Damien Jurado

I am looking at a beautiful window
That window is your eyes
And the only time i saw rainfall
Was the day your mother died

And i am looking at a beautiful rainbow
The rainbow is your smile
O, the only time i heard laughter
Was the day i took you as my bride

I am looking at a beautiful window
The window is your eyes
O, the only time i saw rainfall
Was the day your mother died

And i am walking with my Savior
My Savior walks with me
O, He will guide me up to heaven
Where you & i shall meet

Heard he shot another
No one knows a reason
It didn't make the paper
It's just another white lie
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center

Can I take out the flowers?
Sunday packed the churches
Morning comes too slowly
For us who feel like victims
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center

Turn off your headlights
Here comes a cop car
Music for the bad boys
Music for the good boys
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center
Here in white center

When I left you alone to fight your battles
Of long winters and motels what went through your mind?
How is it that you made it? How is it that you noticed?
It wasn't me who was looking at you
Through foggy glass or windows... it was them.

I was out in Coolidge with my head on a counter
Drinking down my chance to ever return to anyone.
No I wasn't faking it... the hurt I felt was real
And all that was holy just slowly disappeared
Or just appeared in parking lots of truck stops.
The lights all blinking and now all I'm thinking is
"How the hell did I get here?"

Does your husband know that I call you sweetheart?
Does he know that I call you at all?
It's not like you are cheating we're only meeting
In hotels and not your home.
Would you change your last name to mine?
I think your kids will mind.

I was in the desert waving planes and burning phone books
To a tune that was famous the year I was born.
Do not leave me dancing alone.
Pick up the phone and call me lover
Say come and get me I am home...

Walk with me down the street
Walk with me to Water Street

Girl that I’ve been leading
With the lying and the cheating is hard
You got yourself a boyfriend and
Treats you like a lady and friend

No one sees the tragedy except for me

Girl that I’ve been leading
With the drinking and the cheating in good
You had yourself a boyfriend and
Used him like the others you did

Trust me, you’re in deep
It’s no good
...

Trust me, you’re in deep
It’s no good... x2

She spends her time with other boys
He spends his time fixing cars
She doesn’t mind that he’s gone
It gives her more time to talk

He’ll come around when he’s bored
And she’ll pay him no mind
‘We must stop meeting like this,’
He said with a grin while walking in
And she just slammed the door in his face

‘We must stop meeting like this,’
He said with a grin while walking in
And she just slammed the door in his face

I’ll see you around..
I’ll see you around sometime..x2
..

She hangs her coat on the door
He hangs his head on her hopes
She sleeps alone with her thoughts
She dreams of good times

He’ll come around when he’s old
She’ll pay him no mind

‘We must stop meeting like this,
Coming to bed with no words said
Makes it tougher on both of us.’..x2

And I’ll see you around...
I’ll see you around sometime....x2
...

It used to be much better than this.........

It used to be so much better than this
It used to be..

Tonight I Will Retire

Oh tonight I will retire
To the arms of my lover
The sweetest kiss she will give
As I lay down beside her

What will she think
When she awakes
Just to find I have left here

Oh tonight I will retire
To these hands with revolver
And I don't fear death
I will commit
Like an old friend I've known forever

So come on in, take me on
No I won't stay here no longer

And if I should taste fire
Save me not, I deserve to die

And oh tonight I will retire
To loving arms of my savior
And we will walk through his gates
To the skies of Heaven

And no more tears will I cry
Are my sins, are they forgiven

And if I should taste fire
Save me not, I deserve to die

There goes your man
There goes your man
He's walking by, and shaking like a leaf
There goes your man

Here comes your death
Here comes your death
Keeping our breath safely in the trees
Here comes your death

Come now, you widow
Come now, you widow
Com and rest, so quiet in the meadow
Here comes your man

From the ceiling to the floor
I find I'm wanting more
It's so much a part of it

When I drop down from the sky
So much I could find
In a happy house so high above the clouds

It's not the way that you look, no
It all depends how you feel
It's just the way that it is
I wanna be you

Breaking hearts, they make no sound
In this I have found an excuse for jealousy
Kill the sun and make them blind
So much they will find
In a happy house so high above the clouds

It's not the way that you look, no
It all depends how you feel
It's just the way that it is
I wanna be you

From the window to the doorway
This is the way we planned our escape
Five miles of road, three hours of conversation
My feet & ears could only take so much

From texas to ohio is too long a walk
Even if it's with someone you love
Five miles in the walk you already want to do them in

Through the heat & humidity
My mind keeps going back to the first time i met you
How weeks after dating, i could never get ahold of you

'i don't know where she's at
You should try calling back tomorrow'

From the window to the threshhold
This is the way we learn from our mistakes
You leave all your friends for someone you think you love

Through the for the better and the worse
My mind keeps going back to the first time i met you
How weeks after dating, i could never get ahold of you

'i don't know where she's at
You should try calling back tomorrow'

Come, o come
Come away, heather
Who is the boy
That you keep by your arm?

