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These symptoms suggested that our evolution, I suppose, from the
animal kingdom into the human kingdom itself was catalyzed, or triggered by our encounter with these hallucenogenics, and Yes, we are an ape with a symbiotic relationship to a mushroom, and that has given us self reflection, language, religion and all the spectrum of effects that flow from these things. And one can only wonder how these hallucinogens might effect our future evolution as well... They have brought us to this point, and as we make our relationship to them concious, we may be able to take control of our furute evolutionary path. |
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Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing I would love to beat the face Of any mother fucker that's thinking they can change me White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold If you want a piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold I'm drowningin your wake Shit rubbedin my face Teethingon concrete Gums bleeding Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing I struggle in violated space, Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight I ain't selling my soul when there's nothing to buy I'm livid in my space Pissing in my face Fuck you while you try To fuck me Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was you ain't fucking changing me Let me help you tie the rope around your neck Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge Let me help you hold the glock against your head Let me help you tie the rope around your neck Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge Let me help you hold the glock up to your head Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs Get on the plank fuck Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing Wish you were committing Suicide suckin on a mother fuckin tailpipe Dead man dangling from a tight rope Limbless in the middle of a channelbob away |
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| 3. |
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Cop provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in, Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget, They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need, My invisible enemies all my monkeys Their coming they're coming their coming they're coming to take me away. Disgusted with my position so submissive I am the only way we get away is give in sharpen up the razors stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings so sick of this in me can't stand the want to need can't get free always got a grip on me There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience subservience leads to substance Do you want more give it to me Leave my motivation to chemical dependency no room for patience Don't want it need it come on right now (chorus voice 2) Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be Every time I try to run away I fall on my face they drag me back Every time I try to run away I fall on my face Help! They won't leave me alone If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back, I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back Stay away stay away Hold me I'm shaking violently Pull me out of my covering Mold me into a new man Lull me into a deep sleep There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience subservience leads to substance Even if you want you can't stop Internal primates forever |
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| 4. |
| 3:59 |
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Losses, losers and more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen
behind the doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls falling down pains aloft misery I'm sure that the lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments went well deserved by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness walk from me everything systematically Come on youweretheone youweretheone, To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing Tell me what I'm supposed to be Tell me who I'm supposed to be Tell me what it takes to ascend Tell me what it takes to live Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun I'm bored in a life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is loss look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of me your taunting I wake up Come on youweretheone youweretheone, To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing Tell me what I'm supposed to be Tell me who I'm supposed to be Tell me what it takes to ascend Tell me what it takes to live Tell me nOW! Tell me nOW! Pain misery distress dismal know where depressed idiot failure In me......calling......loser......man I'm the Loser......loser.....loser......in me......who I am....in me.... Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of me, Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of me, Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me Come on I know youweretheone youweretheone Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision Don't need you to tell me who to be Don't need you to tell me what to be Don't need you to tell me how to ascend Don't need you to tell me how to live |
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| 4:52 |
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Cold seems crippling lame meander through corridors aroma's thick
with age mark off the day reflections of my life are fading Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in, A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into, Maker take the body don't want it wants me Past has found its place salvation is no more will god accept my peace bleached will pardon me reflections of my life are fading Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in, A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into, Maker take the body don't want it wants me I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me cocooned in misery I'm sick and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me away ...god please take me away resistance futile suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy selfish needs fuck the deities justify my own right to what's waiting for me On the other side the time has come lock and load I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming home Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in, A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it, Maker take the body don't want it wants me, Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in, A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it, Maker take the body don't want it wants me I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me cocooned in misery The darkness overcomes soul soars to the other plain Existence past the door I sail through purgatory's bay I asked a god for poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching death blossoms where clouds lie over me held in god's hands death blooming Dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear ...death blooms. |
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| 6. |
| 0:55 |
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Ooms... (dings of bells and dna) and the beginng of cradle
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| 7. |
| 5:15 |
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Breathe...
