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I gave up on you a long time ago
How can you blame me? We made plans to meet and you never showed You kept me waiting They said everything would work out just fine They said you'd help me But as it turns out it was all a lie And they're off someplace far away laughing at me You've been there for me one time in my life But it didn't matter You came and went so fast all my hope And faith in you shattered And now here I sit, alone in this room No one to confide in You watched all my dreams come apart at the seams You laughed, you left, you waited in hiding Bless me dark father, I have sinned I've done it before and I'll do it again Cause it keeps me warm, and makes you smile Been beneath me all the while, hell yes You gave up on me a long time ago I can't say I blame you I rejected the faith in your holy rays Is what it comes down to They said everything would work out just fine I just went crazy But I'm better now having a good time Being selfish and drunken and vulgar and lazy Bless me dark father, I have sinned I've done it before and I'll do it again Cause it keeps me warm, and makes you smile Been beneath me all the while Bless me dark father, I can't win Without you I'm as good as dead Cause you keep me warm, you make me smile You've been on my shoulder all the while Whispering sweet nothings You've been whispering sweet nothings |
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I thought that you were joking
When you said you couldn't breathe You said you couldn't breathe Turns out that you were choking On a town you couldn't leave You knew you'd never leave It met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old You were only 8 years old From then on there was no removal From that one way dead end road That one way dead end road I thought that you were laughing When you cried your eyeballs out You cried your eyeballs out And I don't mean to be prying But what were you so sad about? What are you still sad about? Met your disappointment at the age of 9 years old You were only 9 years old From then on there would be no ointment To take away these burns To make that pain grow dull And forever ain't that long When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song All you think about is death Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long now I thought that you were sleeping When I found you there in bed I found you there in bed When I touched you you were freezing It turned out that you were dead Turned out that you were dead Met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old You were only 8 years old From then on there was no removal From your fucked up head Your broken home And forever ain't that long When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song All you think about is death Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long now |
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It's been a long time since I've been close to you
It's been a long time since I've been sad It's been a while since I've really spent time with you Wish I could take back the times that I had The only thing that you ever really did for me Was make me oh so miserable And the hope that I never see your face again Is anything but questionable I hope this is goodbye There was a time when I thought you were a friend to me I think those times I was probably just drunk And if they offered a test about being a good friend I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk The only thing that you ever really took from me Were my records to sell them for dope Now all I have left is this heart in my chest And my happiness helping me cope I hope this is goodbye It's been a long time since I've been close to you It's been a long time since I've been sad It's been a while since I've really spent time with you Wish I could take back the times that I had The only thing that you ever really did for me Was make me oh so miserable And the hope that I never see your face again Is anything but questionable There was a time that I thought you were a friend to me I think those times I was probably just drunk And if they offered a test about being a good friend I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk The only thing that you ever really took from me Were my records to hawk them for dope Now all I have left is this heart in my chest Your dishonesty helping me cope I hope this is goodbye |
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There's a fire forming
Not too far from here Out on the East Coast Maybe it resides in you my dear We're worn out on our courtesy We've made our curtain calls Like vampire bats deprived of blood Into the New York City night we crawl And you've got a funny way of showing off Your bathroom surgery You said you were just cooling down From plans of leaving me There's something I should tell you For we may not have much time I've never met arms like yours The stars at night are big and bright Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent You told me once I made you smile We both know damn well I didn't I'm not much of a jester But I'd test poison food for you Your majesty, you're royal blue I'm loyalty, your king of pain There's a hard rain falling Flooding your attic, it's clear Can't put out the fire That resides in you, my dear There's something I should tell you For we may not have much time I've never seen scars like yours The stars at night are big and bright Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent You told me once I made you smile We both know damn well I didn't I'm not much of a jester But I'd test poison food for you Your majesty, you're royal blue I'm loyalty, your king of pain |
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There's a hope in my head
