Key Note, Joelle - Devotional Essay
"Doers of The Word“
I look in the mirror. I look into my face. My eyebrow is twitching. My anxious heart turns and moves up the water. The water of the mind that is lifted up from a well endlessly is my greed not just the water.
Describing anxiety and anxiety in the name of worry is my undecided mind and my life. What I wish to wish and want to own are unknown things I have never experienced. I covet what I don't know, even though I'm anxious about what I can't control. Why am I digging endlessly when I'm afraid something will tie me up and force me to do things I don't want to do? This way of thinking cause conflicts and suffering from facing myself in a mysterious world. Being distant from compassion and respect, I don't think I know who I am. I am full of fear. I'm afraid I'm going to lose myself by putting the world far apart. And I get angry not knowing what or who this is happening for, The greed has put me at an edge where I thought I am the spotlight. Many thoughts crowded up in my mind is like the water that is splashing all over being very delicately sensitive. I am at this point because I see myself in the mirror.
Why am I looking at myself? Do I accept who I am and the reflection in the mirror? Is the reflection I see through the mirror a real beauty of my face? It seems to be a bit twisted because of living in harsh reality? Is it me in a mirror whose lip seems to be awkward even when smiling? I stood infront of the mirror facing the weakness as a human being moving my eyebrows with fluttering lip in anxiety. Did my father really create me this way? Probably not. No He didn't. The perfection of the Father God who created me reveals his identity by the words engraved in my heart not the mask covered in my face.
Trusting my Father, I believe in the Father who is in me. This training of faith helps me to be patient. The worldly standard of good or bad doesn't apply but rather the Word of God which makes it perfect. What is complete? To be perfect I am building up the solid word, the solid word that doesn't shake or tremble. And I move and take steps by the Word. I pray and pray that I will be complete in heart and long to be in that place where I am going, I will accomplish all things that I lack in by the perfection of faith.
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