Push... ...I lost you, you were my god thought what do I do now you were never there for me never there to carry me, 26 years looking back that time is gone it was you I believed in look what you've done to me realize what you've done to Me I can't see going on in this darkness I'm blind beneath my cradle the bough has broke, I exorcise my loss your lie the punishment It takes time to try to mend the wounds of all the suffering, What do I do now all I'm asking from you please send me a sign to guide me through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by myself Look at me now, a piece of shit like you. Look at me now, you left me so fuck you. Everybody leaves me, everybody's gone. Watch my father leave me, there's nobody left. Feels like I've never been loved. Everybody leaves me, never gave a shit about me. Everybody's gone, I'll rot in my head alone. I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away . Fake being, inside of my heart you are the liar. Innocence displaced. Been left. Here I stand now and I'm alone, With no one to comfort me. One set of footprints in the sand. No one to take my hand, I'll . I'll walk through as long as I need. I'll drift through my life though I'm alone. Outgrown the cradle that once housed me And I've found that all I need is Me. Found I've never needed you to push through All the shit that stacks up inside of my life. Endless plight that circulates through my body. I'll keep stumbling, beating, pummeling Teething on the rind and renounce my being. I can't see going on. I can't see I'm so tired, of trying to mend the wounds of all my suffering. What do I do now? All I'm asking from you please, Send me a sign To guide me through the times that lie in front of me. I'll get by myself I can't see going on fuck it. |
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| 9. |
| 1:44 |
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Soiled, soiled, soiled
Soiled, soiled, soiled Soiled, soiled Of ordinary, chemistry There is a suggestion there, that uh, manipulation of no Humal, compounds, brain-neuro transmitters And that sort of thing May in fact, open the door, to uh, untapped areas of Human contortion Lead us to our team |
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| 3:15 |
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We swallow the spit,
Steal acceptance lend denial, Telling me that my life is free and boundless, Then I'm forced to stay between the lines, They construct death to demolish life, Plant the seeds to harvest loss, Found empty truth is full of lies, We're hoping for despair, Starvation's gluttony, Subtle chaotic peace, War divided unity, Pro life, pro choice, Blinded insight, Left wing, right wing, Black, white, Leaders following, I am everything I am nothing, Stop fuckin' with me, I'm the accused I'm not the enemy You're so confused no way you could enlighten me, No freedom trapped in slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human not a machine Lay your hands upon me, In search for answers inviting, Constant struggle inside me, Guide me through this nothing that's everything I am everything I am nothing |
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| 11. |
| 6:29 |
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And we hide behind,
Lies, anger, Hate they shoo love away, Build shells of ourselves outside, It shelters body from cold reigns of reality, Come on, Step out, of your rind, assemble strength, focus, Release and run to me you can never look back to the visions from the past they fade and wilt in time, You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through, Then I turn and walk away, Eclipse you, And bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur, Eclipse you, I spit up on my plate and I push everything away, I need, And we sever all ties, It creates disruption midst circle of friends, I become the sacrifice, Spare your life and leave me to my misery, Get off the cross, and save yourself, run away Run now get away from me if I can get my grip I'll pull you down into the hell I call my head you'll never get away I sit down in my ugly place and build walls out of fragments from my past of all the people that I needed and loved that walked away, You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn and walk away I walk under the clouds of gray, Sphere of storms in my head, I'm trapped again in endless rain I divorce the thoughts of you I love with me, I divorce your innocence and my guilt, I divorce the lying sellout confidence, I'm divorcing every mother fuckin' thing I divorce the love bled meaningless, I divorce the makeshift harmony, I divorce the taunting acts of violence, I divorce the pastime of jealousy, I divorce control, I divorce the faith, I divorce the virtue, I divorce the rain, I divorce the excuse, I divorce the greed, I divorce the need, I divorce iniquity in this mother fuckin' bullshit life, Just want it all to go away, Just want to run away to die, take it, myself, my life Text book fucking mental, off me and pitch me in a hole I'll always be your shadow, And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur, I can't be the hero anymore, I spit up on my plate and then I turn and walk away, I spit up on my plate and I disrupt the family, I spit up on my plate and I sever the entity, And I feel your warm sun on my face Separate . Eclipse you and bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur, I need you, It's always been this way, I push it all away, From me |
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| 2:02 |
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| 13. |
