anyone give me
What I want and what I need?
Everyone and everything, pushing me to weaken
Feel like I am sinking
Wish that I could push this all away
Push this all away

The past few years have been so trying
Between the drugs and the drinking and the touring
In my eyes I'm stabilized
And all I need is you, someone who understands

I know you now
The shortest yet
And we just met
I thought that you'd be different
Then again
You came on strange
But still the same
As what I know
I try and try and then
I'm alone again

Now my life's become a challenge
Because my confidence has been decreased profoundly
In my mind I've realized
I'm stuck on a worthless hill with no one who understands

Morals so undefined
New schemes to undermine
He likes to leave a burn
So much for live and learn

My savior and his low behavior
Someday everybody owes me a favor
If the look on my face is any indication
I keep giving in to temptation

He creates a false pretense
That it was self defense
He just can't mask the flavor
My savior and his low behavior

Sometimes life's not fair
I correct myself, I mean all the time
I feel like complaining, but it only bothers you
The things I do, they make your blood run cold

There's a lot of things
That no one likes but

I want the answers now
Must be all confused somehow
Did you say what I heard about?
I've heard a million things
Gossip's being sent to me
I don't wanna believe it
Until I hear it from your mouth

Tell me why are you friendly to my face?
What I mean is barely nice
When I'm not around, hear you like to put me down
Embarassment is what I get

I just can't figure myself out
Or what's surrounding me
Or what I surround myself with

A two ton fist is pushing me
To the streets again
Looking for relief in my restricted state

I wake from dreams of high
Before I rush by
A crush I have on you
You're a lover most true
I'm falling off again
You'll always be my friend
She never lies
But she eats me alive

Elastic mind that always bends
For my drug of choice
I think I hear her voice

It's like Pixies and Angels and Cocteau Twins
So beautifully sung
But it's a noose, she's hung

All along, we knew the answers all along
Why did it take you so long? I hear you say

It all depends on how your point of view can change
Round and round, rearrange

I don't count the days

All along, I didn't listen physically
I have come to find what's not mine
I thought was a given

And all the while, I feel like I could go either way
Behind your backs, I just may

I don't count the days

All along, I could do anything
Anything without you, anyway

I live under a sky of angels
Bulletproof vest of all my dangers
I've been deceived by all the flowers planted around me
Sweet smell replaced all the, all the vapors

Everyday you think I live a lie
You think I want to die?
But can't you see I'm what I want to be?
Everyday you think I live a lie
You think I want to die?
But can't you see I'm what I want to be?

I've been misunderstood about my being around
I can't seem to stop letting people down - or that's what they say
I still don't care about them or what they're thinking, what they're thinking
It's not fair for anyone to believe them or me or the papers

(Oh, jeez, you know what I did?)
(What'd you do?)

Now I know what my destiny is
It's the ultimate rift
In the little will I have

I'm not gonna last 'til the end
I'm still my only friend
Now I know what to do

Much to your dismay
I'm choosing a day
To find my new home
And the answer to my biggest question

You fall like a waterfall
Pulling down your insincerities
I erode you to your bedrock
And, in the fossils, the inscription reads

If you think you've made history
You're not as huge as you thought
So pull the safety pins out your palms
There's no more room on the cross
So step off

Your presence is a gaping hole
A wound from which your contradictions bleed
It's documented in my laptop
And it just reaffirms statistically that

If you think you've made history
You're not as huge as you thought
So pull the safety pins out your palms
There's no more room on the cross
So step off

I've been trying my hardest, but it's not good enough
I'm back where I started, when life was tough on me

There's only so much you can do when it's started
Pull away, pull away, just pull away
You can try to no avail to discard it
Go away, go away, just go away
Just go away

Solve all of my problems, for everyone but me
How is that a solution or recovery?

I've done it again, let down my closest friend
At least he used to be until I pushed you away
You'll never understand and I'll never understand
How I could do these things when I miss you more than anything

I stopped my ill behavior and I'm up off the floor
It didn't stop the pain, it cleared the way for more, much more

I've done it again, let down my closest friend
At least he used to be until I pushed you all away from me
You'll never understand, I don't understand
How I could do these things when I miss you more than anything
I've done it again, let down my closest friend
At least he used to be until I pushed you far away from me
You'll never understand 'cause I'll never understand
How I could do these things when I miss you more than anything

Yes, hello, it's me
Sir Positivity
So turn the mic gain up
Let's force another one

Should I grin and stay hopeful
When we both look to different lights
About what we perceive as high?

It's not the same
It won't ever be the same
We're not the same
And we'll never be the same

Well, I've been crowned the king of
Insensitivity
So put your thick skin on
Let's force another one

Should I grin and stay hopeful
When you're here with your eyes half-closed?
But that tired routine gets old

It's not the same
It won't ever be the same
It's not the same
It won't ever be the same
We're not the same
We won't ever be the same
Respect the fact
That I feel it everyday

It's not the same
It won't ever be the same
Respect the fact
That I feel it everyday

Now that I'm out of the nut house and on my own
Having worn out my welcome in every home

I'm to blame
For all of the things that went wrong
I'm just a case away
From losing it all, I slip to fall

I live two minutes from where I bought medicine
Escape as the guy on my way to sober friends

Time creeps by when out in reality
Sometimes my feet start walking unconsciously
I've got some time, but I've got my life to go
I wish the best for us all, but I don't know

That's the way I like it
That's the way I want it
That's the way I like it
And that's the way I want it

I'm a dumb ass, I go too fast
When I shouldn't be moving at all
I know I'm the last and your only chance
At having something meaningful

I won't ever be tricked into thinking that she loves me
Because no one does and no one will

And that's the way I like it
And that's the way I want it

I jump into things, buying wedding rings
When I can't keep myself in line
Try to stop myself, put it on its shelf
And save it for another time

I won't ever be tricked into thinking that they love me
Because no one does and no one will

And that's the way I like it
And that's the way I want it
That's the way I like it
That's the way I want it

Here I am again, left to my own devices
This is the last time anyone can bring me down

I won't ever be tricked into thinking that she loves me
Because no ones does and no one will
I won't ever be tricked into thinking that they love me
Because no one does and no one will

I feel the train changing tracks
The sound of that, I reminisce
I try so hard to stay intact
No one knows, no one cares

I'll take whatever you've got
I'll take whatever you feed me
When it's time for me to come down
There's never a compromise, you know
I'll take whatever you give
And what you give I'll put in me
When it's time for me to come down
There's never a compromise, you know it, you know it

I feel the thoughts that you don't have
Think of me, you probably don't

Disappointment's all I know
And all I do but I say I won't

I feel the train changing tracks
The sound of that, I reminisce
Disappointment's all I know
And all I do but I say I won't

I'll take whatever you've got
And what you give I'll put in me
I'll take whatever you've got
You know it, you know it

Another pendulum is swinging towards the left and to the left again
I tried to stay to the right and do what's right and we're all aware it's a constant fight
You know it

I've been the one away
I'll be the first to say

Now I've become the rat in experiments that I invent and I put myself through
I can't explain the process in my brain when all I say comes out the same
Like white noise

I've been the one away
I'll be the first to say
As a way I've been, it's not cool
To be the one with nothing
I've always got nothing