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| 1. |
| 6:07 | 
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You won't hear me laugh,you won't hear me cry
You won't even hear what I'm thinking I can't even speak ,I'm too weak to try Surprised I'm even still breathing Like winter's icy touch ,I'm... Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below My being is numb,but I strain to fell A heart that's become black and rotten You don't care to look,you don't care to see This man that love has forgotten Asking for nothing ,yet wanting so much Longing for one thing, the warmth of a touch I'm... Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero I can't seem to move, I can't seem to think I'm not sure my heart is still beating As life from me ,flows, my spirit will go And haunt this world that I'm leaving Offering nothing yet taking so much Regretting not sharing the warmth of a touch If I could just do it all again,I'd change my ways and would not be so Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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| 2. |
| 8:10 |
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Just another day,I go about my business
I start to shave in my ordinary way Nothing has changed, yet something is different Ah yes-- It's my birthday today My skin feels a little tighter The razor bites at my face What are those lines in the mirror? Can't seem to wipe them away And my vision is blurry, I don't know what it is And a blemish is swirling out from under my skin And there is far too much hair in ths sink today And what's left on my head has somehow turned to grey Like a picture in the sun,the colors start to fade Like broken glass upon the shore, the sharpness wears away My face bleeding, I drop the razor to the floor I try to catch it, but my hands do not obey me What is that pounding,is there someone at the door? It's just my heart,straining not to fail me My legs feel so heavy Each inch seems like a mile Muscles burn from the effort As I fall into denial And my speech is slurred, I don't know what it is And my arm is bruised from where I've touched my skin And there is something wrong with my mirror today It seems my eyes of blue has somehow turned to grey Just like a chameleon who changes his skin I went to sleep young and virile,woke up old,tired and thin Did I sleep through my life and waste away my youth? Or did time just pass by and I'm denying the truth? And my vision is blurry, I don't know what it is And a blemish is swirling out from under my skin And there is far too much hair in ths sink today And what's left on my head has somehow turned to grey And my speech is slurred, I don't know what it is And my arm is bruised from where I've touched my skin And there is something wrong with my mirror today It seems my eyes of blue has somehow turned to grey (Music: D.Ott,P.Craddick) (Lyrics: D.Ott) |
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| 3. |
| 7:17 |
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I look into a sea of blue in your eyes
And see a full and swollen moon Resplendent in a stormy sky I look through your gaze, its source is pure and uncorrupted And see a wilderness of dunes, untouched,uninterrupted Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... I banish "too good to be true" from my mind I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find The echoes of your laughter fall upon me,like the calming rain They intimate a surreal world,smooth-surfaced and free of stain Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... Your gaze's source is uncorrupted...Pure Dunes untouched,uninterrupted...Pure I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find Echoes of your laughter falling down on me Like the calming rain... Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... [Music: P.Craddick,D.Ott] [Lyrics: P.Craddick] |
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| 4. |
| 7:44 |
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Not what I've done,not what I've spoken
Not what I've shown,not that I lied Just holding on would render me broken But weak as I am, my hands remain tied Fear of wrath,fear of pain Fear of facing what I am Fear this might leave a stain Of your blood on my hands My face is scarred,my hands unclean Can't wash away the fool I've been Murder one or suicide: Which would be the greater sin? Straining to hold each breath I'm taking A shackle that pulls,I can't set it free Not quite below,but slowly I'm breaking In saving you I would be killing me Fear of wind,fear of rain We built this house on shifting sand Fear this might leave a stain Of my own blood on my hands My face is scarred,my hands unclean Can't wash away the fool I've been Murder one or suicide: Which would be the greater sin? A wave that hits from behind me A weight that pulls from beneath A storm that blows all around me A fear inside that has bound me [Music: T.Leonard,D.Ott,P.Craddick] [Lyrics: T.Leonard] |
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| 5. |
| 6:29 |
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I sit in silence here alone
An agony I've made my own An empty chasm in the dark Is where I choose to hide my heart Something that I've lived with ,for so very long I've never had an interest ,in what's right or wrong Deviante, or so I'm told Villanous,or so extolled A heightned animosity Distorting everything I see This world has closed its doors to me Sat me in the balcony Now my only recompense: A gift I've honed to mastery Tainted eyes that strain to see I'm not in prision but,I'm never free A curse that somehow has followed me I;m not in prision,but I'm never free Looking out this dirty window From inside my trophy room Hostile world I've been bor into: Hostile world-- I've been consumed I'm the one you sat behind you The one you've choosen to neglect Now I've choosen to confront you You're the wrong I must correct Tainted eyes that strain to see I'm not in prision but,I'm never free A curse that somehow has followed me I'm not in prision,but I'm never free (Music: D.Ott,M.Geimer,E.Platt,P.Cradick) (Lyrics: T.Leonard) |
