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| 1. |
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| 2. |
| 3:08 |
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Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know Somehow I need you to go Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and don't stay Sometimes I feel like I've trusted you too well Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know Somehow I need to be alone Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and don't stay I don't need you anymore I don't want to be ignored I don't need one more day Of you wasting me away I don't need you anymore I don't want to be ignored I don't need one more day Of you wasting me away With no apologies Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and don't stay Don't stay Don't stay |
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| 3. |
| 3:34 |
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(When this began)
I had nothing to say And I got lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find that I'm not the only person with these things in mind (Inside of me) but all the vacancy the words revealed Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel (Nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own And the fault is my own I want to heal, I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long (Erase all the pain 'til it's gone) I want to heal, I want to feel Like I'm close to something real I want to find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I've got nothing to say I cant believe I didn't fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere only to find that it's Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind. (So what am I) What do I have but negativity Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me (Nothing to lose) Nothing to gain, hollow and alone And the fault is my own And the fault is my own I want to heal, I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long (Erase all the pain 'til it's gone) I want to heal, I want to feel Like I'm close to something real I want to find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong I will never know Myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel Anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be Anything 'til I break away from me And I will break away I'll find myself today I want to heal, I want to feel What I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long (Erase all the pain 'til it's gone) I want to heal, I want to feel Like I'm close to something real I want to find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong I want to heal, I want to feel like I'm somewhere I belong I want to heal, I want to feel like I'm somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong |
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| 2:55 |
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When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see When I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just because I know I can But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay I'm just trying to bend the truth I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be So I'm lying my way from you No, no turning back now I want to be pushed aside, so let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone No, no turning back now Anywhere on my own because I can see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you is me I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that and this again So I pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person really is me And I'm trying to bend the truth But the more I push, the more I'm pulling away Because I'm lying my way from you No, no turning back now I want to be pushed aside, so let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone No, no turning back now Anywhere on my own because I can see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you The very worst part of you is me This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this You No, no turning back now I want to be pushed aside, so let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone No, no turning back now Anywhere on my own because I can see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you The very worst part of you is me |
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| 5. |
| 2:44 |
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There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I've held on when I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say Too many things that you've said about me when I'm not around You think having the upper hand means you've got to keep putting me down But I've had too many stand offs with you, it's about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on There are so many things you say that make me feel you crossed the line What goes up will surely fall and I'm counting down the time Because I've had so many stand offs with you, it's about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone And then it's all gone and then it's all gone and then it's all gone Now it's all gone I know I'll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating up above us all But what goes up has got to fall One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone And then it's all gone and then it's all gone and then it's all gone Now it's all gone |
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| 6. |
| 3:24 |
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'Easier To Run'
[Chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I’ve kept locked away no on-e can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made I would] [If I could stand up and take the blame I would] [If I could take all the shame to the grave I would] [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made I would] [If I could stand up and take the blame I would] [I would take all my shame to the grave] [Chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back And never moving forward so there never be a path [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made I would] [If I could stand up and take the blame I would] [If I could take all the shame to the grave I would] [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made I would] [If I could stand up and take the blame I would] [I would take all my shame to the grave] Just watching in the sun All of my helplessness inside Pretending I don’t feel misplaced It’s so much simpler to change [Chorus] It’s easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It’s so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone It’s easier to run [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made] It’s easier to go [If I could change I would take back the pain I would] [Retrace every wrong move that I made I would] [If I could stand up and take the blame I would] [I would take all my shame to the grave] |
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| 7. |
| 2:43 |
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I am
little bit of loneliness A little bit of disregard A handful of complaints but I can't help the fact That everyone can see these scars I am What I want you to want What I want you to feel But It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you To just believe this is real so I let go Watching you Turn your back like you always do face away and pretend that I'm not but I'll be here 'cause you're all I got I can't feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored time won't heal this damage anymore don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored I am A little bit insecure A little unconfident 'cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense I am What you never want to say But I've never had a doubt It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out so I let go watching you Turn your back like you always do face away and pretend that I'm not but I'll be here 'cause you're all I got I can't feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored time won't heal this damage anymore don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored NO hear me out now you're gonna listen to me like it or not right now hear me out now you're gonna listen to me like it or not right now I can't feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored I can't feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored time won't heal this damage anymore don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored |
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| 3:18 |
