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2003년 4월 19일.
같은 수업을 듣는 후배들과 '기억속에서 날아오르다'라는 이름의 한국민주화운동사료 전국순회전시회에 다녀오게 되었다. 나 초등학교 다닐적에 XXX씨가 대통령을 해먹던 그 시절에 대학생이었던 나의 삼촌은 제대할 때 신고온 군화를 신고 데모를 했었네. 두세시쯤에 학교에서 집에 돌아와 골목에서 친구들과 놀고있을 때 시내에서 터진 최루탄에 눈이 맵고 피부가 따가와 수돗물로 눈을 헹구고 방에 들어와야만 했었네. 삼촌과 꽤 나이차이가 많이 나시는 우리 아버지께서는 삼촌에게 앞장서서 데모하지만 말아달라는 걱정섞인 격려의 말씀을 하셨던 것 같네. # 무자비하게 시민들을 짓밟았던 전투화 복종해야만 했던 군인들의 머리위엔 XXX 비리와 부정부패로 수놓인 아름다운 대한민국을 건국한... 물통에 물받아 63빌딩 모형을 만들어 서울이 물바다 된다던 구라가 순진한 국민을 혼란에 빠뜨렸었네. 평화의 댐 건설 명목으로 내 코묻은 돈 500원을 빼았아간 그 일도 나에겐 그저 저 안에 남아있는 잘모르는 기억일 뿐이었는데.. 그저 커나가며 XXX은 개새끼라는 생각이 지배했을 뿐.. 그저 그것은 나에게 기억일 뿐이었는데.. * 개소리 좀 하지말어 당신 통장에 삼십만원? 앨범이 적자난 내 통장에도 백삼십만원. 골프는 어찌치나 돈없으면 당신의 옛 친구들과 자치기나.. 국민들을 재밌게 해주려고 한 코미디? 재밌게 웃었지만 그건 개소리지. 목숨이 없기에 현실에선 숨쉴수 없는 죽은 비둘기와 아직 숨을 쉬고 있는.. 흑백사진들.. 소리가 들리는 것 같아 함성이 들려. 동영상으로 재생되는 자료보다도 더욱 슬프고 아프게 다가오는 흑백사진과 주석. 총, 비둘기의 날개짓, 피흘리는 비둘기, 시체를 땅바닥에 질질 끌고 가는 군인들.. 캐터필러의 굉음, 그리고 XXX의 얼굴... * 개소리 좀 하지말어 당신 통장에 삼십만원? 앨범이 적자난 내 통장에도 백삼십만원. 골프는 어찌치나 돈없으면 당신의 옛 친구들과 자치기나.. 국민들을 재밌게 해주려고 한 코미디? 재밌게 웃었지만 그건 개소리지. 목숨이 없기에 현실에선 숨쉴수 없는 죽은 비둘기와 아직 숨을 쉬고 있는.. 난 근로자가 아니기에 나 그 시절의 아픔을 제대로 겪어보지않았기에 내가 느끼는 이 감정과 혼돈의 슬픔은 배부른 시건방짐일지도 모르겠네. 무지개빛 세상을 꿈꾸며 자유와 민주화를 부르짖었던 그들이 이제 흑백필름과 사진으로 남아있지만 그들이 있기에 나 이정도의 무지개빛 세상에서 날고있는 것이리라. # 무자비하게 시민들을 짓밟았던 전투화 복종해야만 했던 군인들의 머리위엔 XXX 비리와 부정부패로 수놓인 아름다운 대한민국을 건국한... *개소리 좀 하지말어 당신 통장에 삼십만원? 앨범이 적자난 내 통장에도 백삼십만원. 골프는 어찌치나 돈없으면 당신의 옛 친구들과 자치기나.. 국민들을 재밌게 해주려고 한 코미디? 재밌게 웃었지만 그건 개소리지. 목숨이 없기에 현실에선 숨쉴수 없는 죽은 비둘기와 아직 숨을 쉬고 있는.. 내눈에 살짝 고인 이 눈물이 의미하듯 감사해. 우리는 죽음과 자유를 바꾼 이들의 영혼에 부끄럽지 않은 세상을 만들어 가야해. |
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what are those freaks to replace our bet - they quoted a lie
where have they gone now ? - control yourself and calm it down "I am called to be your leader" our arms aligned and then we reload we go now to the border stay here - no surrender for we don??짠??짙???? wanna kill??짠??짙창???m I??짠??짙??쩍 not aware, but I care - do remind me but when we came forth - their hidden place - a ruin without hope and one for all they decide to hate and not to lose "who is called to be your leader ?" "we killed him first -now we won't give up!" |
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| 4:17 |
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well here's now some world news I'm gonna tell you
I still hide it deep inside, but I no longer can fuck blessed for all what you once said, I can't even argue what is it now, what will you do ? You'll cheat yourself ! but maybe I'm a fool, for I believed in true love now all you brought to life is dying by your hell won't waste another day I'm here to run away - ahead won't feel you, just see you, I'm only after I don't mind to, but miss you, I'm only after I denied you, it relieves you, that I'm only after still love you, it won't help you I'm still only after you one day we'll come to terms that reason wasn't bad for it made us great and tall but never feel aware but peace of mind will never come, so dark but far true as long as we deny we need a heart instead (as well) don't waste another day I'm here to run away - ahead |
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| 3:16 |
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When i was young and self assured
I wanna get the level i adored A faith in god that people share They might believe but i don? even care I shaped my ways right out of here They try to scare me but they won? get near But how it works - that i won? forget - What you deserve ain`t what you get Where the hand goes down tonight Feel the way you will decide Where the hand goes down tonight They will try to drown ? And now we?e here what have we found Like all the others as they hit the ground We?e different now but in the end We?e all engaged to reincarnate in sand |
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| 2:04 |
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there was a time when home was home
things couldn??짠??짙???? come to be alone weather was fine and moods were high some in the distance tried to fly but suddenly a storm did wake woke up with pain - too much to take the ashes fly and fruits are bruised we can??짠??짙???? deny - something we would use Debbie wants to go far away far away from home, no rules to break Debbie wants to know how the angels fly Debbie wants to live and rest a while and now she??짠??짙창?" gone away, her parents cry and if they only could they would retry but debbie she has learned how angels fly she left her life and died, but who knows why rest a while |
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| 5:08 |
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please explain why others show what some don't even know
