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| 3:38 | 
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(When this began)
I had nothing to say And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find That I'm not the only person with these things in mind (Inside of me) But all the vacancy the words revealed It's the only real thing that i got left to feel (Nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own *I want to heal, I want to feel what I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long (Erase all the pain and its gone) I want to heal, I want to feel like I’m close to something real I want to find something I’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I got nothing to say I can't believe I didn’t fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere only to find That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind (So what am I) Why do i have the negativity? ‘Cause I can justify the way everyone is looking at me (Nothing to lose) Nothing to gain, I’m hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own *Repeat I will never know myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed i will never be anything til i break away from me i will break away, I’ll find myself today *Repeat I want to heal, I want to feel, like I’m somewhere I belong I want to heal, I want to feel, like I’m somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong… |
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| 2. |
| 3:08 |
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When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see When I pretend to forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just 'cause I know I can But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay I'm just trying to bend the truth I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be So I'm lying my way from you No, no turning back now I want to be pushed aside So let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone No turning back now Anywhere on my own 'Cause I can see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you Is me I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that and this again So I pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person really is me and Trying to bend the truth The more I push the more I'm pulling away 'Cause I'm Lying my way from you No, no turning back now I want to be pushed aside So let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone No turning back now Anywhere on my own 'Cause I can see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me This isn't what I want it to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I want it to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I want it to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this This isn't what I want it to be I never thought that what I said Would have you running from me Like this You No turning back now I want to be pushed aside So let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone No turning back now Than anywhere on my own 'Cause I can't see No, no turning back now The very worst part of you The very worst part of you Is me |
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| 3. |
| 3:06 |
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Uh, yeah
Why does it feel like night today? Something in here's not right today Why am I so uptight today? Paranoia's all I got left I don't know what stressed me first Or how the pressure was fed/but I know just what it feels like To have a voice in the back of my head Like a face that I hold inside Face that awakes when I close my eyes Face that I watch every time I lie Face that laughs every time I fall And watches everything So I know that when it's time to sink or swim That the face inside is hearing me Right underneath my skin It's like I'm paranoid looking over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin Hey yo Here we go again with the pain I feel Is it real or in my mind When I found myself in places With names But not faces My memory races At speeds Hundred degrees My soul bleed Devil must of planted the seed Now it feels Like my back's against the wall I'm taking the fall Whenever I call Nobody's responding at all But I don't know who I can trust They screaming my name I need somebody To help me out of the flame All I'm trying to do is just master me All I wanna do is smoke a blast a beat But something keeps talking to me consciously Responsibly Keeps haunting me From dusk till dawn Everything has something for ya That voice inside of your head Got to project it Paranoia Cold sweat Shining on your face Exposing your purpose And if I Ripped off your skin I'd probably find another person There's nothing worse Than trying to pull yourself up Back from the dead So I advise you Listen to that voice In the back of your head It's like I'm paranoid looking over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin It's like I'm paranoid looking over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin The face inside is right Beneath the skin The face inside is right Beneath the skin The face inside is right Beneath the skin The face inside is right Beneath the skin The sun goes down I feel the light betray me The sun goes down It's like i'm paranoid I feel the light betray me The sun...can't stop.. |
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| 4. |
| 3:25 |
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Forfeit the game
Stop the talk show Product of what We're taught to know Forfeit the game Cause tommorow When it's all done You reap what you sow You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through You take away if I give in My life, my pride is broken You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you’ve learned) You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through You live what you’ve learned You love the things I say I’ll do The way I’ll hurt myself again just to get back at you You take away when I give in My life, my pride is broken You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you’ve learned) You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you’ve learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you’ve learned) You want to share what you’ve been through You live what you’ve learned Forfeit the game Stop the talk show Product of what We're taught to know Forfeit the game Cause tommorow When it's all done Reap what you sow Forfeit the game Stop the talk show Product of what You're taught to know Forfeit the game Cause tommorow When it's all done Reap what you sow You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you've learned) You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you've learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you've learned) You want to share what you’ve been through You live what you've learned You like to think you’re never wrong (You live what you've learned) You have to act like you’re someone (You live what you've learned) You want someone to hurt like you (You live what you've learned) You want to share what you’ve been through To live what you’ve learned |
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| 5. |
| 3:08 |
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Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust A constant wave of tension On top of broken trust The lessons that you taught me I learn were never true Now I find myself in question (They point the finger at me again) Guilty by association (You point the finger at me again) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind Paper bags and angry voices Under a sky of dust Another wave of tension Has more than filled me up All my talk of taking action These words were never true Now I find myself in question (They point the finger at me again) Guilty by association (You point the finger at me again) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind I'm gonna run away and never say goodbye (gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away) I'm gonna run away and never wonder why (gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away) I'm gonna run away and open my mind (gonna run away mind gonna run away gonna run away mind mind gonna run away mind gonna run away mind gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away mind) I wanna run away Never say goodbye I wanna know the truth Instead of wondering why I wanna know the answers No more lies I wanna shut the door And open up my mind I wanna run away and open up my mind I wanna run away and open up my mind I wanna run away and open up my mind I wanna run away and open up my mind |
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| 6. |
| 2:47 |
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I am