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Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening It's like nothing I could do would distract me when I think of how I shot myself in the back again Because from the infinite words I could say I put all the pain you gave to me on display But didn't realize, instead of setting it free I took what I hated and made it a part of me It never goes away, never goes away And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear I can't separate myself from what I've done Giving up a part of me, I've let myself become you Hearing your name the memories come back again I remember when it started happening I'd see you in every thought I had and then The thoughts slowly found words attached to them And I knew as they escaped away I was committing' myself to them and every day I regret saying those things because now I see That I took what I hated and made it a part of me It never goes away, never goes away And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear I can't separate myself from what I've done Giving up a part of me, I've let myself become you It never goes away, it never goes away It never goes away, it never goes away Get away from me Give me my space back, you got to just go Everything comes down to memories of you I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know I've let you go So get away from me Get away from me Give me my space back, you got to just go Everything comes down to memories of you I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know I've let you go And now you've become a part of me, you'll always be right here You've become a part of me, you'll always be my fear I can't separate myself from what I've done Giving up a part of me, I've let myself become you I've let myself become you, I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you Giving up a part of me, I've let myself become you |
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| 9. |
| 3:19 |
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Memories consume
Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again I dont want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight I'll paint it on the walls 'Cause I'm the one that fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight |
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| 2:54 |
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I don't know who to trust
No surprise (Everyone feels so far away from me) Heavy thoughts sift through dust And the lies (Trying not to break) (But I'm so tired of this deceit) (Every time I try to make myself) (Get back up on my feet) (All I ever think about is this) (All the tiring time between) (And how) (Trying to put my trust in you) (Just takes so much out of me) I take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you Tension is building inside Steadily (Everyone feels so far away from me) Heavy thoughts forcing their way Out of me I take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you I won't waste myself on you Waste myself on you I take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you |
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| 2:59 |
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Coming at you
Peep the style and the kids checking for it The number one question is how could you ignore it We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks With raps that got you backing this up like, rewind that We're just rolling with the rhythm Rise from the ashes of stylistic division With these non-stop lyrics of life living Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven But in the meantime there are those Who want to talk this and that so I suppose That it gets to a point feelings got to get hurt And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt, it goes I try to give you warning, but everyone ignores me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening Call to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Handful of anger held in my chest And everything left's a waste of time I hate my rhymes but hate everyone else's more I'm riding on the back of this pressure Guessing that its better I can't keep myself together Because all of this stress gave me something to write on The pain gave me something I could set my sights on You never forget the blood, sweat, and tears The uphill struggle over years, the fear and Trash talking and the people it was to And the people that started it just like you I try to give you warning but everyone ignores me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening Call to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Handful of anger held in my chest Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears Nothing to gain, everything to fear I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Handful of anger held in my chest Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears Nothing to gain, everything to fear Heart full of pain, heart full of pain I try to give you warning but everyone ignores me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening Call to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress Nobody's listening Handful of anger held in my chest Nobody's listening Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears Nobody's listening Nothing to gain, everything to fear Nobody's listening Coming at you from every side |
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| 12. |
| 2:25 |
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| 13. |
| 3:06 |
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I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface, Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired, So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do, Is be more like me, And be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be, Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired, So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do, Is be more like me, And be less like you And I know I may end up failing too, But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired, So much more aware I'm becoming this All I want to do, Is be more like me, And be less like you I've become so numb I can't feel you there (I'm tired of being what you want me to be) I've become so numb I can't feel you there (I'm tired of being what you want me to be) |
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| 3:05 |
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When I pretend
everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see when I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am stealing second after second just 'cause I know I can but I can't pretend this is the way it will stay I'm just trying to bend the truth I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be so I'm Lying my way from you no no turning back now I wanna be pushed aside so let me go no no turning back now let me take back my life I'd father be all alone no turning back now anywhere on my own 'cause I can see no no turning back now the very worst part of you is me I remember what they taught to me remember condescending talk of who I ought to be remember listening to all of that and this again so I pretended up a person who was fitting in and now you think this person really is me and I'm trying to bend the truth but the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cause I'm Lying my way from you no no turning back now I wanna be pushed aside so let me go no no turning back now let me take back my life I'd father be all alone no turning back now anywhere on my own 'cause I can see no no turning back now the very worst part of you the very worst part of you is me this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me like this this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me like this this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me like this this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me like this no turning back now I wanna be pushed aside so let me go no no turning back now let me take back my life I'd father be all alone no turning back now anywhere on my own 'cause I can see no no turning back now the very worst part of you the very worst part of you is me |
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| 2:56 |
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I don't know
who to trust no surprise everyone feels so far away from me heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet all I ever think about is this all the ticring time between and how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much of me take everything from the inside and throw it all away cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you tension is building inside steadily everyone feels so far away from me heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet all I ever think about is this all the ticring time between and how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much of me take everything from the inside and throw it all away cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you I won't waste myself on you you you waste myself on you you you I'll take everything from the inside and throw it all away cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you everything from the inside and throw it all the away cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you you you |
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| 3:23 |
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It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret I've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they played If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Sometimes I remember The darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go And never looking back And never moving forward so There would never be a past If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave Just washing it aside All of the helplessness inside Pretending I don't fell misplaced Is so much simpler than change It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone It's easier to run If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made It's easier to run If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Re trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave |
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