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| 1. |
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I have seen you shake
And I know what it cost you I have heard your words I am big on your noise My eyes aren't big enough 'Cause I can't see your hands I can't see what you hold I am growin' now As I watch you fade Now I know what you know And I'll break the chains that you have made This chain you've made for me Yeah, I will pull you down I know I'll fail in style I long to touch your genius hands I am growin' now As I watch you fade Now I know what you know And I'll break the chains that you have made This chain you've made for me Yeah, yeah, yeah, I will pull you down I know I'll fail in style I will, I swear I'm gonna shake your genius hands |
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| 2. |
| 3:54 |
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I break every day stressed out in every kind of way
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired All I need and crave is a loud life with the power to fade I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside Love won't work for me I want women who are out of my reach I'm sick and tired of living all alone All I need for sure is a big love with the power to make more I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside I know I'm close to the fall I know I'm dangerous I'm afraid I'm going down I blame my family, their damage is living in me I am sick inside and tired of my life All I need I swear is to go out with the power of a nightmare I am living because I keep it all, keep it all inside I keep it all, keep it all inside Yeah, I keep it all, keep it all inside I know I'm close to the fall I know I'm dangerous I know I'm not going down alone I keep it all, keep it all inside I know I'm close to the fall I know I'm dangerous I know I'm not going down alone I'm not going down alone |
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| 3. |
| 2:04 |
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Right now day one I fall hard when I fall
I always fall on you Face first head down eyes closed arms out to break my fall We fall down like a world of noise We get lost inside the length of our own time And the laughing world will never forget that it?s when you jam that I jet I see I want I reach I fail to hold the things that I need I turn to reach for you I want to touch our life before it fades like a burning car in the sun We flame for the all in plain view And the laughing world will never forget that it?s when you jam that I jet |
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| 4. |
| 4:15 |
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Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call Strange words I heard a long long time ago I wish I could go back to the summer time I knew more than twenty years ago Can't lay between the sheets We lie underneath the maple tree Now I can't smile Lying in the grass with the wind around us As we smile and talk Listen to your Grandma Sing those country songs She'd tell us how the maple turns to fire every four years We'd sit in the grass all summer Just to watch the autumn come around... I can't smile Now I live alone And you're so far away I call you once a year Just around the holidays I still see you in the night Lying above me in the grass... I can't smile Turn away from the pain you don't want Turning down to avoid them when they call I can't believe this letter That says you died I think I'm gonna go back to the house In North Carolina and lay in the backyard Get drunk and let the leaves just bury me Bury me... I can't smile |
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| 5. |
| 2:26 |
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Jackson met a girl in a valley town
They fell into a teenage love she'd grow to hate He's in prison now since he beat her down He got her pregnant and she made it go away Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania I got a card today from a girl I know She used to live alone in Philadelphia She had to leave the state for a choice she made She says she feels just like a hostage in her home Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania You can close your eyes, you can fall and die You can hope your laws will make it go away You can close your eyes but you can't make it go away I just got a call from my uncle Mike He said he left his wife and he's not going back Said she changed her mind about a desire child I asked him if he wants a placemat or a wife Hey hey hey hey Pennsylvania is wrong |
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| 6. |
| 2:32 |
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You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you I would break in half if you said it loud Splinter out of myself just like mercury I think it's better now than how it used to be You were lying in bed and I would levitate I think it's better here, than where we used to be I wish I could go out into the oregon sun=85 to be alive in the day I would smile at everyone I remember you back in ?83 you were dressing insane You were my everything you were so different from all those other girls A blind electra in drag so cool and casually lame I think I'm better now than how I used to be Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time I think it's better now than how it used to be Always up in the night afraid to live in the day afraid of being afraid Now I sit alone when you're not around I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice I see you scary dolls they always look at me =46rom the corner of my eyes I see them shake their heads You know I want to be the way you me to Big hearted and tall enough to cover you I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day |
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| 2:33 |
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Maybe I went too far this time
I just go crazy when she says no Angel turns away pulls her dress back down Slowly washes her face Takes the bus to her job downtown She said, I'm OK, don't worry about me Now she thinks for herself, hey what just happened to me? I told him that I thought it was over, I told him that I wanted to leave He used to touch me so nice when we first met I never dreamed he would hit me, I never dreamed he would hold me down She said, don't worry about me, I won't worry about you I don't want to be friends She said, I'm OK Just leave me alone She said don't worry about me, I won't worry about you She said, I'm OK, don't worry about me I don't want to be friends Just leave me alone Don't worry about me |
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| 2:40 |
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I remember when you seemed real shiny with the sweat of your
voice Shaky hands super loud and teenage mouth We were all charmed and taken with your talk Now I shudder when I hear the rhythm of your walk Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go I've got no one, nowhere, no one I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you I have sinned the sin of wanting more The belly fire pulls the spirit from the corporate whore I'm embarrassed by the plaid you wear If I were you I'd hide behind that stupid bleach blonde hair Now I've got no place to go, I've got no place to go I've got no one, nowhere, no one I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you Yeah that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw Yes I have wondered why you changed I liked it when you were super loud I wonder if you're giving in, tell me why you're giving in |
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| 1:52 |
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I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times
A truer-blue love you will never know Run from pain they'll never realize Sheltered from it in a loving glow Young and happy and oh-so politically correct Just get it if you need it now Just buy it if you need it in your life Don't you worry if it all runs out Don't worry 'cause it never will I know a young girl living in the shadow of The kind of life that she could never make She takes it all and gives it back in love To handsome artists in her native state She is the angel of the loser and the disenchanted soul Just get it if you need it now Just buy it if it makes you happy Don't you worry if it all runs out Don't worry because it never will I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times |
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| 2:55 |
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I hate waking up, it means that I have to die again tonight
35 years old and I'm still sleeping outside Yeah I think I know your face, I don't want to know your name I won't give in, I'm not like that, I won't give in You say it's Christmas Eve, that don't mean nothing to me Just another f**ked up day, just another waste of time You wonder why I live like this, man you just won't understand I won't give in, I'm not like that, I won't give in You smart-ass college f**k Act like you think you're tall I was just like you More pride than you could know You think you pity me Hey I'll kick your ass if you pity me I won't give in, I'm not like that No I won't give in to you You college boy act like you think you're tall I won't give in, I'm not like that I won't give in |
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| 11. |
| 2:55 |
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I will live, I will live
Maybe for a year or two, maybe for a year I will die, I will die, I can rest secure in that I am awful sure that this thing ain't no accident And I just can't believe that AIDS is just some act of God I will reach for you, I will reach my hand No one will reach for me, no one will touch my skin Yes I will accept, I will accept my pain I don't deserve to die like this, no one deserves to die like this Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world I will not be denied, I will not be ignored I'm not invisible anymore I will not be denied, I will not be ignored I'm real, I won't go away I am not invisible anymore Sometimes I get so mad I just want to break the world |
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| 12. |
| 2:51 |
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Evergleam and I know why God is good and Jesus loves me
Heaven lives and I know where Sounds to me a not so easy chair Falling free and living down Stringing out and over happy Evergleam and I know why it isn't real and I'm not going to break Don't die, don't give in, no way no way Please don't leave me Evergleam and I know how pulling hair and breaking voices Giving in won't stop the noise Spinning wills don't give you choices Take away the spark inside, you take away the shining prize Evergleam and I know how it isn't real and I'm not going to break I'm not going to break Evergleam, everywhere, ever weird, everyone I'm not going away, I'm not going away I won't see you there I'm not going away, I'm not going to break No way |
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