Bedhead - Bedhead (2003) by Bedhead (보컬) on maniadb.com

I don't know if it's worth it
I don't know if I should keep trying
when most signs point to giving up
if there were someone to take advice from
would he say give up

Am I losing what should be mine
I don't know if I really mind
or am I misusing what's not mine
what's really never mine

Everything moves too fast
that's why there's so much still left in the past
I know I don't want to be overlooked
but am I sure how long this should last

I went out to look for you
I wasn't sure what you might do
but mostly I just wanted to save you
to do something you wouldn't expect me to

I had to wake up my head first
my body had a few more minutes
and my throat was dying of thirst
of course I should have known the morning would be this way
but there was no use ignoring
the rest of the day

Since people are dying in almost every possible place
I'd rather not leave the bed here with you
since there's a dead black cat scattered on my street
I'd rather stay here
under the sheets

There was a parade outside the window with no cars
just dead cats being pulled
by horses with blinds over their eyes
I'm sure we could see ourselves rolling in the cats
when the carts moved back and forth
hitting the holes in the street

I'm leaving what I made behind
I'll have to let it speak for itself
Just make sure that I'm remembered
Not for good or bad just not forgotten

If I could lift my arm I'd grab yours
If I could open my eyes I wouldn't do it
I'll never know what it's like to feel safe again

How can you not see me lying here?
How can you not respond?
If you could hear me you'd do something
At least give me a reason to let go

From where I am I can smell the smoke
They're burning something - I don't want to know
Should I really sit here and wait
and hope it blows the other way

I wish I could see
and turn off my lungs when I run into poisoned air
which may finally be everywhere

I don't want to go to sleep
I don't even think I need it
Keep every light turned on
because it seems darker than ever

All the murderous greed
ignored by the ones with too many reasons
for keeping things running
If I blame them for anything
it's nothing more than I blame on myself

The light burned out
I couldn't see how to change it
I couldn't move at all
and thought I might slip and fall
so I decided to stand there
and wait until morning

In the dark
do things make a difference
in the emptiness
do things ever change

With a short fuse and Chinese directions
I think you'll light yourself on fire
because a Roman Candle's got no direction
it just waits to expire

And I know it takes a new addiction
to keep you from what you're addicted to
which is why I wish I could find a distraction
whose efficacy is tried and true

This person who thinks this is what I look like
well it's as though you were drunk for years
and if I didn't know better
I'd say I'd never seen better from you

We try to laugh a lot
thinking there's nothing more
when nothing feels like living
just waiting for something more

There's blood on the table cloth
it's there on the pillow case
Leave it all here
leave this place
it's not the same
When there's nothing to do but try to act like nothing's changed

Just relax
just stop thinking
Put it out
if you know it's too much
I don't know
that's all I can say
and it means nothing
because I'm not in your place

I left thinking that I would be back
but I never did return
if you would forgive me I'd forgive myself
but forgiveness never has these terms
the sky was as dark as the thoughts I was thinking
it was ignored by the moon
if you would believe me I'd believe myself
but believing never comes this soon

The streets made a sound only my ears could hear
I was alone with the rats and raccoons
and your memory keeping me alive
as the clouds moved away from the moon
then silence it hit me is a way to speak clearly
a way to never say what you don't mean
but silence is useless in cases of torture
it just says God won't intervene

And this night like others is a sign for the way
that the gray air speaks for the dead
the air is as vague as the thoughts I have now
that these memories are just in your head
so I kept walking through the clouds that were lifting
to reveal what I'd thought
there was more fog behind the mist that seemed was the only
thing keeping me from what I sought

I turned around to walk back to the place
I had left thinking I would find
answers to the questions that I shouldn't ask
but the questions can't find a way to leave me behind

Looking at this empty room
Hearing these sounds
Whose distance I can't measure
Through these walls
I heard, this is someone's expression
It's no use
I tried to look at this I know I can't hide it
The specters are rabid
And it's this room that they inhabit