That's been cut and bled Dry as your bloodshot eyes And there's smoke in the air And it's soon to clear Revealing our demise There are some who say That it's a-ok If it makes you feel alright This is way too bad Now you're worse than sad All locked up there inside And I don't know how you feel But I'll make you a deal If u make it out alive My shoulders and ears Are all yours my dear I hope it comes as no surprise You've been know to say that you're a-ok When you're feeling sick inside I just want you to know I've got no place to go Until the day you die While you're waiting Be thankful for your fingers I'll be fading With the colors of your pictures I'm not crying wolf, you whispered I'm really dead this time I'm really dead this time There's a hope in my head That's been cut and bled Dry as your bloodshot eyes And there's smoke in the air And it's soon to clear Revealing our demise You've been know to say that you're a-ok When you're feeling dead inside I just want you to know I've got no place to go Until the day you die While you're waiting Be thankful for your fingers I'll be fading With the colors of your pictures I'm not crying wolf you whispered I'm really dead this time I'm really dead this time They locked you up They threw away the key Sutured your mouth shut Murdered your family Right before your eyes What could you do? Right before your eyes They took it all from you Contemplating You hanging from your ceiling Can't help hating You for having that feeling I'm not joking when I tell you I miss you all the time I already miss you all the time |
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I got the scars to remind me
I've watched the clocks go round I've walked myself through some days That have put me where I am Un another time, in another place All things might have been in place But for now I'm finding myself Out here standing on a rooftop screaming Hey world are you, listening? Listening to me? I'm here and I'm hurting To begin again It's another time, it's another place We are making more old days But for now I'm finding myself Out here standing on the doorstep screaming Hey world are you, listening? Listening to me? I'm here and I'm hurting To begin again Hey world, I'm ready to listen Learn something new I'm here and I'm willing To get myself through |
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I got these thoughts in my head
Dirty as fuck and never leaving And they're best left unsaid All the drinks under breath Got some shit off my chest Put on my back next to the monkey nest That somebody left With me the day I was born I got a hole in my head The size of lake fucking Michigan My pipe's lined in lead Got old school reasons to die All my money's been spent On a face lift via alcohol As this sinner repents To an empty bathroom reflection Please take these words And do with them what you would like It's a dream I had, it drove me mad It's just your time, it's just my fucking life I got a bottle in hand Straight to the ground with all my memories It's best left unsaid When they've all been left behind All my money's been spent On a DIY lobotomy This sinner repents To a lake and bathroom mirror Please take these words And do with them what you would like It's a dream I had, it drove me mad It's just your time, it's just my fucking life So take these words And do with them what you would like The dream you had, it drove me mad It's just your time, it's just my fucking life And that's my life Over and over again It's just my fucking life It might seem meaningless to you But it means everything to me And I'm fucked without you Please take these words And do with them what you would like The dream I had, it drove me mad It's just your time, it's just my fucking life And that's my life Over and over again It's just my fucking life |
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I can't go on
You set my head too heavy I need that song Those trusty chords could pull me through And early on They saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long We'd sit and dream of better days When we'd hit the ground running on empty Stories we've been told And those nights we spent together Never felt this fucking cold When we let the car run in the driveway Kiss you one last time Before we brought the horses in before The storm of 59, of 59 I can't go on These limbs have grown too heavy I need that song A night on earth could pull me through And early on They saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long Wonder how far from here we'll fall Before we hit the ground running on empty Stories we've been told And those nights we spent together Never felt this fucking cold When we let the car run in the driveway Kiss you one last time Before we brought the horses in before The storm of 59, of 59 |
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Well, I'll sit here to convince myself its true
If you keep on telling your friends that we're through I've got nothing here but loneliness Holes in walls and bleeding fists My head is pounding like a pillow Like a big black song My friends and I try to tell me you're gone Won't listen to myself or anyone You got on a plane and off you went You're never coming back again I'm trying to convince myself it's true Convincing myself I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be here telling myself it's true Well I sit here to convince myself its true If you keep on pretending to have no clue That I'd kill for you and eat the flesh Give you the heart and burn the rest A thousand miles ain't shit to walk If I'm walking to hold you I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be just fine without you I'll be here telling myself it's true |
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Sit down and please make yourself comfortable
