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1. |
| 4:22 | ||||
I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill) It feels so good (swimming in your stomach) Wait until the dust settles You live, you learn You love, you learn You cry, you learn You lose, you learn You bleed, you learn You scream, you learn I recommend biting off more that you can chew to anyone I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time Feel free Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind) Hold it up (to the rays) You wait and see when the smoke clears You live, you learn You love, you learn You cry, you learn You lose, you learn You bleed, you learn You scream, you learn Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do) Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway) The fire trucks are coming up around the bend You live, you learn You love, you learn You cry, you learn You lose, you learn You bleed, you learn You scream, you learn You grieve, you learn You choke, you learn You laugh, you learn You choose, you learn You pray, you learn You ask, you learn You live, you learn |
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2. |
| 5:09 | ||||
dear dar(lin') your mom, my friend
left a message on my machine she was frantic saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself i guess she thought i'd be a perfect resort because we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth and yes they're in shock they are panicked you and your chronic them and their drama you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion if we were our bodies if we were our futures if we were our defenses i'd be joining you if we were our culture if we were our leaders if we were our denials i'd be joining you i remember vividly a day years ago we were camping you knew more than you thought you should know you said "I don't ever want to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling you were intense you were uncomfortable in your own skin you were thirsty but mostly you were beautiful if we were our nametags if we were our rejections if we were our outcomes i'd be joining you if we were our indignities if we were our successes if we were our emotions i'd be joining you you and i we're like 4 year olds we want to know why and how come about everything we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds and never talk small and be intuitive and question mightily and find god my tortured beacon we need to find like-minded companions if we were their condemnations if we were their projections if we were our paranoias i'd be joining you if we were our incomes if we were our obsessions if we were our afflictions i'd be joining you we need reflection we need a really good memory feel free to call me a little more often |
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3. |
| 4:42 | ||||
And you're like a 90's Jesus
And you revel in your psychosis How dare you? And you sample concepts like hors d'oeuvres And you eat their questions for dessert Is it just me or is it hot in here? And you're like a 90's Kennedy And you're really a million years old. You can't fool me. They'll throw opinions like rocks in riots And they'll stumble around like hypocrites Is it just me or is it dark in here? You may never be or have a husband You may have or hold a child You will learn to lose everything We are temporary arrangements And you're like a 90's Noah And they laughed at you as you packed all of your things And they wonder why you're frustrated And they wonder why you're so angry Is it just me or are you fed up? And God bless you in your travels, in your conquests, and queries |
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4. |
| 4:14 | ||||
That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down That I would be good if I got and stayed sick That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth That I would be great if I was no longer queen That I would be grand if I was not all knowing That I would be loved even when I numb myself That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed That I would be loved even when I was fuming That I would be good even if I was clingy That I would be good even if I lost sanity That I would be good whether with or without you |
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5. |
| 4:23 | ||||
I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again I thought about it You treat me like I'm a princess I'm not used to liking that You ask how my day was You've already won me over in spite of me Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your fault Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You're so much braver than I gave you credit for That's not lip service You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your fault You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience You're the best listener that I've ever met You're my best friend Best friend with benefits What took me so long? I've never felt this healthy before I've never wanted something rational I am aware now I am aware now You've already won me over in spite of me Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your fault You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your fault |
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6. |
| 4:37 | ||||
Please be philosophical
please be tapped into your femininity please be able to take the wheel from me please be crazy and curious Papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar Please be a sexaholic please be unpredictably miserable please be self absorbed much (not the good kind) please be addicted to some substance Papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar Papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar Please be the jerk of my knee i've fit you always you finish my sentences I think I love you What is your name again no matter i'm guessing your thoughts again correctly and I love the way you press my buttons so much sometimes I could strangle you Papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar Papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar Please be strangely enigmatic Please be just like my. |
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7. |
| 4:54 | ||||
as we were talking outside it was cold
