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| 1. |
| 5:36 | 
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I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in May God's love be with you Always May God's love be with you I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes 'Cause when you showed me myself I became someone else But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need I picture you fast asleep A nightmare comes You can't keep awake May God's love be with you Always May God's love be with you 'Cause if I find If I find my own way How much will I find If I find If I find my own way How much will I find You I don't know anymore What it's for I'm not even sure If there is anyone who is in the sun Will you help me to understand 'Cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need Maybe you're not even sure what it's for Any more than me May God's love be with you Always May God's love be with you |
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| 2. |
| 4:51 |
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I'll be silent in my solitude
Can't fight my smile Or my gratitude I'm afraid of what I might do 'Cuz there's no me if there's no me and you I wish that I could open up your eyes To feel the sun that burns in your mind I can't deal with what you have done Reincarnate I wonder who I might become Without potential I'm already gone I could be as fresh as hard bubblegum I don't have nothing now I want me some First some of you Then some of everyone Oh darling since you've been away from me I know how the pins fill In the bowling alley They say love is something you feel but never see When I see you I finally disagree I'm just trying to be all that I can be Without destroying you now Or joining the army Your ashes must be blowing everywhere 'Cuz I can seem to feel you And you're nowhere near And though you didnt say so I can tell that you still care We could have had it all But then, nothing is fair I still think about washing your hair I wish I could wash away all of your despair |
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| 3. |
| 4:11 |
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Taking my medicine
Changing the way I am I don't know where I been But I was well behaved I don't know who you are Coming out of my scar Driving my crashing car That needs a coat of paint Chemical Up and up away I go Out of my head I'm putting myself in jail I'm hoping to see you fail I'm flipping my head and tail Over I don't know the way Over I'm throwing up what I drank No one here I would thank I feel like a shark that's caught In a goldfish tank Swallowing a thousand pills Trying to change how I feel There's just to much time to kill Between all my mistakes Chemical Up and up away I go Out of my head |
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| 4. |
| 5:40 |
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You're the shaded sun
You're daddy's broken gun You're the loneliest moon You are a butterfly dreaming about your cocoon You're the only sound when I am blind So I label you mine You're the house you grew up in You're always just arriving at your end You're your mama's shit eatin' grin and your daddy's double chin You're the first pair of shoes you ever went to school in And you're the kid pretending she's in prison Behind the bars of a jungle gym Someone's gonna give you wings And you'll think it's what you need And you'll fly You'll be so high But you're history acts as your gravity Your history acts as your gravity Acts as your history acts as your gravity You're the only one you ever believe in You're the solution and you are the problem You're a rapist and your only victim You are fact and you are fiction You're the only one you've considered a friend And now you're alive Waiting for your life to begin Again You try to find you, you who is lost But your hooked to the rush of approaching chaos You're king for a minute but a fool for an hour Alone in your room You are a closed flower Dreams of your shadow you're going to destroy The way you handle yourself Like an unbreakable toy |
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| 5. |
| 5:14 |
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There are things we cannot know
Invisable hands which guide the show from up above Sometimes you are forced to cope Fall away and shut the door on the one you love Well I don't know now where you are Your photogragh sits like a scar up against my wall Such a pretty face The sunshine in your eyes Taking on the days When all we had was love Shut the light on me Shut the light on me Now Jesus he came down here just to die for all my sins I needed him to come back here and die for me again Cuz i cannot forgive myself for what it is I've done For hating your memory like a vampire hates the sun And all the wounds you left Shut the light on me Shut the light on me |
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| 6. |
| 3:02 |
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You're putting poison here
You're putting poison here And now you're a cockroach Crawling on bones Pretending your war Has already been won You never give anything To any human being Unless they Give you something in return If you get burned You're gonna burn And when you finally go away I'm already gone And when you finally say what you say I'm singing this song Your heads in quite a fix The demon you never resist is coming And he's leaning against your front door The neighbors are asking you what it's all for And still you could never admit That maybe you could have prevented destruction As it came out of your very core My friend you are starting to become a bore And when you finally go away I'm already gone And when you finally say what you say I'm singing this song |
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| 7. |
| 4:46 |
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I never sleep
I been awake for what feels like a year 'cause when I dream My mind puts a face To each one of my fears I'm exhausted by my imagination I close my eyes But I could still see the pain on your face It's your disguise You put your heart and soul on a plate I'm exhausted by my imagination The walls are bleeding cause I'm hallucinating Beneath the wheel I cannot slow it's rotation down I got to get away from here But there's nowhere I can go Everyone I recognize looks at me like I am lost Walking down these dire streets I thought I heard you call my name But it's only in my head Or maybe it was just your ghost Up in the sky The clouds are dirty so soon it will rain I lost my mind After you told me that you went insane I'm a victim of my imagination These walls are talking but I'm hallucinating Beneath the wheel that will not slow it's rotation down Down Down in my head (? ) I got to get away from here But there's nowhere I can go Everyone I recognize Looks at me like I'm a ghost Walking down these dying streets I thought I heard you call my name But it was only in my mind You were never there at all |