A little bit of loneliness A little bit of disregard A handful of complaints But I can't help the fact That everyone can see these scars I am What I want you to want What I want you to feel But it's like No matter what I do I can't convince you To just believe this is real So I let go Watching you Turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'Cause you're all that I got I can't feel The way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored Time won't take This damage anymore Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored I am A little bit insecure A little unconfident 'Cause you don't understand I do what I can But sometimes I don't make sense I am What you never want to say But I've never had a doubt It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you For once just to hear me out So I let go Watching you Turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'Cause you're all that I got I can't feel The way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored Time won't take This damage anymore Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored No Hear me out now You're gonna listen to me Like it or not Right now Hear me out now You're going to listen to me Like it or not Right now I can't feel The way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored I can't feel The way I did before Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored Time won't take This damage anymore Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored I can't feel Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored Time won't take Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored |
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| 7. |
| 3:01 |
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I don't know who to trust
No surprise [everyone feels so far away from me] Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit Everytime I try to make myself get back upon my feet All I ever think about is this All the tiring time between And how trying to put my trust in you Just takes so much out of me Take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you Tension is building inside steadily [everyone feels so far away from me] Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit Everytime I try to make myself get back up on my feet All I ever think about is this All the tiring time between And how trying to put my trust in you Just takes so much out of me Take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you I won't waste myself on you You, you Waste myself on you You, you I'll take everything from the inside And throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you I Take everything from the inside And just throw it all away 'Cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you You, you |
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| 8. |
| 5:05 |
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Stephen Richards:
When i look into your eyes there's nothing there to see nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me (Backwards) x2 (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down.) (Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind.) I've lied to you....(echo) This is the last smile, That I'll fake for the sake of being with you. (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down.) (Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind.) the sacrifice is never knowing... Why I stay when you just push away no matter what you see you're still so blind to me I've tried, like you, To do everything you wanted to. This is the last time, I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you. (Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down.) The sacrifice of hiding in a lie. (Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind.) The sacrifice is never knowing Why I stay when you just push away no matter what you see you're still so blind to me Stephen Richards: Reverse psycology, failing miserably its so hard to be left all alone telling you is the only chance for me theres nothing left but to turn and face you When i look into your eyes theres nothing there to see nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me asking why... Chester: The Sacrifice of hiding in a lie... the sacrifice is never knowing... Why I stay when you just push away no matter what you see you're still so blind to me x2 |
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| 3:07 |
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I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone) I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone) And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you I've become so numb I can't feel you there Tired of being what you want me to be I've become so numb I can't feel you there Tired of being what you want me to be |
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| 10. |
| 3:34 |
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Crawling in my skin
Crawling in my skin Without a sense of confidence.. Consuming, confusing Crawling in my skin Without a sense of confidence And I'm convinced that there's Just too much pressure to take There's something inside me That pulls beneath the surface Crawling in my skin Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal These wounds won't heal Fear is how I fall Fear is how I fall Confusing, confusing what is real Confusing what is real There's something inside me that Pulls beneath the surface Consuming, confusing This lack of self-control I fear is never-ending Controlling, I can't seem To find myself again My walls are closing in Without a sense of confidence And I’m convinced that there’s Just too much pressure to take I've felt this way before So insecure Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real Discomfort endlessly Has pulled itself upon me Distracting, reacting Against my will I stand beside my own reflection It's haunting how I can't seem To find myself again My walls are closing in Without a sense of confidence And I’m convinced that there’s Just too much pressure to take I've felt this way before So insecure Without a sense of confidence.. I'm convinced that there's Just too much pressure to take To find myself again My walls are closing in Without a sense of confidence And I’m convinced that there’s Just too much pressure to take I've felt this way before So insecure Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing, confusing what is real |
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| 11. |
| 3:32 |
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It starts with [one]
One thing I don't know why it doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on, but didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everything inside And even though I tried It all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually Be a memory of a time when I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all the times you fought with me I'm surprised it got so [far] Things aren't the way they were before You wouldn't even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then But it all comes back to me in the end you kept everything inside And even though I tried It all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn't even matter I put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end it doesn't even matter |
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| 12. |
| 4:13 |
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Break...
I'm about to break! I need room to breathe... (x3) I cannot take this anymore Saying everything i've said before All these words, they make no sense I found bliss in ignorance Less I hear, the less you say But you'll find that out anyway I find the answers aren't so clear Wish i could find a way to disappear All these thoughts, they make no sense I found bliss in ignorance Nothing seems to go away Over and over again (X6) Just like before... Everything you say to me And I'm about to break! I need a little room to breathe I'm about to break! Everything you say to me And I'm about to break! I need a little room to breathe And I'm about to break! Break! These are the places where I can't feel Torn from my body, my flesh it heals During this night we can fall apart Waiting alone I can not resist Feeling this hate I have never missed These are the memories The reason to rip off my......face Blood is a pouring and pouring and pouring Shut up when I'm talking to you! Shut up! (blood is pouring) Everything you say to me And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe I'm about to break Everything you say to me And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe I'm about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to Break! |
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