That drags a cat
Around by a tether
Who is the boy
That you keep by your arm?

I must say
He looks not familiar
Is he a stranger
From some other town?

The townfolks say
He looks quite peculiar
They've never seen
His kind come 'round

Tell me, o tell me
Will he be your husband?
Will you, o will you
Will you be his bride?

Will you stay in the house
& provide him with children?
Are you sure
He will not leave your side?

When tears fill your eyes
Whom shall you run to?
You can run
To the house on the hill

In this house
You will find me standing
By a window
Waiting for you

With both eyes closed I blew out his windows
A cheap shot I know but someone had to do it
It isn't like he deserves it that's easy for you to say
He's not our kind, he's not your type
Just look into his eyes

On my side of town
We let the lights go down
Get out our knives and go for a long drive
I'm nothing special, a yard sale collectable for your table
Eventually you'll too gather dust like the rest of us
Left out to rust

Tell me tongith, can we be magnetic
Lightning will strike and all of us will get in
Now that I'm social I'm at your disposal
A chair at the table
Eventually you'll too gather dust like the rest of us
Left out to rust

I am dead weight, I am no one.

You would notice I am a hurricane.

I drop houses my breath, my wind.

Strong like an oxen chained to a fence.

I will not vent lucky I guess.

Simple hello would've been nice
Instead you walked right by
I do recall we used to be friends
Has that slipped your mind

I used to call you on the telephone
Each and every night
Every time I see you with him
I think, "Why even try?"

Think I've had enough
Think I've lost my mind
This time

We used to be the best of friends
I guess now things have changed
Far too busy with your own friends
Do you still know my name

Think I've had enough
And I think I've lost control
So it goes

Think I've had enough
Think I've lost my mind

I drove from Montesano to Aberdeen.
From Aberdeen to Pacific Beach.
A pocket full of wrong numbers.
Has anybody seen Shannon Rhoads?

I see her from the window of my memory
Standing like an angel down the hall.
I'll call when I get home this evening.
Has anybody seen Shannon Rhoads?

Some say she moved in with her lover.
The man her mother could not stand.
"Ma he only hits me when he's angry."
Has anybody seen Shannon Rhoads?

Four miles from the highway they found her.
Lying in the tall grass by the road.
Murdered by the hands of her lover.
Goodbye, goodbye, Shannon Rhoads.

Yesterday I went out to her grave site
The same day that her lover stood his trial
At her grave I stood there and remembered
All my days with Shannon Rhodes.

Saturday
Blue eyes fading
Not a word, not one
You will say
‘It all has changed me.’
Now you’ve gone
Nothing left to see

Saturday
Sad eyes closing
Not a tear, not one
You will say,
‘Love can change me.’
And you were wrong
To think it could

There's a little rosewood casket
That is resting on the stand
There's a package of old letters
Written by my loved one's hand

Go and bring them to me, brother
Come and sit upon my bed
Lay your head upon my pillow
While each cherished line is read

Read them gently to me, brother
Read them 'til I fall asleep
For the sleep to wake in heaven
Oh dear brother do not weep

Last night I saw him walking
With a lady by his side
And I thought I heard him tell her
She could never be his bride

When at last I'm gone forever
And my friends are gathered round
And my narrow grave is ready
In some lonesome church yard ground

There's a little rosewood casket
That is resting on the stand
There's a package of old letters
Written by my loved one's hand

I’ll come down tomorrow morning
And meet you at our new location
In front of City Bookstore
Across the street from the railway station

She tells me how her night was spent
Nursing coffee and cigarettes
You waited til your husband left
To pack your things and off you went

He wouldn’t notice that you’d left
Til morning when the drink wore off
He stayed out all night with his friends
Never to return again

In front of City Bookstore
Across the street from the railway station
You show up with your suitcase
Ten dollars and a sad expression

She tells me that it’s all over now
She’s done her time and now she’s out
From the prison that she calls a house
Where she stayed put while he went out

She left him a note taped to the door
Saying, ‘Babe I won’t be back no more
I can’t find reasons for me to stay
Married to you and your cheating ways.’

Walked her out to the train
Couldn’t hide my pain
Or these tears that flow
From my eyes like rain
That September morning, 1959

She don't keep you moving
I know how to move you
Does it every time
You're gonna lose your mind

She don't keep you and [move you]
Presents you can't give her
She does it every time
She's gonna lose her mind
She's talking to herself at night