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| 8. |
| 4:03 |
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I wish I had
Open eyes On my back So I could see My life Going past Seems when It's good Everything Goes to fast And when it's gone You can never Get it back Try and take a picture Through a dirty window Try to touch your shadow Fading when you follow I been alone For so long It's hard to track Down in a hole No one knows In the black I know that soon All the dogs Will attack I wish I had Open eyes On my back |
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| 9. |
| 4:10 |
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I miss the days when you were in my world
It seems like it was a lifetime ago We said our goodbye with tears And promised to not let the years get away But that's something you just had to say In my pain, is where I've tattooed your name Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Going round and round and round and round Your heart Jeremy said he saw you out on 2nd Ave. And you looked like you could use some sleep You told him you sobered up But now you are giving that up, 'cause sometimes Love isn't stronger than wine In my pain, is where I've tattooed your name Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Going round and round and round and round Your heart I wonder what you must think about me What I heard is you consider me dead I guess that's fair on you I never was good to you, I'm ashamed For making you feel all my pain When I sleep, sometimes I still think we speak Is it a dream? Is it a dream? Going round and round and round and round My heart |
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| 10. |
| 5:27 |
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The Real You
I Knew The Real You I Miss You I Have to Redeem Myself Forever and Forever You Can Hear It In My Song You Can See It In My Eyes You Can Master Me You Can Master Me Alot The Real You I Knew The Real You I Miss You Bend Out In My Mind Bend Out In My Mind Bend Out In My Mind Feel Like Taking A Razor Blade And On My Wrist Write An Invitation Feel Like Taking A Loaded Gun And In My Mouth Blowing up The Ocean Come To Where Im From Come To Where I Come From(x3) The Real You I Knew The Real You I Miss You |
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| 11. |
| 4:34 |
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I got a god in my head
Tells me that I'm crazy Got a god in my head Telling me I'm crazy An angry little god punching on my skull Another little god Tells me that I'm lazy A useless piece of shit with no love to give at all now And the smallest god up there Thinks that I'm the greatest Tells me no one else could be as good as me. I listen to them all, I was a disc jockey to consequences Little propagandist selling misery I build a cocoon I got to get away A shirt made out of wood and glue and crack and then some paint(????) No one see ya down there and no one's getting in I got a needle, a pack, a satchel, and a quart of country gin I drink and shoot and smoke until the only voice I hear Is the one telling me those other people, don't let anybody near No don't let anybody near (x4) And now the telephone is ringing, the walls are falling down The city birds are singing, my soul's nowhere around I have made myself a monster I have damned myself again I have eaten all my children, I have tightened up my skin I'm a walking crucifixion, I'm a fucked-up memory Consumed in all that's left, I'm my mother's misery I'm sucking on Satan's tit She's milking me her pussy flower I drink until I'm convinced there's no place left to go You know there's no place left to go (x4) So I drink until the pain is dry I know it never is Sometimes though, I guess I think that I'm the best Until the morning after when I wake up with the guilt Of burning down all the things my sacred hands have built And throwing out all the love you know I never felt Yeah, you know I never felt (x4) Let's make our tortured Romeo's Personal help can be unique You bring it on yourself Burn out when you might peak The Holy Ghost is exiled from your heart and from your soul If you control it it's no fun, and if it's fun you've lost control Your past is plagiarism your symbols have dried up Your corruption's as confused As old lovers that you dug Like some hidden toxic fume Your soul dissipates In the ozone of guilty acts with motive All the things you hate There's bodies dancing, crazed Sexual heat Crazy in an orgy The way starving people eat Regrets weight overwhelms, and tired bodies fall Bankrupt from the beaten Let's split one more eight-ball Blue as beggars, beaten, bleeding Tired eyes made of rust And we all know when it gets like this there's no one you can trust No no there's no one you can trust(x4) Some say the solution's locked in the sweat-box I wouldn't know I've never been there, I sold my keys to get a rock We sing along to forgotten AM radio stations And drink expensive wine, toast the friends that we left hanging Like prisoners in conceit We heard through the cracks I know for sure don't trust no one who says' they've got you back The windows all explode Outside the noise pollution booms Everyone's now hidden like cockroaches in dark rooms I've been brought back from the dead before, so anything can happen Obsessed with tragic antics, down and out like Eric Clapton These are my wild years, I'm trying to enjoy the pain The euphoria of dying Toxins wrestle in my brain We've all been leaders of corruption We've all been spiders on the wall Waiting for a hand to smash us or the doom of light to fall Is this guilt of just self-hatred Runnin' wild, uncontained Leaking from a broken soul Is this creation or a stain Is this creation or a stain... |
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| 12. |
| 4:30 |
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Good night New Orleans
Things are exactly as they seem But I'm nowhere around Hello Mexico You're where I was told to go If I don't want to be found There's no end to the winter Waking at the break of dawn In the middle of summer Living at the speed of light Someday we may See each other and look the other way But I'll love you just the same And if you hate your life Just remember there used to be a time When we could not feel a thing In my heart is a hunger I will never give away Just try and stop from going under 'till the dawn of judgment day Living at the speed of light Living at the speed of light Living at the speed of light And burning your love on the way Burning your love away |
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