I might need some time To dance around what I need to say I love you to death, I think I need a break I spend my days worried out loud I gag in my head, I choke it back down It hurts me inside to save you inside So close my lips tight, move eyes to the side This is the way we disappear It's easy if you burn out like a star This is the way we disappear It's easy like a 50-foot fall I'm waiting for whatever bit of time To evict these words that, that have rented out my mind I'm hating every minute that I don't speak aloud Like a year laying down, a year laying down Relax on this bed of nails On this plastic sheet, your blood leaves a trail Right back to me, a problem you see Would you please allow a moment to think? This is the way we disappear It's easy if you burn out like a star This is the way we disappear It's easy like a 50-foot fall I'm waiting for whatever bit of time To evict these words that, that have rented out my mind I'm hating every minute that I don't speak aloud Like a year laying down, a year laying down |
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A deep dark secret down at the bottom
But this bay can't keep it unforgotten And a story that was told has now grown taller than we'd ever wish to be Beyond belief I'll grab the boat if you go grab the anchor The tarp and twine and the weights that sank her They weren't enough, look who showed up A new light shed is shining through, illuminating you As we lay side by side, dead and broken Our lives aren't the same since the night yours went stolen. Blood ran black beneath the moonlight, your lover's blood ran cold Cutting off the hands he used to hold A deep dark secret down at the bottom But this bay can't keep it unforgotten And a story that was told has now grown taller than we'd ever want to be Beyond belief Side by side, dead and broken Our lives aren't the same since the night yours went stolen. Blood ran black beneath the moonlight, your lover's blood ran cold Cutting off the hands he used to hold |
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You're on your own my little nightmare
you cannot stay here It's far too bright for you If they attack you just lay there, Play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through. And seconds they seem like a lifetime. A dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true. And they'll pin it all on you after all you've been put through. ""Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"" That's what the white coats say. Now Ms. Susan A. you're losing every opportunity to put us all away. Now run along my little nightmare. Your job is done here. You've scared them all to death. If they revive them just sit there. Just smile dear. Make them thankful for every breath. The sentence may seem like a lifetime, a scream, that's curdling the blood they found on you. And your knives and clothing too. Charlie's broken .22 ""Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"" That's what the white coats say. Now Ms. Susan A. you're losing every opportunity. Well they found you and they shipped you up the river the same way that you've bound and gaged. You've shot and stab. You tried to set them free, but they've thrown away the keys. [Spoken:] ""He represented a God to me that was so beautiful that I'd do anything for him. I'd do anything for God. Even murder, if I believed it was right. How could it not be right if it is done with love? I have no remorse for doing what was right to me. I have no guilt in me."" Whoa Whoa Whoa Whoa |
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If you had a bad time
At one of my parties Well I wouldn't expect to be seeing you soon And that's fine You have to know what and why Those things make you happy You have to know that a second guess Ain't worth a try Just some words of advice Maybe you've heard them before but here goes Just be true to yourself If it lands you in hell, well at least now you know Loud and clear is your heart Big and bright are the places you might someday go With one million things holding you down Why you're one of those things, I don't know No big deal, gotta go If you're up to your ears In blood, sweat, and wasted years I'm hoping you're going to open your throat And just scream You have to know who and why Which ones miss you when you die You have to know that a second guess Ain't worth the salt in your eyes Just some words of advice Maybe you've heard them before but here goes Just be true to yourself If it lands you in hell, well at least now you know Loud and clear is your heart Big and bright are the places you might someday go With one million things holding you down Why you're one of those things, I don't know No big deal It just sits on my shoulders, you're breaking my neck We get crazy with age, now you're under my bed And it s dark all the time Just some words of advice Maybe you've heard them before but here goes Just be true to yourself If it lands you in hell, well at least now you know Loud and clear is your heart Big and bright are the places you might someday go With one million things holding you down Why you're one of those things, I don't know No big deal, here I go |
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Don't you ask me to come out
When the sun does shine Rather stay here with curtains drawn In darkness you'll be mine Let's wait for the blackout The light is too bright Let's wait for the blackout Wait for the night Well welcome to my basement flat No windows to see through When darkness falls again, my friend We'll both know what to do Let's wait for the blackout The light is too bright Let's wait for the blackout Wait for the night Wait for the blackout The light is too bright Let's wait for the blackout Wait for the night Come walk with me upon the earth It keeps us both alive No other thing can last in here Where we can both survive Let's wait for the blackout The light is too bright Let's wait for the blackout Wait for the night In darkness there is no sin Light only brings in fear Nothing to corrupt the eyes There is no vision here At first you may find it strange But please don't go away There's power in the nighttime That you won't find in the day There is no vision here There is no vision here No vision here |
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We can never break up, we can never not show