| 6:04 |
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Emotions inside us troubling,
The hatred inside us escalating, The sickness inside us keeps us weak, The masses inside of us suffering they are bleeding, The calling inside us sick with greed, The voices calling to us deafening we're not listening Cannot receive the obvious Line up cattle and cut the necks Swat at the flies omit disgust The leaders inside us posturing, The pollution inside of us suffocating me, The science inside us menacing The will that's inside of us its dying end is coming Cannot receive the obvious Line up cattle and cut the necks Drain us of life and cleanse the mess Wash me off inside, wash me off inside We're killing ourselves killers Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance, Too late to save us from ourselves, Callous minds against trust and confidence, Too late to give a damn now Too late to save us from ourselves, too late to make it all go away, Too late to beg pardons from the mother, too late to give a damn Now we'll sit and wait Wait wait for the coming. of the end Wait for the coming the killing the ending the plight of man Deserving no mercy expelling by god's hand, It's okay the ending it's over no more pain . Emotion the hatred the sickness the calling |
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| 5:35 |
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does your god come in a capsule,
to sedate you tear the walls down, headless prison cannibals chew, to consume you bring the alien, halcium and morphine, 5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine, brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and lsd, ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me i want it psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine, these are just a few of my favorite things x 2 trisolam and zanex, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine, tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol, amanita muscaria, boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine, give it all to me i want it cylotec and harmaline does your god come in a capsule to sedate you, tear the walls down, headless prison, cannibals chew to consume you, bring the alien you can't kill me, inside my hole, i'm already dead inside my head, it's all about escaping, numb to me, we just beg for any way to be sedated, numb body from this hell, i can feel them holding, i can feel them moving, i can feel them pushing, i can feel them pulling i can feel them prying, i can feel them prodding, i can feel them living, i can feel it, i can feel them stabbing, i can feel them scoping, i can feel them breathing, i can feel them digging consume, take in, plunging, plumbing, instruments prying, aliens inside me, tooling the machine, intoxicating, feel it unfolding, riddles in me it's all about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away who do you bow down to, does your god come in a capsule or on a plate they're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien i'm already dead to this world you tried to kill me, i'm already dead to this world |
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| 3:47 |
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Nailed inside my head,
Fuck this I don't need your shit, All the lies deceit and arrogance, Talk your shit like my life is some kinda game, Like you fuckin' know me, Just go far away and be small, Run far away and be small, Go lie in a hole and be small, Thorns, splinters, pushing, Under my skin, They want in, If you really think you got what it takes to be me, Sharpened tongue to penetrate me, Then walk a mile in the skin of my head case mental being, So you want a piece of this life that belongs to me, Well make a cut on the line and take a deeper look inside of the freak, That is me, fucker, come on, To get in lance the core to penetrate me, Disturb, search me, prying up all my scales So you want inside of me, So you want a piece of this, So you want to tear me down, for your own selfish wants and needs To get in, lance the core to penetrate me, So you want inside of me Disturb, search me, prying, up all my scales, So you want a piece of me, So you want to drag me down, For your own selfish wants and needs You were there like a punk, Just to get in my face, Wanted in me wanted to be Till I gave you a taste Frontin' stress I'm superman motherfucker Don't need your goddamn pressure Without the "s" on my chest Hurricane fist full of Novocain for the pain Trying to step in my circle I'm leaving you purple and black On your back drop your ass like a heart attack Rippin' through your life like a motherfuckin' You're nothing in my life in my head You're nothing in my life in my land Nailed inside my head You're under my fuckin' skin! I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry Always in my scene always in my sight, And threaten place always in my face I think it's time for them to Go away always in my fuckin' space, You're dead to me punk ass fuck . Always in my way There's nothing left |
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| 7:06 |
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| 2:59 |
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I am the sin of man
I ..... so just let me out I'll be back again I see through the cracks To pollute the soil in which you stand I contaminate what you grow To be inside of you again Fertilizing your seed I've got a riddle for you I'f you're wise, you'll listen to me Listen to me Listen to me Again... |
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