in this game we're high above ourselves and we just flow you could stand right where you are and you don't do anything or make a plan to change a thing that makes us all survive stupid rage, no gain in words - that they just hear themselves I try in vain to keep it silent when they're all awake all they't learned is how they need a god and how they blow all this mud - explained and told to dust before my eyes somehow I need a Jesus for my plan to save the world and all that shit - I can't control myself, I'tjust a sacred cramp ! to break would be immoral, but explain to me what'tright ?I don't regret that sometimes I feel strange and what I do is wrong I can't complete the world and when you'tl ask me all I'll do is lie it'tstraight to happen just before my eyes no greater love can't help the fear I hide why can't I change a thing before my eyes sometimes I wish that I could be so blind |
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| 3:59 |
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something has happened and now I磎 insecure
and downstairs the pain grows I will loose control I smell her armpits but I do need her soul I could be so generous, but now it磗 time to die no one could help her and no one will hear her cries and I live to save her from me Iç£l keep her so precious and I磎 her god tonight then Iç£l be calm and patient , will only take the night I could be generous to her , but now it磗 time to die no one could help her I know it and no one hears her cries and I live to save her from I exist to protect her from me now there she lies in bed and I磎 the one who will find her it磗 time to go that fuckin blade in my hand will bless her and take her higher she磗 gorgeous and all I see is blood on the ground I磎 feeling dizzy - I think my time is out blessed for that she did fool me and now it磗 time for me to say goodbye to her I hear the laughter around me and I can磘 find the well something has happened and now I磎 insecure and I live to protect her from what the fuck was going wrong |
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| 4:09 |
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oh fuck you're still alive - I'm glad to see you again
oh I'm really scared, I swear that I failed to know I hear you say that I never seemed to love you and when I'm asleep I don't want to hear you ? and I don't know that I saw you drown and I don't know what I saw and I don't know.... you drowned oh you never saw, I bleed to keep you unknown no you would never know, what I felt: left all alone and I lied to please the crowd that I belong to as well and I lied ?. crawl out and share the love I can't explain the anger and that once I used to know That I was the one who tried to escape Tried to hold you back in my head and I didn't want to hurt you and I didn't want to hear you and I didn't want to leave you and couldn't even reach you and I lied - so I lied - never lied |
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| 3:24 | 
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| 10. |
| 2:55 |
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once I thought that I could tone it down
the way that life comes 'round - that day, that freak, somehow I can't explain I won't ignore the same wrong again i'tnot gonna find a reason why I'd turn it 'round but now I leave it all behind and wind this up around the neck too much time we waste to find a way that always shows us how but sometimes it'tlike they won't let you out and you will be your slave - wrong again I'tnot gonna find a reason why I'd turn it 'round and I believed that I could swim but now I'tgonna drown to the sound of so much self - I know that I would hate myself and so I leave it all behind and wind this up - around the neck |
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| 4:33 |
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one desperate morning in a desperate week
you stand before me can??짠??짙???? you see I'm in need words are so crazy and I want to wash away the pain from my insistence see , you could never lie what are you gonna try ? see , you could never run love - things, they have to come what is this life for, I just want to seek for something special I refuse to speak (about) loaded up rifle in my hands might break that kind of love and maybe me after all you said to me - I hope I am released care for your agony and go to make your aims be real, but the one I tried to keep has gone away |
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| 4:29 |
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she arrives like she always has arrived
to light up the hidden and the failed beam bright, keeps warm, alive , until It dries - the infusion fails but when it dies, that damn rose, you could see it , but you??짠??짙????l never hear a sigh and when it dies there??짠??짙창?" no more you can do, than mourn and fade your smile when it dies?. born fine, prepared to stand the rain rewind won't help the defaced whatever you could say to it whatever you could do about it ??짜??????짭eutralized |
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| 10:15 |
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