we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please don't tell her or anyone but i need to talk to somebody you said wouldn't it be a shame if i knew how great i was five minutes before i died i'd be filled with such regret before i took my last breath and I said you're willing to tell me this now and you're not going to die any time soon and I said I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything and you said yes but you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're at the top of the food chain and yes you're still a fine woman and i cringed i was hoping i was hoping we could heal each other i was hoping i was hoping we could be raw together we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60s) said good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you're successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money and when i walked by thank you too dear I was all pigtails and cords and there was a day when i would've said something like hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it I too once thought i was owed something I was hoping i was hoping we could challenge each other i was hoping i was hoping we could crack each other up I too thought that when proved wrong i lost somehow i too once thought life was cruel it's a cycle you think i'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you i think you're insensitive and i don't feel heard and i said do you believe we are fundamentally judgemental? fundamentally evil? and you said yes i said i don't believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said well what about the man that i saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid and she threw a shoe at his head. i think that what he did was wrong and i would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him i had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged. i was hoping i was hoping we could dance together i was hoping i was hoping we could be creamy together |
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8. |
| 3:54 | ||||
An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day It's a black fly in your Chardonnay It's a death row pardon two minutes too late Isn't it ironic, don't you think? It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought it, it figures Mr. Play-It-Safe was afraid to fly He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye He waited his whole damn life to take that flight And as the plane crashed down he thought "Well isn't this nice" And isn't it ironic, don't you think? It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought it, it figures Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you When you think everything's okay and everything's going right And life has a funny way of helping you out when You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face A traffic jam when you're already late A "No Smoking" sign on your cigarette break It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife It's meeting the man of my dreams, and then meeting his beautiful wife And isn't it ironic, don't you think? A little too ironic, and yeah I really do think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought it, it figures Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out Helping you out |
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9. |
| 3:26 | ||||
These are the thoughts that go through my head
in my backyard on a sunday afternoon when I have the house to myself and I am not expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend Is he the one that I will marry and why is it so hard to be objective about myself why do I feel cellularly alone am I supposed to live in this crazy city can blindly continued fear-induced regurtitated life-denying tradition be overcome Where does the money go that I send to those in need, if we have so much why do some people have nothing still why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning why do you say you are spiritual, yet you treat people like shit How can you say you're close to God, and yet you talk behind my back as though I'm not a part of you, why do I say "I'm fine" when it's obvious I'm not, why's it so hard to tell you what I want why can't you just read my mind? Why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen why do I care whether you like me or not why's it so hard for me to be angry why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck and not the other way around Will I ever move back to Canada Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student and a master, oh why am I encouraged to shut my mouth when it gets too close to home, why cannot I live in the moment |
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10. |
| 4:05 | ||||
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday There's a black hat caught in a high tree top There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall That's my soul up there There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall That's my soul up there There's a blue whale beached by a springtime's ebb That's my soul up there There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack There's a black-winged gull with a broken back There's a little black spot on the sun today It's the same old thing as yesterday I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain Queen of pain I'll always be queen of pain I'll always be queen of pain |
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11. |
| 5:02 | ||||
I want you to know
That I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me? Is she perverted like me? Would she go down on you in a theater? Does she speak eloquently? And would she have your baby? I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave That we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you died 'Til you died But you're still alive And I'm here To remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair To deny me Of the cross I bear - that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well Things look peaceful I'm not quite as well I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity? I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face How quickly I was replaced And are you thinking of me when you fuck her? 'Cause the love that you gave That we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you died 'Til you died But you're still alive And I'm here To remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair To deny me Of the cross I bear - that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes And you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it Oh, can you feel it? Well, I'm here To remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair To deny me Of the cross I bear - that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know why I'm here: To remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair To deny me Of the cross I bear - that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know |
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12. |
| 4:38 | ||||
Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me Like any hot blooded woman I have simply wanted an object to crave But you, you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Must be strangely exciting To watch the stoic squirm Must be somewhat heartening To watch shepherd need shepherd But you, you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Like any uncharted territory I must seem greatly intriguing You speak of my love like You have experienced love like mine before But this is not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight I don't think you unworthy I need a moment to deliberate |