We can never go home and we can never elope We've only got one choice So let's keep making it and making it, making it and making it A lot of things can change, a lot of tears will dry There's no way out of your head, I can't still drink like I'm trying I never had to work too hard But let's keep working it and working it, working it and working it You're like a test I can't fuck up You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la You're ike a dream, don't wake me up And if I never see the light again I guess they put me in the ground with this smile on my head My love, my love We can never break up, we can never not show We can never go home and we can never elope We've only got one choice So let's keep making it and making it, making it and making it You're like a test I can't fuck up You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la You're ike a dream, don't wake me up And if I never see the light again I guess they put me in the ground with this smile on my head |
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It's a girl in here, not as sweet as you
It's a guy like me, some bad tattoos An empty bar filling up with smoke And I fry in the ashes, I'm 3 days old So please don't say you wont be going out today Cause anywhere I go won't be anything if you're not hanging around It's the blackest cloud, it opens up When I walk outside, and I'm all alone An empty cell, the furnace chokes, When I walk through the door of my broken home So please don't say you wont be going out today Cause anywhere I go won't be anything if you're not hanging around Please don't say you won't Please don't say you won't |
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I'm awake, it was a half bad dream
That was way too long, my whole life it seemed Then someone started digging me up Turned my headstone into dust The sun was swallowed by the trees The night was here for good You pulled my hand and my head up You put oxygen into my blood You walked me through the gates Like we were visitors for the day You laid me down in the back seat And you drove till I woke up to hear you say You never lie but it's no fun to tell the truth I guess I've never loved but I will see what I can do Got so much life to waste That I would take my days and hand them to you I'm awake, it was a half bad dream That was way too long, my whole life it seemed Then someone started digging me up Turned my headstone into dust I know you'd never lie but it's no fun to tell the truth I guess I've never loved but I will see what I can do Got so much life to waste That I would take my days and hand them to you |
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It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick I took a long walk straight back home I could've walked back to San Francisco I used to long for time alone I used to long for a place of my own and I'm losing faith in everything I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost at sea, you see I used to long for broken bones I used to long for a casket to call my own I never had a problem facing fear but I'm done, over and out my dear and Oh mercy me God bless catastrophe There's no way in hell We'll ever live to see through this so Drive yourself insane tonight It's not that far away and I just filled up your tank earlier today Yeah! It's been a long day living with this It's been a long time since I felt so sick I took a long walk straight back home I could've walked back to Chicago I used to long for time alone I used to long for a place of my own and I've lost faith in everything I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost without you Oh mercy me God bless catastrophe There's no way in hell We'll ever live to see through this so Drive yourself insane tonight It's not that far away and I just filled up your tank earlier today Yeah! So drive yourself insane tonight It's not that far away and I just filled up your tank earlier today Yeah! |
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Calling all cars, all coroners, we've got a dead one here
And anybody else receiving this, the west coast is far from clear Like a time bomb or sudden death It's gonna find you when you least expect It's gonna leave you with the emptiest feeling inside (over analyzed) They found me face-down in the street on the night you left to find, Another place to sleep in rain and regret They said they tried everything but it was no use Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you Falling like stars into the ocean black, we're gonna disappear And anything left recognizable is rubbed away with fear We've got our hearts dipped in time release We've got the know-how and the elbow grease We've got our victim all cut up down here on the floor (over and out the door) They found me face down in the street on the night you left to find, Another place to sleep in rain and regret They said they tried everything but it was no use Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you ...One but you ...One but you They found me face down in the street on the night you left to find, Another place to sleep in rain and regret They said they tried everything but it was no use Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you. |
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I'm dying tomorrow
In this house, this street, Chicago I'm dying tomorrow Did I, did I do it right? Did I remember to sleep in? Take lots of pills, commit irreversible sins Did I, did I at least try To kiss the prettiest girl at the right time? Did I remember to keep your beer as full as mine? Did I, did I remember to say cheers? Did I, did I at least try To make sure everybody had a good time? Had the best time I'm dying tomorrow In this house, this street, Chicago I'm dying tomorrow Did I, did I do it right? Did I remember to stay up late? Drinking for the fun, singing for the taste Did I, did I run outside To catch the rain under electrical skies? Did I remember to keep your beer as full as mine? Did I, did I remember to say cheers? Did I, did I at least try To make sure everybody had a good time? Had the best time I'm dying tomorrow In this house, this street, Chicago I'm dying tomorrow Did I, did I do it right? |
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