Every time I think of you I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find Living a life that I can't leave behind There's no sense in telling me The wisdom of a fool won't set you free But that's the way that it goes And it's what nobody knows While every day my confusion grows Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for that final moment You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good I'm feeling like I never should Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday I'm not sure what this could mean I don't think you're what you seem I do admit to myself That if I hurt someone else Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for that final moment You'll say the words that I can't say
I can't hide it, I can't fight it When every nerve is crying out for release I can't recapture The rapture That passion that is burning inside me I've lost so much Chasing the perfect high I've lost so much I've never been as high as I was with you Never been so high I've never been as high as I was with you I finally realized that's a perfect high That's a perfect high This hunger consumed me I lost my soul as you came rushing in my veins A pathetic little junkie But I'm the whore that needs it one last time I've lost so much Chasing the perfect high I've lost so much I've never been as high as I was with you Never been so high I've never been as high as I was with you I finally realized that's a perfect high That's a perfect high I've never been as high as I was with you Never been so high I've never been as high as I was with you I finally realized that's a perfect high That's a perfect high That's a perfect high That's a perfect high That's a perfect high
She's beem here so many times Before she can't remember When she last felt anything at all But this fear and anger She states intently at the door, Listens for his footsteps She knows exactly what's in store And the knowing makes it worse When he calls her daddy's little girl, She doesn't keep him And when he crushed her She can't feel her screems are silent Hides in the corner of her mind Where she plays contentedly She leaves this night more far behind Escapes inside her dreams
Floating high above her bed Staring at her father's head Wishing one of them were dead So this hell could finally end
I'm feeling that weight of the world and It's crushing me I'm feeling the weight of everyday life And it's crushing me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world...is crushing me I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me I'm feeling the hate of everyday life And it's crushing me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world is crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world is crushing me
I'm empty inside And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse And it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
what have I become?
everything's undone
a candle burns here in your honor my soul, a shrine i've built for you there's nothing left inside me nothing left inside but you And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
can't seem to pretend this night needs to end I can't fill this hole you are all i know And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse And it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
I'm tangled and broken Left scattered on the floor Its useless now There pieces Can never make me whole This is where it falls apart You wither You blister I watch you burn and peal It's not like you Can save me It's not like you even care This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything comes Crashing down on me This is where it falls apart This is where it falls apart
I feel your lips I taste your skin I need to know I need to feel you from within As your blood burns through my skin I feel complete I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If only I could stay here...forever So much to tell you So much to confide Now that I'm inside you We are flesh We are one So why do I feel so much guilt for what I've done? As your blood burns through my skin I feel release I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If I could only stay here...forever So much to tell you So much to give you So much to confide Now that I'm inside you inside you
I am not here I think I've never been here at all or ever will be I feel like a place Where no one goes anymore Why can't you see that everything's Why does it seem this life's broken? turned gray? I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe that I am real It seems so bizarre But none of this matters Thoughts disappear, hope has died Now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here Why can't you see my need for forgiveness? The truth and the lies confused as one I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe in anything I am alone Locked in my memories Why does it seem that everything's different? Why does it seem that only you are real? I don't believe in anything sacred So, why do I feel so damned alone? I need someone to break the silence That's screaming in my head And in my soul
you make it hard to breathe it's as if I'm suffocating and when you're next to me I can feel your heartbeat through my skin it makes me sad to think this could all be for nothing I wish there was a way a way for you to see inside me I've never felt this way about anyone or anything Tell me! what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do?
I know exactly what you're thinking but I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be that was a part of me that never made me proud right now I think I would try anything anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope you see what losing you would do to me all I want is one more chance, tell me what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do?
what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do
If only see myself reflected in your eyes So all that I believe I am essentially are lies And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I Died with your belief in me so who that hell am I? I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you?
I'm wondering 'round confused Wondering why I try The more that you deny my pain The more it intensifies... I need someone to ache for me the way I ache for you... If you ignore that I'm alive I've nothing to cling to I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you?
I stare in this mirror So tired of this life If only you would speak to me or care if I'm alive Once I swore I would die for you But I never meant it like this I never meant like this no i never meant like this I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you?