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| 6:40 |
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Standing looking in the mirror
Wondering who it is I see The face seems so familiar But it doesn't look like me Something is changing ,something's different A foreign look behind my stare I feel frantic, almost desperate He acts as if he doesn't care A smile cracks his face, a tear comes to my eye His laughter fills the room ,words echo in my mind Look away- (Don't look at me) Look away- (You won't like what you see) Look away- (Fear what's inside me) But I can't look away Fell the lock of tension closing As I slowly turn the key I sense joints lock into place Like cement setting in my veins Like an attic stored with memories,the contents are so rarely seen Look away- (Don't look at me) Look away- (You won't like what you see) Look away- (Fear what's inside me) But I can't look away A complex creature,I labor to see through the haze I strive to know myself,but I'm lost within the maze It's painful learning the truth about myself So I always look away Through the passage lies the answers,to the questions inside me So,tomorrow like today, I'll stare again,doing nothing [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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| 7. |
| 6:57 |
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Here I stand Beside you ,still I somehow stand apart
I'm burdened in my spirit,a stone is weighing down my heart I'm riddled in my depths by this half-heartedness Sundered from the "now" by self-protectiveness Look around in your heart Cut off from the moment Divested all the way No music in this silence No colour in this grey I'm rarely fully there,I cloak myself from harm's way An inmate of my own device who's blinded by the light of day Summon forth from your heart Cut off from the moment Divested all the way No music in this silence No colour in this grey This chasm I cannot bridge This hole I cannot fill with sand Summon forth,from your heart,the whole man Half-speed,half-there,thus I'm half-alive Un-veiled and un-guised then I'm genuine But why do I die just as I come alive? So used to this armour, and how it fits Cut off from the moment Divested all the way No music in this silence No colour in this grey This chasm I cannot bridge This hole I cannot fill with sand Summon forth,from your heart,the whole man (Music: P.Craddick,D.Ott) Lyrics:P.Craddick |
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| 8. |
| 7:27 |
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Standing alone in a crowded room ,he hears it
A voice so familiar,not unlike his own,he fears it His name being called out from across the room, but he can't see He's willingly blindfolded starting towards the voice,but each step leads Into a dance with a different stranger His purpose he quickly forgets Each dance delights till the song is through But the silence between the songs reminds him what he'd intended to Do But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits patiently Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting jealously He moves towards the voice,more determined now but still can't see The music begins and he's pulled away again ,by flattery Just as with a drug the words purposely inoculate All puffed up,but silence,,when the music ends,quickly deflates Now the voice,though never changing, begins to sound to him like a Shriek He covers his ears with his hands Now deaf and blind, he wanders aimlessly Submerged in the darkness he's forgotten what he was to be But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits jealously Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting patiently He cannot see the floor is wet, nor does he hear the strangers warn He slips onto his back and,lying paralyzed,he feels forlorn The music begins,and strangers whom he trusted leave him there Helpless and immoblile lying on the floor----and no one cares But the voice that once was distant sounds as thought it;s right next to His ear And no longer the shrieking does he hear The voice says "WALK" and,suddenly, he knew he would It says"REMOVE THE BLINDFOLD", suddenly he knew he always Could But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits patiently Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting jealously But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits jealously Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting patiently (Music: D.Ott,P.Craddick) (Lyrics: T.Leonard) |
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| 6:36 |
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One who's scorched by the fire,I stand alone brazen-faced
Love's become an open fumace,my follies stoked the fireplace Blind to the peril around me,my resistance wearing thin I fell prey to the power of temptation,and the brand of infidelity kissed My skin With each kiss a heart breaking,with a touch her love dies for me Slowly desintegrates Blackned by coals of deception,I cry for redemption far too late Here today, gone tomorrow Trail of tears leads to sorrow Leads to sorrow Alone I wallow in my suffering So much regret behind my stare Is love lost or just misplaced? Can a heart broken be repaired? With each thought conscience burning,with a sign her love dies for me Cannot exonerate Eyes filled with discontent,I plead for forgiveness far too late Here today, gone tomorrow Trail of tears leads to sorrow No reprieve,despite your wishing Trust betrayed,now she's missing Her image you cannot replace Missing,you hope to reconcile,but you've lost face With each day soul searching,with the night I cry "Restore me,reverse this morose state Never again shall I falter,afford me this one mistake" Fear today,loathe tomorrow Trail of Tears leads to sorrow Dream of when you were kissing So aware of what you're missing (Music and Lyrics: D.Ott) |
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