Devotional Essay
"Embrace“
Eyes are drawn to the sight of Paul who repeats to leave and leave again.
How did Paul feel about the farewells with hugs and kisses? Before Paul met the Lord, following his steps in the footsteps of Jesus and was obedient before His name, didn’t he repeat himself the process to go on in life with his shame and gain at the same time? Didn’t he cry out the name of Jesus again at the edge of the memory when he collapsed?
That's how I feel. I try to pour out my heart when I am at a stage of struggling and feeling shaky but then my shameful thoughts of memories come back and urges me to go on.It is like that there is no place to lean my head on an express train that goes up and down dozens of times a day.
His journey to Suria by boat facing Cyprus and staying at Ptolemais for a week followed by continuous journey to Caesarea was endless. I see passion in his journey, where he had nowhere to rest his head. It is only Jesus who he could rely and lean on and turn to. He rested his life on the Lord.
I am so tired that I want to rest my head on something. Whoever may be, I wish to lean my head on someone. It is my Lord, who will be the one for me to rest my head on his shoulder. But the Lord is too far away and yet too close in my heart which makes me feel a bit awkward to lean on. It would be nice to follow the footsteps of the Lord, as time goes by and as there are more continuous steps in the passage of time.
Through the journey of Paul’s mission, I am inspired to open up the endless path to my life where I wanted to stop and rest.
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