I'm such an asshole God, I'm such a stain I just keep fucking up again and again I Don't Believe I Don't Believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I Don't Believe I Don't Believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me You crawled into my mind when you crawled into my bed Said everyhting I've ever longed to hear So perfect, so alive, once inside you sucked me dry Used me up and left me here for dead I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me I crave it desperately, a cancer eating me An addiction too intense to be denied Worthless, I'm a whore, crawling back for more It's pathertic how I feed off this abuse I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me
You told me that you loved me And I believed, you loved me You swore that you loved me, and I believed Now I know it was a lie
I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me
Sit alone, contemplating What is missing inside me I desperately try to remember A life that's not meant to be I meditate and try to recapture Some sense of reality But I look around I've seen numb empty faces The world is waiting to die And this apathy is so suffocating The slow decay of my mind I've searched the world For someone with answers The questions that are plagueing me I scream in vain at anyone who'll listen But everybody's watching TV Is anyone alive? But am I lost in a world where nothing matters? Am I lost in a world where no one cares? Is anyone alive? Is anyone alive? But are we lost in a world where nothing matters? Are we lost in a world where no one cares? Is anyone alive? Is anyone alive?
I feel it slipping away I gave it all and no one cared I feel it slipping away I got it slipping away I gave it all and no one cared I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away No more pain, no more fear I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away
I just can't learn to forget Now I'm choking on the memories Choking on regret I tried but I can't find a way To untangle all the pieces After they've been thrown away I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away
I will not suffer this loss Of you again and again and again I refuse to continue to live In this perpetual nightmare I decide it ends right here I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping... slipping Everything is slipping away
Tomorrow came too soon I barely made it through today Still empty inside I guess that nothing's really changed I'm still afraid to feel Cause I cannot take the pain I'm still afraid to feel Afraid to loose someone again I wish that somehow I could leave my past behind My fears behind If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in Every drop of you Guess it's time to face the truth And admit my past mistakes Come to terms with all that's wrong with me And all the things I'll never be Why am I afraid to feel? Afraid of what is true? Why am I afraid to feel? When all I really want is you To taste your skin, to share your thoughts Could never be enough for me If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in Every drop of you If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in If I could only breathe you in Every drop of you Of you
I believed that love was sacred As I dove blindly into her sea You see, that warm embrace felt more like drowning As endless waves crashed over me She was an insatiable black hole Feeding off my mind and off my soul I found love humilating Sick and desperate need that drives me God I hope I'm never feel again But I've never been loved by an angel I never felt anything so pure But I've never been loved by an angel Until tonight, when your heaven filled my world She showed me love could lift me higher And with a kiss she repaired these broken wings She revived my fading spirit Restored my faith in everything I have never felt I had a home Even in a crowd I felt alone I've almost given up on life I believed that I'm alive I never thought I'm ever feel again But I've never been loved by an angel I never felt anything so pure But I've never been loved by an angel Until tonight, when your heaven filled my world I believed in nothing But you believe in me I thought that life was worthless But you taught me I was strong God I've never been loved by an angel I never felt anything so pure God I've never been loved by an angel Until tonight, when your heaven filled my world Until tonight, when your heaven filled my world
All I need is the air you breathe All I need is the air I breathe All I need is the air we breathe All I need is the air I breathe There're so many things we need so desperately And the TV preaches we can't live without them But tell me what is need I'll tell you what I believe If I owned the world without you it would all be worthless Cause you are everything The only thing that matters You are everything The only thing I need You are everything The only thing that matters Cause you are everything You are the air I breathe What if someday we took all their toys away You think they'd find the strength to go on living Cause deep inside I know if I lost everything I owned I'd be a king as long as you're beside me Cause you are everything The only thing that matters Cause you are everything The only thing I need Our love is everything The only thing that matters Cause you are everything You are the air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe I hope someday they find a place to bid online Where all lost souls can buy their life some meaning I know we´ll survive all we need's more time As long as we've got love and art and the ocean And you are everything The only thing that matters You are everything There's nothing else I need Our love is everything The only thing that matters Cause you are everything You are the air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe You are everything The only thing that matters You are everything There's nothing else I need Cause you are everything The only thing that matters Our love is everything You are the air I breathe You are everything You are the air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe The air I breathe
I know you've grown to hate me Even more than you have grown to hate yourself But has it really made a difference sharing all that hate with someone else Please tell me are you really happy? Do you think he's really worth the pain? Tell me are you really happy? Did you simply throw our life away Just to be unhappy? Does he worship and adore you Does he make you feel so beautifully complete? Is your life so much better now? Or do the same old demons haunt your sleep? Please tell me are you really happy? Do you think he's really worth the pain? Tell me are you really happy now? Did you simply throw our life away Just to be unhappy Just to be unhappy? Is he everything you've dreamed of? I imagine he is so much more than me You know I tried to make you happy But I believe you thrive on misery So please tell me are you really happy? Do you think he's really worth the pain? Tell me are you really happy? Did you simply throw our life away Just to be unhappy Just to be unhappy Just to be unhappy
I've spent my life running from an emptiness that haunts me And I've spent my whole life trying to fuck the loneliness away And I die inside when I think of all the people I have damaged And I'm tired, I'm so tired And there's no one else except myself to blame My life's been wasted (Everything is gone) My life's been wasted (And I am all alone) My life's been wasted (There is no one else) My life's been wasted (It's time I face myself) And I've spent my life trapped inside a cycle of self destruction And I've spent my whole life trying to numb the pain inside my soul And tonight I cry when I realized how fucked this world would blow up I'm tired, I'm so fucking tired Gonna find a way to keep my faith alive My life's been wasted (Everything is gone) My life's been wasted (And I am all alone) My life's been wasted (There is no one else) My life's been wasted (It's time I face myself) When I reach the end Will anything I've done mean anything? Now when I reach the end Will anything I've done mean anything? Will anything I've done mean anything? Will anything I've done mean anything? My life's been wasted (Everything is gone) My life's been wasted (And I am all alone) My life's been wasted (There is no one else) My life's been wasted My life's been wasted (Everything is gone) My life's been wasted (And I am all alone) My life's been wasted (There is no one else) My life's been wasted (It's time I face myself)
Do you ever wonder where we would be if we had tried a little harder It seems like yesterday that we were making plans for the future But it's been so long since I have mourned the dreams these dreams we've left abandoned And I'm haunted by your face and the memory of your kisses, sweet kisses Do you remember? I still remember so much I remember never feeling so alive Do you remember? I still can't forget your touch We swore that we would never end We knew our love transcended space and time These memories slip away The ghost of what we were is fading But there is no more pain, which is funny cause that night I was dying I was dying Now I don't even recognize the girl I swore that someday I would marry But I can't forget her face and I can't forget her kisses, sweet kisses Do you remember? I still remember so much I remember always feeling so alive Do you remember? I still can't forget your touch We swore that we would never end We knew our love transcended space and time Do you remember? I still remember so much I remember never feeling so alive Do you remember? I still can't forget your touch How we swore that we would never be alone Do you remember? I still remember so much I remember never feeling so alive Do you remember? Cause I still can't forget your touch How we swore that we would never end We knew our love transcended space and time We swore that we would never end We knew our love transcended space and time
Lately I've noticed how much you've changed Even though you swear you're the same So why do I feel a million miles away? And why do I feel like we're broken? Why can't it be perfect like we used to be? Why can't we be perfect? Why can't it be perfect like it used to be? Why can't we be perfect? Perfect is how I once described our love But that was before we fell apart So why do I feel a million miles away? And why do I feel like we're broken? Why can't it be perfect like it used to be? Why can't we be perfect? Why can't we it perfect like it used to be? Why can't we be perfect? We used to be perfect We used to be perfect We used to be perfect We used to be perfect
Lately I've noticed how much you've changed Even though you swear you're the same Why can't it be perfect like it used to be? Why can't we be perfect? Why can't it be perfect like it used to be? Why can't we be perfect? We used to be perfect We used to be perfect We used to be perfect We used to be perfect
